Me: Hey This is my first Ouran fanfic!

Warning: It's Sad.. may cause tears to come out with you know- :'(

I Dont Own OHSHC

Character: Kaoru Hitachiin

Bold=Memories!

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I can't remember the day when I started to see him in a new light..

My Brother

My Twin Brother

My Flesh and Blood

Sometime I think it was a mistake to push him away.

That it was a mistake to destory our little world that we had created.

And that the things I were feeling were wrong and no matter what I must never show them to him or anyone else.

I would always feel the pain in my heart knowing I would, could never be the one for him.

The one he would never have his eyes on.

I just couldn't bring myself to hate Haruhi.. the cross-dressing commoner.

I would always catching him staring at her. He would always talk about her in my present.. not knowing what he was doing to my heart..

"Isn't She Amazing Kaoru? Finally someone that can tell us apart..Looks like Tono was right about somewhere, someone was going to be able to."

"Yah...Sure."

I know he doesn't mean it.

I know it was Taboo.

Slowly, I would see him less and less in the mansion.

I know he doesn't really have a chance with her

I mean none of us do anyways.

"Hey, there you are. Why made you so late? Where were you?"

"I'm Sorry Kaoru. But I offered Haruhi a ride home and she accepted.. Do you think it was a sign that she likes me?"

"Umm, Maybe."

But knowing him all my life he wasn't going to give up or in.

But What can I do?

I can't and won't change his mind.

So I did what I have been doing our whole lives together and that was

Supporting Him no Matter What.

"Hey Kaoru..."

"Yah..What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"I feel like Haruhi has been avoiding me.."

"I'm sure she just very busy since the club take a lot of her time."

"Yah think?"

"Yah. You should ask her to dinner the next time she's free."

"Really? But what about you?"

"What about me? I'll be fine. Don't worry."

"Fine. Thanks Kaoru. Your a good brother.."

"No Problem."

Not because I was afraid he'd make 'An Ass Of Himself' (A/N: Ep. 5)

But because I cared about him.

It doesn't matter how I feel in the end. As long as he was happy.. I was as well.

It doesn't matter that inside I felt like I was dying and alone.

It doesn't matter that he was with me less and less..

All that matter is that he's happy.

If Hikaru's Happy

Then It Doesn't Matter How I Feel.

Kaoru Hitachiin

And when Kaoru finished the letter he put it in the envelop he had found in the kitchen and sealed it shut.

But he wasn't done.

He set the letter down and brought out what he had in his back pocket.

It was small and black.

It was a lighter

And as he slowly burned the letter. He let it drop to the ground.

Tears were forming in as he watched it burn. His eyes no longer able to contain his tears, slowly dropped them down his eyes, over his cheekbones and past his pale lips falling to the floor..

All Alone and Silently Sobbing.

When nothing was lefted but the ashes

Kaoru slowly walked away, feeling broken

His feeling slowly being sealed away.

A Love that could never be returned

A Love that would be looked down upon

A Love that could never bloom..

Brushing away his tears and plastering a fake smile

Kaoru Hitachiin slowly and almost unsuccessfully had sealed away his heart and feelings.

Hikaru's Happiness withstands my own.

And with that..

The Poison Slowly and Painfully Killed Kaoru's Humanity. (A/N: /3)

Sorry! Its sad.

I was crying at the end of typing this.. :'(

Rate and Review please.. I'll make a happier Ouran fanfic next time.

-Lizzy