Yeah, so I was like bored and I wanted to write something short while waiting for my new chappie of 'Their Boss' to be beta'ed and so I came up with this... Please enjoy!
Just a Crush
A crush… it's just an admiration right?
I remember the time he spoke to me with those steely eyes staring straight down at mine…
"It's just a crush…"
Nothing more… always less.
"Yes… I guess it is…" I replied meekly. I wasn't sure how I should feel. But one thing's for sure. There was this itsy bitsy prickle in my heart as he spoke that.
Crush…
Yes…
Of course…
An admiration…
A feeling of delighted approval and liking.
A wonder… astonishment…
A favorable judgment…
To admire…
Nothing… there's nothing about love… nothing…
Just 'like'…
We both like each other… not love…
A mutual understanding…
Evidence?
A bold person asked him… 'How much are you in love with him?'
The him-was of course… me…
And I knew what he'd answer… so I muttered (mostly to myself) "He's not in love…" but I wasn't able to finish what I was about to say as he spoke up…
"I'm not in love with him… it's just a crush…" he said with that monotone voice
…that monotone voice of his that is a part of his unreadable side. I'm never sure if I ever please him or make him happy. He's hard to read… so every day I wonder if I bore him… if I'm good enough for someone as no good as me for him?
My heart made that small prickle again, but I managed a small smile to the person who had asked and who was now looking at me with a raised eyebrow as if asking 'Is that okay with you?'
Okay?
I guess it is…
A bit disappointed…
But… okay… fine.
Content.
As long as I have this special bond connected with him… mou… it's enough.
Even though there are times when tears would cascade down my face… it's alright.
And there are also times when I would reach out to his hand, but immediately retracts it with a clenched fist… it doesn't matter…
All I need is patience…
Let's just be friends for now and at the same time… maintain this special feeling we call 'admiration'.
Because I know… someday…
You'll be saying "I love you" as a daily basis
You'll face me without that indifferent mask anymore…
You'll hold my hand with your warm one and be with me…
Then… I'll be more than just someone to be admired…
I'll be the person who'll be in the other of your red string.
So… for now…
Let it be…
A Crush…
Owari
THREE words! Based. on. experience.
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