A made up story
Innocence
By: Kayla M. Pelkey
A story about life, love and the little insecurities that come along with being a teenage girl.
Darkness
Despair
Hatred
Life
These are the thoughts of Caroline Renee Brooks. I can't deny what I'm feeling, so why even try? A good question is how do all these words go together? I'm sure no one thought of that question. All my life I've been searching for the right person to lift my heart. You know the one who makes everything just perfect? Yeah that guy. Well just when I thought I found my perfect one, he left.
Now do you understand the words I listed above? I didn't keep the perfect guy that I thought I had finally found. The feelings I have are because things didn't play out as I thought they would...no no that's not where we're at yet. So does that mean he's not the perfect one? Hmm..I'm not sure, I would think so but I'm not sure. So I'm sure whoever happens to be reading this is waiting for me to say how my life sucks and how I want to die. Or how unpopular I am and how I end my story with the hot senor jock and as the most popular girl in school. Well lets leave fantasy land for a more realistic story…just for a while I think you can handle it.
Chapter 1
Anyways my story starts back in 9th grade. I was the new student, I didn't know a person there but my cousin Kimberly Ambers. I use to call her Kimmie kicks butt, she hated that. But hey I was only 9 or 10 years old… She was the head cheerleader, the prom queen, the girl dating the basketball captain…she was everything. She was Miss. Perfect. But this isn't about her…it's about me. My life. My innocence. And mostly how that all changed. So she tried to introduce me to some nice people. I'll give her that. But after my first week she was gone. ALONE. That was until I met Nicole, she turned out to be my best friend. But as it always happens I started crushing on a boy. She knew his name and everything…just like a best friend should. Okay first off let me describe this amazing guy for all of you reading this. He was HOT!!
Yes, yes I know what your thinking "sure he was hot" But he really was, he had chocolate brown hair, but when the sun hit his hair you could see gold. He had forest green eyes and a to die for smile. He was funny, and sweet, a little shy at times but then he could be so loud and obnoxious. Which wasn't my usual type…but yeah…where was I? Oh yes…We talked regularly. He made me so happy…just talking to me. I knew after a while ever dating him would be impossible so I just flirted and remained friends. Not that I had the choice…too bad though. Okay so you all want to know his name right? His name was…Riley Todd. So aside from talking to him in the morning before leaving for school our friendship never changed. He didn't know I existed. So later in my life when I decide it was better that way. Plus I couldn't embarrasses myself. Or at least in front of him. This is why I went to school...for him. I know that's lame and very stupid but whatever.
Of course I had my best friend and she helped my 3rd year of high school pass by quickly. Even though I still stared at Riley especially when he drove his car to school. My life was normal…until the rumors started. Until my senor year of high school. I had more then one friend and but he told me everything…he liked to know the drama. Nicole and I were walking to class when my best guy friend, Chris walked up. Now Chris is a great person, funny, smart, kind and just all around fantastic. He's the guy you can call on for anything and he will help you no matter what. Chris is a friend, I know that without him I would have been lost all throughout high school. He helped me with school work, home work and even my stupid problems. Ha he's the greatest!
Anyways he walked up and his face held the expression of deep confusion. He's one of those people you don't have to ask what's wrong. He'll tell you straight up if he's bothered. So he did, which is what I liked.
"Where were you on Friday?!" he practically screamed the words at me. His face was still confused but also had a hint of longing. As if he truly wanted to know, which I thought was odd he knows everything I do. Why would he ask? "I was at the movies, with Nicole you know that. We saw Life in my body. It was really great you should see it some…" I stopped so suddenly because his facial expression went from confusion to suspicion just as fast as I got the words out. I imagine he must have seen my face hit shock because soon after he was rambling on about " Jason and Julie seen you at the mall and Julie says you went to the bathroom right after Austin went in and….blah blah blah." Wait did he just say that? I mean Austin? REALLY? EWWWWWWWW! Hold it! You don't know who Jason, Austin, or Julie are do you? Didn't think so. Julie is the school, scratch that town liar. She's the first to hear a rumor and there for the first to spread it around. Now Jason he's her boyfriend and can't stand it that ( wait for this because I don't think you'll believe it) I won't date him. Funny isn't' it? Another funny thing is Julie doesn't know. I like parties I'm not some old women so I have been to my fair share of "get togethers" or "study groups" ha-ha….But at one party Jason really noticed me and I mean really noticed. He wouldn't leave me alone for the whole night. But Julie did see that. And ever since then I knew I would get "pay back." I wasn't scared, I mean what could she do? Now Austin he's just a guy who thinks he is the best thing out there. He's not, I won't even waste time describing him. He's just not worth it, but Julie must have seen how much I don't like him because before me stood Chris still blabbing about something stupid.
"WAIT!" I shouted, I felt like my world was spinning so fast I couldn't stand. Chris stopped talking shortly and then said "What's going on Caroline?" I feel my body shake, I know there is more to the story then Chris has said, he won't go into detail at first but I know there is more. Then I realize that Nicole and Chris are waiting on me to answer his question. My head is moving side to side but I can't make the words leave my mouth until I see him. Austin he's talking to Riley, then Austin winks at me. Riley looks through me. And then I whispered "I honestly don't know" that's when the tears start. I run to the bathroom, past Julie who throws her head back and laughs. Her laugh breaks through my thoughts to a point where I'm lost and dizzy. I hear Nicole's feet behind me and feel Chris's worried eyes on my back while I choose to ignore his shouts of confusion.