Pain, Love & Party
I can't help but imagine what it would be like in his arms but I don't have to imagine because I've been there. Strong biceps, that leads to a beautiful chest full of gorgeous muscles. I've been with him before like that and I know because of Lissa, my best friend. They have been going out for 5 months. Dimitri and Lissa are impossible to separate. But we can't erase the past and I w ill never want to. We had a one night thing at a party but nothing happened but before it something did. Thinking about it makes me go back into the past every time. We were at the royal court checking it out for when Lissa goes to college but the queen was gone; so Adrian was going to through a party!
I sprinted to Lissa's room and knocked over 10 times before she came to the door. I peeked in and saw Christian whipping his face.
"Ugh." I sighed to myself. They were in the middle of one of their make-out sessions again. "So what was the lovely couple up to today?" I asked.
"We were just watching a movie." Christian said glaring at me for cutting off the make-out party. I snickered and replied "Well what movie and what was it about?"
"Get your nose out of our business." Christian growled.
"Calm down you guys" chimed Lissa. "And what was so important that you needed to knock on my door 20 times." She said. She wasn't mad, I could feel that through the bond but she wasn't happy, she was just irritated.
"Well, I just came to say that there is going to be a wicked party tonight but I think that you'll be a little busy re watching the movie or trying to re watch it."I laughed and Lissa's face got red. Christian got up from the bed and came over to me to make some stupid comment.
"Christian, chill" Lissa said. After she calmed hi down I felt shock wash over her. "Who is throwing the party?"
"Who can do anything around here and not get in trouble?" I asked trying to make my point.
"Adrian" Christian said throwing a smile on his face. "What time?" he questioned.
"Um…10."I said not sure if it was right but I knew it wasn't before that. I left to let them re watch their movie again and went to go to see Dimitri; my lover and the one I can't have. I don't usually come and see him but I feel like I have to. I haven't seen him since my last training and that wasn't even training; it was right after Mason died and I put on a fake smile that he saw right through when I came for training last time. I knocked on the door and walked in; he was reading one of his old western novels again in a swivel chair.
"Hey comrade!" I said with too much excitement. "When are we going to start training again? Cause I know I have a lot more to learn." I said sarcastically. Dimitri got up, chuckled and shut his book. We don't practice that much since we are at the Royal Court but I still haven't graduated and I like training with Dimitri.
"Yes we do and is that the only reason that you came here?" he asked. He had that look in his eye that only I can get out. It was the one of love and respect but it never stays for long but I felt like this one was different. His eyes went right to mine and I could feel him looking into my soul at least that's what I thought.
"What are you thinking about?" he whispered stepping closer to me. A chill went down mine spine because he never is the one to make a move. But I didn't stop him, why would I? So I stepped closer to him, I was close enough to wrap my arms around his neck.
"Do you want the truth or something from the back of my head?"I laughed took another step forward and we were barley touching.
"Well I would like to hear what's in the back of your head and the truth." He whispered looking down at me and putting his hand under my chin to lift my head up.
"Well, both isn't an option." I whispered back.
"How about truth then. What is the truth in my Roza's mind?" I was surprised but I couldn't think right know. I could only see his li ps, perfect and flawless. His hand fell down to grab mine and I looked up and smiled. "I was thinking about why you aren't kissing me right now?" I whispered with a smile glued to my face. I put my hands on his chest and said "Okay, I lied, I'm thinking about how sexy, gorgeous, and beautiful you look right now. And how much I want to kiss you right now."
"Now that was the exact response that I was looking for." He said putting his hand on my check and bring his lips to gently tough mine. He wrapped his arms around me and I melted into him. I loved him. This is the first time I could admit it to myself but this is the first time Dimitri kissed me without a charm or me coaxing him. Well, actually I did a little of the second one but who cares, I love him. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. He was kissing my neck and whispered "Do you know how much I've wanted you?" I shook my head and right at that moment, I felt Lissa. Before I knew it, I was in her body and she was on the floor crying whispering to herself "I can't, I can't, Rose would get mad." She curled into a ball and sobbed the knife in her hand. I was out of her and starring into Dimitri's eyes full of worry and pain. "What's wrong?"
