So I have been thinking about doing this for a while but I never really got around to it until now. I haven't written in a long time so any comments are welcome, but if you're going to flame me, instead of telling me how much it sucked why don't you try telling me how I could fix it. But any who on with the story, don't forget to R&R!

By the way I don't own any of the GW characters.

Behind The Closed Door

Chapter One

'I wonder how everyone is doing' Heero thought as he sat at his laptop, 'I know Trowa and Quatre were living together and I just talked to them, Wufei is working in Europe, and Duo is…ok so I really don't know where Duo is. He has been on my mind ever since the war ended a year ago but he just up and disappeared … ah get your mind set, your trying to be normal remember? Normal teenagers get on the internet after class and socialize, not that I really have anyone to talk to; the only people on my buddy list are the pilots. But that one girl did give me her screen name, I will see if she isn't on…'

He opened aim and the sign on screen appeared.

Name: Zero01

Password: Perfectone01

Heero stared at the screen as it opened to his buddy list. To his amazement everyone was on, including Duo. He clicked on it. His fingers flew as he typed the first message.

Zero01: You haven't made contact with any of us for the past year. I want answers now.

Shinigami: ive been livin life

Zero01: And where exactly, are you living. I tired tracking you but apparently you have come to use with a new name.

Heero sneered.

Shinigami: y does it matter u don't want to c me nor do i want you to see me, so i just left evry1 alone

Zero01: Why would any of us not want to see you?

Shinigami: idk bad memories?

Zero01: I don't know about the rest of the guys but you do not bring bad memories back when you are around me. So back to my original question, where are you living? If you are not going to answer that, then tell me what name you are going by now.

Shinigami: No, im not really wanting to talk right now… uh… im uh… going out.

Zero01: Where?

Shinigami: uh a club baka

Zero01: Why are you going to a club and what is the name of it?

Shinigami: y do you need to know any of that

Zero01: I am curious to know what you are up to.

Shinigami: yea well so are the other 3 ppl that are asking me the same thing.

Zero01: Tell me where you are.

Shinigami: …Lanningsburg

Zero01: What name are you going by?

Shinigami: uh blushes Duo….

Zero01: Last?

Shinigami: yuy

Heero about fell off of his chair, 'what in the world was he using my last name for'

Shinigami: night heero buddy!

Shinigami has now signed off

Heero was out the door before Duo signed off.

"I can't believe I told him that! I can't believe I told him!" Duo repeated as he stared walking toward the bathroom. He closed and locked the door, old habits die hard.

He placed his hand on the counter and looked at himself in the mirror. His face was sunken in from barely eating during the past 10 months along with his stomach and limbs, his hair was still in its long braid but it had lost a lot of its thickness, black circles were colored under his eyes from countless nights of insomnia and the part of his arms that were showing under his shirt were cut raw from the razor hidden from the unwanted.

'He can't see me like this, I have to get out of here' he thought. 'I will go to a club like I said I would. When I get back I will deal with everything then.'

With that Duo stepped out of the bath room and headed toward his closet. He stripped down to his boxers and pulled on a purple silk tank top, showing his arms to be diced up and down, he grimaced when he felt some of the scars pull. After throwing on some of his favorite tight black pants and shoes he headed out the door and proceeded to the club.

Once there he headed toward the bar in the back corner, colored lights playing on his pale face.

"Whatcha want?" the husky bartender said.

"Bloody Mary's fine, thanks" Duo said as he looked around. The place was dark except for the colored light and was packed full. When the drink was place in front of him and downed it and asked for another. It didn't take him long to be completely wasted on a empty stomach and starting to feel like it was time to go. As he stud up he started to fall, only to be stopped by ruff hands.

"Hey sweetie how about you and me go have some fun." A bulky guy said with his hands drifting from duos shoulders to his hips.

"Ah nah that's ok" Duo slurred. 'Oh my I have had WAY to much. Ga I want to go home and sleep'

"No one turns me down." the guy said as he pulled back.

"Ah well I just did buddy, see you around." Duo said slowly and started to walk away only to feel a large amount of pain hit his cheek. 'Oh shit I am done for' He thought as he hit the ground, hitting his head against the cold floor. He looked up just before he lost conscience to see someone knocking the guy out and then leaning over him saying his name softly before his eyes closed. 'crap'.

I found him, but only in time to see him get the shit knocked out of him. I barely realized it was him, he was so tiny and his hair lost its shine and thickness. The only way I did know it was him was by the long braid. I took care of the trouble and then bent over him to make sure he was alright, he was out cold.

'Duo what the hell have you been doing to yourself?'

I bent over to pick him up realizing he weighed only a slight bit over 90. 'This can't be good.' I took him to my car and when I opened the door to set him in, the light hit his arms illuminating loads of scars, some which I noticed were new against the tiny pale wrist. 'Not you too' I sighed and looked away from the boy in my arms. 'I don't think I can help you. But that doesn't mean I won't try.'

AN: Eh ok that was really short, but, it set everything up so it had to be done. I have plans for the next chapter and it will probably be done tonight. Any feedback will be awesome.