I didn´t like that Tosh was nowhere to be seen in From out of the rain...so I have added an extra scene to see more of her. So if you haven´t seen it, or you don´t like T/O, then this is not your fic...anyone else is more than welcome to R&R... Hope you like it.
Tosh watched in silence as Jack and Ianto closed the door of Jack´s office. Ianto was still quite shocked by the recent events. Maybe his love of old films had suffered a severe blow, but his love for Jack seemed as strong as ever. Those two were an interesting couple. Talking about couples. Gwen seemed just the same after being married almost for a month. Tosh had expected some changes, tiny details that showed the difference but maybe it was due to the fact that Gwen and Rhys had lived together for so long that the wedding itself had been nothing more than an anecdote, although what a tale to tell it was!
She smiled a little, remembering all the shouting, crying, running and dancing of that day. She had danced with Owen. She had never imagined that such a moment was ever going to happen. But nothing had happened between them after that. Owen was getting used to being dead. He obviously didn´t like it, but he was again the same Owen, that is, an arrogant, self-centered, medical genius that completely ignored her. No more talking about dates or dancing or anything. They had barely exchange a few words all week. She was feeling sad and blue. She was not stupid, she knew nothing serious was ever going to happen between them as long as Owen was dead, and seeing as that state tends to be permanent, their love story was doomed even before it started. But lately, she had the feeling that Owen was avoiding her. She had made the mistake of telling him, as well as everyone else, that she loved him and he had not liked it. It was hard, painful sometimes, to have him there, knowing it was not possible, first, because he was not interested, and secondly, because he was not alive anymore.
She had been angry for a while. Ianto had invited the others to the opening night of the Electro. He had smiled and offered them tickets. Gwen had said yes without thinking it twice. It seemed like she was in no hurry to get back home, where her husband was surely waiting for her. Tosh has seen her smile and had thought about Rhys for a second, probably longer than Gwen. But then she saw Owen´s eyes. He was looking at her, he saw that she had several reports in her hand, that meant that she was going to be forced to say no to the cinema night. Tosh saw how Owen was deciding what to do. One option was to stay there with her, maybe talk, or maybe, if she was very lucky, help her. The other option was simpler and Owen accepted Ianto´s offer avoiding Tosh´s gaze. She felt the cold wrapping around her heart, just like she felt it when he died or when he shouted at her and then broke his finger. The cold was getting stronger and stronger and she was afraid of it. Ianto was so happy and excited that he didn´t realise he was being rude when he simply said:
-"Sorry, Tosh, I only have 2 extra tickets, but next time I will go with you if you like"
-"It´s okay, Ianto, I don´t like old movies anyway. Go and have fun. I will protect the hub while you are out".
Tosh moved past them, fast, looking at her reports, so as not to look at Owen. He was just about to say that she did like old movies, as he knew she had seen Fred Astaire´s twice, but he saw her face and decided to stay silent.
Tosh ignored their laughs when they left the hub. She was feeling too miserable and was in no mood to keep on feeling like that. She needed to do something to stop the pain. Maybe Owen was afraid of being lost in the darkness, but she was terrified of being shallowed by the coldness. So when Jack appeared she was grateful, maybe he needed her to do something risky, an amazing mission somewhere in the other side of Cardiff, but no...he only wanted to know something about a circus and where was Ianto. And the answer she gave left a bitter taste in her mouth. They were all together, having fun, without her.
Owen had felt like crap when he saw her face. She had wanted to come, and he knew that he had been behaving like a twat with her but he needed some space to think and to understand what was happening to him. She had always been a good friend. She was kind, intelligent, trustworthy. He had always admired her, professionally mostly but also as a person. He had never realised she was actually girlfriend material till that evening when he had asked her out on a date, well, more or less he had done that, but then he had died and everything changed.
He was in no position to fall in love, and he didn´t want to hurt her anymore. Loving her was risky, specially if she knew that his feelings were changing, because she loved him and if she knew how he felt about her, her hopes would just...he couldn´t allow that. She deserved better, at least someone able to breath. He sighed in that small, old cinema, that smelled just like one of Ianto´s things. All his stuff was old, memories of someone else, things he had bought or inherited. He was so old-fashioned...wait, he was old-fashioned and he had an ex-girlfriend that was a ciberwoman and a current partner that was Jack...Wow! talk about contradictions.
Nevertheless, Owen was not interested in thinking of Ianto. He was happy, just like Gwen. But Tosh wasn´t, and he felt responsible.
-"It´s the same images all the time"- Gwen was laughing. Owen wasn´t so amused anymore.
-"Ok, let´s go back"-Owen needed to check on Tosh. He couldn´t think on anything else. She had looked so unhappy when they left.
Just a little bit...hope there is more T/O on the last one, but I have a bad feeling, I am praying to be wrong...