I'm So Sorry

This story is dedicated to my sis.

Ed: Yeah right, you just want to get on her good side so she won't kill you.

Me: (whacks him) No I'M not! Ehehehehehe…

Ed: Sure you aren't..

Me: SHUT UP SHRIMP!

Ed: Hey! You're shorter then me!

Me:….DAMN YOU EDWARD ELRIC! Anyways, I hope you enjoy this story. It's supposed to be angst. Oh! And before I forget, I don't own FMA! BTW, Ther'S spoilers in this. The italics are Ed's thought. Enjoy!

What the hell?

That was the first thought that came into my mind. Next was,

Ow..

The pain was excruciating. Nothing like I ever felt before. Envy had put his hand, or should I say blade through my chest, through my heart.

Or at least near the heart.

I coughed up blood.

Now I know how Sensei felt.

Envy took out his blade from my chest, and I was falling, falling towards the ground. Everything felt so slow. Like as though time wanted to prolong my death.

No. I can't die yet. Al, who would take care of him? Who will restore his body? I can't die. Not yet.

I hear Rose scream my name, I hear Envy laugh like a maniac, I hear Al calling me.

What did I ever do wrong? Heh, that's easy. Everything. I screwed up. And now, I was dying. Another thing to put in my list of stupid and idiotic things I've done.

I hear Al's footstep coming towards me. His familiar, clanking footsteps. I try to call out his name, but I can't. I see darkness taking over me.

God, don't let Al see me like this. How horrible it must be, seeing your older brother, your only living relative, die right in front of your eyes. I'm so sorry Al, I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry that I couldn't keep my promise to you.

I'm sorry I dragged you into this.

I'm sorry Al. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done to you. I've done so much that sorry doesn't even begin to cover it. Yet you stayed by me Al. Always. How can you be so generous…so forgiving?

I felt his hand on my cheek. My senses were getting duller and duller by every second, but I could still feel his cold, metallic hands. His hands that used to be so warm and soft. Until I did this to you. I hear him saying something but I can't decipher it.

I guess this is the end Al.

Nothing can save me now.

Nothing.

Not even your voice.

I'm dead Al.

Dead.

I know because I see the gate.

That horrible gate.

I see it…

And blackness took over me.

Next thing I know, I'm in front of the cursed gate.

Heh, must be a world record. Seeing the gate 4 times in 15 years wasn't something very normal.

For a moment, I thought I saw Al appear in front of me, and then disappear.

"Al?"

No, I must be seeing things. Great, I'm seeing things. And I it's only 30 seconds I've been here for Christ's sake. How am I going to live though my whole entire life without him?

Next, I see Envy appear before me.

Am I this desperate? Seeing the one who killed me?

But Envy was real, he was talking, asking me questions. And I was subconsciously answering them. I have no idea what I'm saying. I'm too busy thinking about Al.

I'm sorry Al.

For leading you in false hope of restoring Mother.

For promising the transmutation would be safe.

For making you lose your body.

For putting you into a suit of armor.

For promising that I would restore you.

For making you suffer so much.

For me dying and leaving you, all alone.

For having me, a stupid, idiotic person, for your older brother. You deserved better Al. A 14 year old shouldn't go through this much pain and suffering. You deserved so much better. I'm sorry Al. I'm so sorry…

"Al…Al…" I whispered, as two silent tears rolled down my face.

The End

How was it? I hope it made at least one person cry. If not, aw well.