Hate
such an odd emotion
but then again
what is hate really
can you really know hate without knowing love as well?
I wonder
I wonder if what I feel is really hate
for all I know it could just be indesgestion
you really can't know hate without love
How can one like me
one who doesn't know love
know what hate feels like?
I've often said I hate things
I guess its only natural
Really, do I hate them?
Pain is the same way
you really can't know pain unless you've experienced it
How can one such as me
one who has never felt pain
how can I know if I'm really in pain
Is this feeling in my heart really pain?
I guess thats the great mystery of my life
I say I fell these things
but how can i know
I've never known so many things
so many things others take for granted
how can i be sure i really feel?
I have to laugh
So this is pain
its not what I expected
I really must thank that Saskue Uchiha
He taught me pain
Now I know
now its clear
I really was in pain
for my whole life i was in pain
my heart never stopped hurting
It makes me wonder
if i can feel pain,
can i feel love one day too?
What is this sensation?
What is this feeling?
its so strange
its not unplesant
then again, plesant is another of those feelings i don't know
i guess its plesant
i don't dislike it anyway
i wonder what it is?
Could it be?
Is it possible?
Maybe?
Just maybe?
No.
No it couldn't be
I couldn't be feeling it
how can a demon like me feel it
but wait
he's like me
he too is a demon
maybe when i'm with another demon
one who understands me
the loneliness
the fear
the pain
maybe he can teach me
That has to be it
there's no other explanation
maybe he's the one
the only on in all the world
who can teach me
teach me about love
Is it really love?
Is it even possible?
How could he love me?
I've done him so much harm
hurt his friends
his family
his village
Yet he still loves me?
He finally said those words
those four words i had never heard
I love you Gaara
and I
I said the four words i never thought to say before
I love you too
Now I know
what love is
what it feels like
Now I know
what hate is
what it feels like
I know pain
I know fear
I know sorrow
I know loneliness
But now
finally
Im not alone
I have someone to share with
my pain
my loneliness
my fear
my love
my life
my thoughts
my everything
He won't leave me
he says so every night
He loves me
he says so every few minutes
I won't leave him
he knows it, though I never say it
I love him
though I'd rather die than say it outloud
It doesn't matter
words need not be spoken
we understand each other
we know the other's feelings
I guess in the end
you really do have to know love to feel hate
pain to know comfort
and to know that you really dont want to feel either
pain or comfort
love or hate
I don't care anymore
I'd rather feel both than nothing anyday