Jean x reader fanfiction~ This is only the first chapter. WARNING: This fanfiction contains lemons which makes this be rated M. Please do enjoy the first chapter of "With You". All Attack on Titan characters belong to Hajime Isayama.

"(N/c)… (N/c)!" As I heard Annie I suddenly snapped from my daydreaming. "I'm sorry! What's wrong?" I could see she wasn't mad, she just chuckled lightly. "Shadis said we've got 2 hours as a reward of relaxation time due to the fact maintenance decided to repair all 3DMG today just when we needed it, just to let you know." Great. "Thanks Annie" I smiled at her. "No problem, see you around (N/c)."

Two whole hours to myself, this is rare yet great! I wonder what I'm going to do! I feel like sleeping. I bumped into someone. "Oh I'm sorry!" as I look up I see Bertholdt. "its okay" He said as he blushed fiercely, well that's Bertholdt for you. I walked around for a few minutes until I found myself at the dining hall. I just peeped through and I could feel the tension. "Everyone please be friends with him, he can be a trouble child" I saw a woman plead. Jean was yelling at her to leave, it broke my heart. Then I noticed that was his mother. I noticed Jean was starting to run out of the building so I hid. A tear was rolling down my cheek. I guess I felt bad both for Jean and his mother… his mother, heartbroken and Jean, petrified. I saw Jean near a river. I approached him from behind. I hugged him.

"I'm sorry you had to experience that. Are you alright?" I asked with the softest tone I could find.

"Go away…"

"Jean."

"LEAVE (N/c)"

Naturally I started crying out of fear and confusion. I just ran. "W-wait (N/c)!" I could hear Jean crying out to me but I ignored it. I tried to be nice but he blew it. If I had any of my family around I wouldn't even be here to begin with. I finally stopped running and reached the dorms where I just laid down and I broke down at the thought of having my family around. Since we had these 2 precious hours, then dinnertime, more free time and then lights out I just stayed in the dorm for a few minutes crying.

"(N/c)? Are you okay?" As I look up I saw Marco. He held me close to his chest and held me tight. I broke down in his arms. Once I calmed down a bit we sat down in the empty dining hall and talked. "Now, why were you crying like that? I hate seeing my friends hurt like that! If you feel pressured, remember you don't have to tell me." He said with a warm voice.

"Jean…the way he treated his mother, I felt bad for both of them! So I went to check how he was doing because I was worried about him and I tried to talk to him and he just pushed me away and yelled at me to go away! It broke my heart, I don't like seeing him like that and then I remembered my family before the attack and I just…" I stopped talking.

"You just?" Marco asked.

"I LOVE HIM! Ever since we began training and it's just so frustrating to know he'll never feel the same way for me because he likes Mikasa and I just don't know what to do! I want him Marco! I want him to flirt with me! Talk to me more and to be held by him during these cold nights! I just love him and it hurts so much Marco!" I broke out crying in his arms again ignoring the fact we could've been heard by anyone at the time.

"There, (N/c) its okay" He whispered as he stroked my hair.

"I'm sure one day you will get the chance to be with someone who truly loves you, it might be Jean or someone else but I want you to know… Jean can be a… do pardon my language but, he can be an asshole. Am I right?" Said Marco

I let out a slight chuckle "Yeah…he can be."

"Well you might not know this but you might have a chance, and when you do be wise about it because-" He was cut off by a slamming door which startled both of us. In the doorway you could see Jean. And he could clearly see that Marco had me in his arms and I had tears all over my face and his uniform.

"(N/c) can I talk to you?" Said Jean as he stood there.

Marco wiped a tear off of my face "Now might just be your chance" I stood up, hugged him and thanked him for staying with me and being such a great friend to have around.

Jean and I were walking alone. It was dark and quiet. Dinner time was coming up soon also.

"(N/c)"

"Jean"

We both spoke at the same time. I coughed and chuckled.

"I'm sorry, could I go first?" he asked.

"Sure."

"I'm really sorry about what you're about to hear but, I may or may not had eavesdropped on your conversation with Marco. I want you to know I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself, for yelling at you and in general being a dick when I could have appreciated you being there for me and I could've accepted your comfort I'm sorry…" I could see tears forming in Jean's eyes.

"My turn?" I asked.

"Yeah…"

"How much did you hear?" I asked

"...'I love him'" he struggled to say.

"Alright. One Eavesdropping isn't good Jean. Secondly, I do love you… And I'm sorry for saying this, you probably won't want to talk to me after this…I accept your apology I'm just going to go and die now in my dorm…" I said. As I turned around to leave I was pulled back by Jean and was held by his warm, tender embrace.

He lifted my chin up so we locked eyes.

Soon enough his lips were on mine. His soft lips were on mine. He kissed me. But I broke the kiss, crying and ready to question him.

"Jean! What about Mikasa huh?! I'm not dumb! I can clearly see how you look at her!" He held me there so I couldn't leave. I then felt him let go of me.

"I...I"

"Exactly."

