A/N: Hey hey hello guys! I'm a first timer on writing such fiction. Lo, the mediocrity. Haha! Go easy on me. ) I originally planned on writing a Natsume-Hotaru fic. But i still don't want to die. LOL The breakup was based on my bestfriend's life. Bwahahaha!

Disclaimer: I don't own Gakuen Alice.

My Heart

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Chapter 1: Breaking Up is Hard to Do

March 20th (Thursday), 8:21PM, Mikan's room

"Hey! I'm Mikan Sakura and I've just decided to make this uhmm… radio diary? Oh right! Radio Diary! Hehehe! So, this is how it's gonna be; I'm going to record juicy events that happened in my diurnal activities… and I'm going to call you Kiwi! No, Bob, since it's shorter and has only one syllable. Haha!" Gee. Do I really sound this stupid on this tape recorder?

"Head start, I'm 15 years old and I study at a school two blocks away from my house, Alice Academy. It's pretty much a city there! My eyes probably bulged out the day I set foot there. We are ranked academically and socially (I say that's a pretty lame system, don't you agree?). My rank? I'm proud to say I'm a three-star. Yay me! Hard work really pays off, ne? And I couldn't be what I am if it weren't for my best friend, Hotaru. She gives justice for putting the word "best" in best friend. She's got these bizarre inventions that never fail to amaze me and she's got a lot of clients tailing her, too. That's how great my Hotaru is! She has a different way of showing she cares though. She's practically void of emotions. But I still love her—very much! She's so busy nowadays with the Science Fair a few days from now. That's why we can't hang out that much. But it's okay coz she said we'd have lunch tomorrow. I'm confident she's going to win!" /sigh/ Talking about my Hotaru makes me feel all tingly inside.

"I'm a pretty simple girl, really. I could live in an island with only Howalons with me. I practically slip on a tee and pants and I'm good to go. I abhor putting on make up! Shouldn't you let your natural beauty shine instead letting all these cosmetics do the job for you? Well, I say—"

RING! RING!

"Could somebody get that?" Sheesh. Sometimes, it's really troublesome to have a phone outside your room.

"Hello! Is this a missed call or what?" I couldn't help but giggle overhearing my nanny's idiocy. Does she do that on purpose?

"Mikan!" she called out. "It's for you, dear. It's your boyfriend," emphasizing the word boyfriend. I could feel her grin penetrating the concrete wall. Really. Good thing no one could see me blush.

"Wait Bob! I'll be back in a jiffy, 'kay? Don't go anywhere. Oh wait! You can't. Silly me. Hehe." as I click the PAUSE button and went outside my room.

"Hey Wrex..."

30 minutes later

"Hello Bob! Sorry to keep you waiting. Anyway, that was Wrex, my hunny for five months now. I haven't talked about him yet, have I? Oh okay. He's the most amazing guy in the whole wide world! He's the greatest hip hop dancer in our grade—in the school even! He's not afraid to show it. Well, who would with all that talent? He's tall, dark, and HANDSOME. He's a bit sensitive with his color though. Hehe. He's just too good to be true. I'm glad we're together. Going stronger. Yup. Definitely going stronger. Hohummmm. 11PM? Is that really the time? No wonder I already feel sleepy. I better sleep now or else Mum might scream at me for staying up late—again. I still have classes tomorrow. Jin-jin's our first period. /Groan/ Why can't I have a nicer homeroom teacher anyway? Like Narumi-sensei. Oh well! 'til tomorrow! Oyasumi, Bob! I'll dream of my Wrex." With a click on the STOP button on my tape recorder, I finally dozed off to Dreamland.

March 21st (Friday), 8:04PM, Mikan's room

"Hi Bob! It's Mikan again. Anyway, Hotaru's acting all weird this afternoon. She kept hitting me with her Baka gun. It hurt, you know! That idiot! She didn't even talk to me after that. I tried talking to her but she just gave me grim looks. I wonder why. Maybe I forgot that we had our lunch date. OMG! I forgot about our lunch date! Maybe that's it. But my Hunny called up. Oh, that Hotaru. She's as petty as me sometimes."

"You know what, Bob. There's this girl, Laura? Lina? Luna? Luna! Yeah, Luna! She's all over my Hunny. She's been bugging us for a while now. I think my Hunny is giving in to her meretricious charms. I'm giving Wrex his final chance. That pathetic sea witch, inveigling Wrex! She's pretty and all. But her looks are just too trashy. I mean, c'mon! Prodding around the campus in a micro-mini-skirt and what's up with all those make-up? It's not even Halloween yet! Ahh. Sorry. Maybe it's the green-eyed monster within me talking. But if she dares taking away Wrex, I'll declare World War III! Or is it WWIV? Hehe. /yawn/ I'm pooped from all those hits from that notorious Baka gun. Do we have to have classes on a Saturday? /yawn/Night-night Bob! "another click on the STOP button.

March 26th (Wednesday), 9:17PM, Mikan's room

"Oh Bob! I'm so sorry for not talking to you for five days now. You see, my heart's shattered into a million pieces! So, this was how my day went, five days ago.

FLASHBACK

I was already running with the speed of light to my classroom. I WAS LATE, homeroom started 10 minutes ago. Good thing I'm very good at running. I could compete in the Olympics! Anyway, as I opened the gigantic door (it took me a minute. Haha!) to our classroom, I was greeted by Yuu, our class representative and one of my best friends too.

"Good morning, Mikan-chan! You're 11 minutes late. Good thing there's a teachers' meeting. You're in luck. We're free all morning."

Phew! All that rush for nothing. I gave him a sheepish smile.

"Thanks, Yuu. Good morning to you, too." I replied. No wonder the whole room's in some sort of pandemonium.

