A/n: Companion fic to The Way I Am so I suggest reading that first. Link is in comments.
People always used to ask me, why I treated you they way I did. They always asked me why I protect you, kept you, and didn't give up with you. Truthfully, I almost did a couple of times. But something always held me back. Something that told me giving you up wasn't the right choice. So I began watching you, acknowledging what you did and how hard you tried. Amazingly, I saw how hard you tried to please me and how much you cared. You just didn't show it while I was around. And I found myself slowly becoming more used to your little quirks because of the hidden effort you put into it.
You always got so mad when I called you cute; you always said you hated me. Was that really the truth? Did you really hate me so much? I never really understood you. I tried so hard, so hard to make you happy. But in the end it seemed like I failed. Even as you grew up you still hated me. Eventually, you left me to become the other half of Italy. South Italy.
The truth is, I felt like you needed me. Not because you were a helpless child, but a person who needed to be guided back on the right path. I wanted to be that person so naturally I tried to help you. But looking back, it seems like I made you angrier than anything. But after I saw you again, after many years, I found a whole new reason why I was so kind to you. I realized that I'd fallen in love with you. I never felt like that before when I was around you, just when I met you again. And the more and more I was with you, the more those feeling grew. I wanted to be with you, to love you. But I knew you wouldn't let me. I wasn't going to force it on you either. I just really hoped that one day you would accept my feelings. I smile everyday with this thought in mind. I stand in front of your house and I smile once more as I see you at the window. You frown but I see an ever so light blush on your face. That was the only spark I needed.
The feelings of love I have for you, will never change, Romano Lovino Vargas.