I got up and sprinted to the door but before I could get to the handle his hands were on the door. "Let me out, I need to get to Lissa." I practically screamed. I spun around and was starring right into his eyes and knew he had to let me go but he didn't. He wanted me for himself but knew it wasn't right and I knew it too. So I had to go. "Look Dimitri, she needs me, she's hurt and I can't let her be by herself."I cried and I saw that he understood, so I ran out and sprinted to Lissa's room. I got to her dorm and burst through the door, practically taking it off its hinges. I ran to the bathroom and saw Lissa sitting up and she thought I was Christian. That's when I realized that he broke up with her and all she knows is that he was tired of her always wanting to be with me. I fell to my knees and Lissa started bawling and I didn't know what to do. Christian broke up with Lissa because of me and I will break his face for her. A few minutes later she said "Isn't the party starting?" and started sobbing again.
"Why are you thinking about that right now?" I asked
"Because you will regret not going later, so go. I'll be fine. I'm tired anyway." She said calming down.
"Alright, I'll go but you have to promise to go to bed and…please don't cut." I whispered worried. But I knew if I didn't do what she wanted she would get mad about how I don't treat myself right and how I worry about her too much. I would lose anyway, so I'll leave.
"Fine, now go, you have a party to rock." She said pulling a fake smile on. I got up and left. I closed the door gently and went to get party clothes on.
I decided on a red tank top with lace straps and bottom. And a pair of jeans with holes along the legs. I felt sexy so I headed to Adrian's room, where the party was. I opened the door and the party was hot. Everyone was dancing and drunk and happy. I went over to the bottles of beer they had and grabbed one. It tasted funny but in a good way, like a first-class refreshment. I walked around looking for Adrian but ran into someone totally different. My favorite big brown eyes.
Dimitri.
"What are you doing here?" I asked surprised but excited.
"I came here to find you. Knowing that there was a party and you would be there but I thought that you would be the one on the table dancing." He chuckled. I had to agree with him that was on my list of things to do at this party. "But I was wondering how Lissa was."
"Oh." I knew this would be about something professional. "She's fine, but Christian broke up with her."
"Oh, I'm sorry but she is strong… Rose, I want to talk." I sighed and walked to a corner. I sat down and realized that my beer was gone.
"Uh. I'll be right back, I'm out." I said shaking my empty can. I looked back at Dimitri and saw he was sitting down waiting for me. I grabbed two cans of beer and saw Adrian spinning around probably trying to find me. I crouched down and went back to my corner.
"What are two beers for?"
"For when I run out of the first one. So, Dimitri, what do you want, cause I know you don't want a drink or want to party." I said trying to be mad but I just can't. Not at him.
"Rose, come here." He said loud enough for only me to hear. He patted his hand on the ground next to me motioning for me to sit by him. I crawled on my knees next him leaving my full beer on the ground. "What Dimitri, What do you want?"
"Rose, I want you to know that what we did was wrong." I tried to speak but he cut me off. "But I don't regret one second of it. Because Roza, I like you as more then my student, friend or well I don't know." He laughed and I smiled but it was nice to know I was better then everyone at this school. He grabbed my hand and I put my head on his shoulder.
"I lied again. The truth is that I love you and I just want you to know that and to know that I'm yours, always." I said expressing myself.
"And same here Roza, same here." I laughed and sat there for…I don't know how long but I loved it. But people started clearing and Dimitri Got up. "I have to go. I have guard duty tomorrow."
"Alright, good bye." I whispered I watched him walk out of the door. I soon followed and went to my room. I was so tired but too thrilled to sleep. I sat in bed and pulled the covers up to my face and eventually fell asleep with dreams of Dimitri all night.