As tears were running down my face I ran towards the guy dorms so I could talk to Marco. As I knocked on the door I was still crying. "Ah but if it isn't our beautiful little (N/c) what brings you…here? (N/c) What's wrong?!" Said a cheerful the serious Reiner. "Is Marco around? Can I come in?" I asked with a low voice. "Come, make yourself at home…"

"(N/c)…" I saw Marco open his arms for me.

"I can't do this Marco I'm better off dead, I'm just useless" I cried so hard onto his chest. He hugged me like earlier and never let go.

"Oi…guys what's going on?" Asked a concerned Eren.

"It's nothing guys, she's really upset over something Jean did…" Calmly said Marco.

"What the fuck did horse face do to you?! I'm going to beat the horse out of him! (N/c) of all people!" Yelled Eren.

"Eren shush, if Shadis finds out we have a girl in here, he'll murder all of us." Armin said quietly.

"I'm sure (N/c) doesn't want to talk about it… She's… broken." Said Marco. He stroked my hair and my back with his other hand. He's so caring.

Marco took me up to his bed and we sat there to talk privately.

"What happened?" He asked with the softest tone ever. The room was dead quiet, Reiner, Bertholdt, Eren, Armin and Marco wanted to hear it all.

"He eavesdropped on our conversation from earlier on today and he…took advantage of my feelings."

"WHAT?!" All boys said at the same time.

"Not like that, you see I've always had feelings for Jean…ever since we met."

"HORSE FACE?!" Asked Eren with a shock on his face.

"Yeah…well, He apologized for hurting me earlier on today and then I apologized for loving him. As I turned to leave, he pulled me back and kissed me… when it's clear he has feelings for Mikasa! I mean it's obvious she's beautiful, talented, nice and really strong! I'm nothing next to her. After he kissed me I questioned him about his feelings towards her and he just stuttered and my heart sank. He kissed me knowing he has no feelings towards me." My voice shaky as I spoke.

"I think you're beautiful." Said Bertholdt.

"And I think you're strong, maybe not like Mikasa but, hell you could kill some titans out there (N/c)!" Said Eren.

"I say you're talented too! I heard you sing the other day and you have the voice of an angel!" Said Reiner.

"And I believe you're the kindest, warmest girl I know here, (N/c)." Said Marco.

"You guys…" I said with a shaky voice.

I was interrupted from speaking any longer as the door handle started to move. Someone was coming in. Marco pointed underneath a bed in the dorm and told me to wait there.

"Damn it all!" Said an angry Jean as he came in the room.

"Wow calm down" said Marco.

The rest of the guys stared at him with cold eyes for making me feel this way.

"What happened?" asked Marco.

Then I felt a body on the bed I was under. It was Jean, peachy.

"M-Marco… I feel horrible, today's been too much…" said a now sobbing Jean.

"You deserve it…" Said Eren.

"What?" asked Jean.

"YOU DESERVE IT! You made (N/c) feel worthless! She loves you and you just kiss her and then think about Mikasa again?! How can you be so heartless?!" Asked Eren.

"I LOVE (N/C)" Yelled Jean.

I covered my mouth, I half believed him.

"BULLSHIT, WHAT ABOUT MIKASA HUH?!" Eren yells back.

"I DID LIKE HER BUT THEN GAVE UP ON HER A DAY AFTER DUE TO THE FACT SHE'S CRAZY OVER YOU JEAGER! YES I TRIED TO FLIRT WITH MIKASA BUT I ONLY DID IT WHEN I KNEW (N/c) WAS THERE JUST SO I COULD SEE A REACTION. I FUCKING LOVE (N/c)! I'D DIE IN BATTLE FOR HER, I'D DIE TO RAISE A FAMILY WITH HER AND SHARE MOST MEMORIES WITH HER ALRIGHT?" Jean yells back.

"WELL THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU STUTTER AFTER SHE ASKED YOU ABOUT MIKASA HM?" Eren fires back.

"I...I didn't know how to act. I had kissed (N/c) and she didn't push me away until then… She confessed her love for me and then I kissed her but she was clearly in a worse condition than before… She was broken, and it was my fault." Jean cried back.

I slowly started to get out from underneath his bed and stood up. Reiner held me in his arms and whispered "It'll be okay". I smiled back at him and he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. I sat on Jean's bed waiting for him to stop arguing with Jaeger. When Jean was going towards his bed all the boys left and decided to give us some alone time. Eren winked at me and they all went for a walk.

As Jean turned around he was surprised by the fact I was there. I stood up.

"I'm sorry…I"

"I know" I interrupted him. "I'm sorry too"

There we shared another kiss together, this time it was hard and something we both needed. His lips pressed hard against mine. He brought me to his bed and we kissed once again. I could taste the need in his mouth. His hips bucking into mine every now and then made us both react in a pleasant way. I took my shirt off and he took his off. Exchanging grins we both went back to our passionate kiss. His hands travelled my body. His lips left mine and he started sucking on my chest, leaving a mark. I moaned out in pleasure, our bodies were in heat and our skin touched each other's. As I was trying to undo my bra we were interrupted by the bell announcing dinner.

"Fuck…" was all his lips could escape. I trailed my finger down his well-toned body and smiled. I kissed him and started to put my clothes back on so no one questioned us.

End of chapter 1. Hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Stay tuned for chapter two...as things begin to unfold.