I saw this movie in theatres with my mother (awkwardness ensued a little bit) and my sister and her friend and fell in love with it. Then my mom bought the DVD and I watched it with two of my friends…big mistake. I ended up having to explain the entire movie to them and the symbolism of everything…sigh
I looked for a section on FF for Black Swan right after I saw it the first time and got squat. But TADA! Here it is! So I figured I'd post something.
So, without further ranting, enjoy.
Falling Perfection
The falling...it seemed like it took forever. A blissful forever. As I leapt from the platform and fell back onto the mattress...I was floating like a feather in the soft summer breeze. Everything was glowing around me...everything was just so...so...
Perfect.
I was perfect.
Even as I felt my life soaking the White Swan costume, turning it a brilliant shade of crimson, I was finally perfect. The entire world could see that Nina Sayers as flawless. That Nina Sayers was the first to be both the White and the Black Swan. That I could be what Tomas wanted, I could be seductive but innocent. But what he thought of me was of no importance anymore. Love was not what he had for me, only the need to conquer territory untouched by anyone. I was only a temporary replacement, as Beth was or whom ever had been before her. But she couldn't handle being replaced, She wouldn't preform her final ballet. And whether or not what I saw in her hospital room was reality or a dilution...she was right. She was nothing. She was broken, driven by a deep, dark lust that controlled her and everything she did. But I...I was in control.
I was perfect.
The faces that looked down at me so horrified so...shocked...they didn't care about me. But the goo that seeped across my skin slowly like a slug...the wet, sticky blood that swelled out and over her fingers as they pressed down on the wound, the injury I'd given to myself thinking I'd killed the brunette try desperately to stop the bleeding and save me...I felt nothing from it. No pain...no tenderness...nothing.
Nothing but the sweet bliss of floating, the warm lights that bathed my dampening skin.
Every desperate shift of her hands only sent me higher into the glowing embrace. Tomas' face returned to block the light again, quickly replaced by Lily's as she hover him and yelled a muted insult at him...or an order...I couldn't be sure which. But that didn't matter.
Nothing mattered anymore.
Not the disappointment I had been to my mother, not how abused I was by everyone else in the company, not even how good it felt to be the Swan Queen. I was unwanted until I was unattainable. No one wanted me until no one could have me.
I was lifeless until my final moments…
None of it matters anymore.
I was perfect.
"Nina" I heard Lily's voice muffled like my ears were full of water. Her face was glimmering with tears, out of shock...out of loss of what we could've been to each other, the friendship we could've had, or the fear redness that coated her skin I couldn't be sure. "Nina why did you...you didn't have to... oh Nina..." why she was showing so much care for me wasn't clear either. She lifted my head and placed it in her lap, gently smoothing her hands over my hair.
"I felt it..." the words seemed to shove from my lips on their own and float slowly skywards "I was perfect..." the lights began to shine so bright that they flooded my vision in a strangely comforting way. Lily disappeared from my sight as her soft lips touched my forehead before whispering in my ear. I felt the lightest touches of feathers against my skin as the world around me faded into nothingness.
"You were perfect...always perfect."
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