I approached Hotaru. She was tinkering on an invention of hers. I know she shouldn't be disturbed, with the nearing Science Fair and all but I have to apologize.

It's now or never.

"Hotaru, I—"I started but was stopped when something hit my face. It was a picture of Wrex and on top his lap was Luna. My eyes grew wide. A picture was worth a thousand words.

My mind was totally blank.

"Save it. Go out and talk to that moronic boy friend of yours before matters get worse."

Tears were welling at my eyes, as I was trying to keep a straight face. My left foot was already outside the door when suddenly,

"Hey."

I turned.

Without even lifting her head. She said, "That costs 1000 rabbits."

With that, I cracked a smile. Oh, Hotaru.

Without wasting time, I headed left and went to the room next ours. Wrex's room was more chaotic.

"Hey Wrex! You're girlfriend's here to see you. Hey hot stuff!" a random guy said.

"I think someone's in trouble," another guy chimed in.

"Ooh. Busted!" with that, the whole class snickered.

I glared at them. The whole class abruptly hushed.

"'Sup, Hun?" Wrex greeted.

"I need to talk to you ALONE." I dragged him outside.

"Hold up! What's with all this dragging? Are you mad or something?"

Without warning I halted.

"Care to explain this?!" I showed him the picture. Was it me or his expression was contorted in every possible way?

"Oh, Hunny. Some idiot just framed me up. Don't I look hot here?" He came up with pathetic alibi.

"Well, the idiot you're referring to is my best friend, you blockhead! I've had enough, Wrex."

"Hun..."

"Wrex, please…"as I swallowed hard. I hope I won't regret this.

"Wrex, please. Let. Me. Go."

There came an eerie pause.

"I'm sorry, Hun. I'm such a dimwit for blowing up the last chance you've given me."


A single tear trickled down his face. Could I turn back time and start over again?

I'll take back what I said!

Too late.

"We're still friends, right?" he asked.

I nodded.

"No matter what, I'd always be here for you. I love you, Mikan."

He kissed my cheek for the last time as our hands intertwined. He walked me back to my classroom.

END OF FLASHBACK

"So that's pretty much it. That low life! He said he'd still be there for me. Liar! I saw him making all kissy kissy goo goo with Luna this morning. It's really heart-wrenching. How come it's so easy for him to move on while my heart's still stuck with him?! Hoooo—"

BAKA! BAKA! BAKA!

Ouchie!

"Pipe down, baka! I'm trying to sleep here. Who are you talking to, anyway?" a sleepy stoic voice said.

"You're so mean, Hotaru! I'm talking to Bob."

"Who's Bob?"

"My tape recorder!"

"Are you really that idiotic to actually name your tape recorder?"

"Yes!" whaa?! As my mind was fully registering what she said. I threw a pillow at her.

"Thanks for the pillow, Idiot." Hotaru said when she caught the pillow and drifted off to sleep.

"Noooo! I gave her my fave pillow! Anyway, hi again Bob. I forgot to mention that Hotaru is a stowaway…"

"Care to repeat that?!" Wow. She's still awake?

"Nothing, oh lovable best friend of mine!"

"Good." She dozed off. I poked her elbow, just to make sure. No reaction. Yup. I'm sure she is already asleep.

"Anyway, before I was rudely interrupted by my ever-so-angelic best friend, she's sleeping over tonight since Science Fair's over. I missed her, you know! And yeah, she won. Toldya! It's good to have her here now. She consoled me and listened to my sob stories for the nth time tonight. That's why she's a little grumpy. Hehe." My heart twisted in agony again.

"I made a poem. I know it sucks. But I have to let out my melancholy somehow. So here it is. It's entitled 'Emptiness.' Here goes."

Emptiness

It's still fresh in my memory.

The scar on my finger bears a story

I saw you with one of your kind,

You were all smiles; I noted it in my mind.

I was shattered then and there,

All I could do was gawk and stare.

I was alive, but my heart was bleeding.

I was already lifelessly breathing.

It felt like emptiness didn't want to leave my side.

Every waking moment I soundlessly cried...

Are you not aware that you killed me?

You didn't even care to hear my pleas.

Time left me behind,

Didn't heed if you were unkind...

"I still don't have the finishing line though. It's really sad how someone was my everything and now, I feel so lost. I gave him my all. Now now, Mikan. Don't go crying all over again. I guess this is it. Goodbye, Bob. I can't listen to you all over again. It brings too much pain. You bring me too much pain."

With that, Mikan took out the tape from the recorder.

"Farewell, Bob…" as she opened her window and threw the tape outside the street with all the force she could muster.

She saw it land inside a car that passed by.

"Oops!" She quickly ducked so that the victim couldn't catch a glimpse of her.

Meanwhile, inside the car

'Ouch. I didn't know people here would be barbaric. Throwing things outside the streets. What's this? A tape. Tsk.' A boy with raven tresses and red irises that looked like they glowed in the dark said.

"Are you okay, son?" a woman who drove the automobile asked.

"I'm fine, Mother." The boy answered curtly.

"Oh, good. This is the neighborhood where we're going to live. Just a few more blocks and we're there. Hang on, Natsume, Ruka!" The woman giddily replied.

The blond that was referred to as Ruka chuckled as his best friend shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

'Is this woman really my mother?' Natsume thought.

'Good thing my 'rents allowed me to stay with Natsume for a while. He could really need my company after that,' Ruka mused.

To be continued!

A/N: So, how was it? Please read and leave a review. Thanks a lot!) I let a friend read it and she said it was trash. It's the thought that counts,ne? Therefore, I'm immuned to flames. Haha!

(evading sticks and stones thrown at me. LOL)

-ashe

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