Hi guys, I've been trying to gain enough courage to start this kind of story. Not sure where the story is going, or if they'll be more chapters, but here you go. I was reading a poem when I got the idea for this story. I forgot the name of the poem, but it may be obvious to someone as they are reading.

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Disclaimer: These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers.

Confession #1: We are love between shadows

Dear diary,

He tempted me, and I let him. I didn't run from him because I am weak. He is my weakness, and I am his. All he did was touch my shoulder and my body reacted the way that it always has. I am his. He could smell my arousal; atleast that's what he had told me. He knows my body well, because I am his.

His lips touched mines with the softest lips. He was so gentle with his touch, yet desperate like I would disappear underneath his finger tips. He kissed me reverently with passion that held so much warmth. And like all of our encounters it left me craving more.

His fingers set my body on fire, I shuddered under them when he gripped me close. He didn't care if anyone saw us, it's me who is usually worried. Because this is wrong. How we feel about each other is wrong. It doesn't stop me from missing him.

I always miss him.

I close my diary, feeling helpless and alone. Its been hard being away from him. He knows where I am, and hasn't come. I know he won't come. New Years Eve spent in my dorm room alone, all because I couldn't stand the thought of being in the same room with him and his wife. No way I would be able to contain my tears.

I close my eyes and sit back and think about those amazing green eyes. I sigh in contentment, smiling as I imagine what our next meeting will be like.

He decides when we meet. He dictates our entire relationship.

But this is wrong. We are wrong. What we are doing is wrong.

He is a married man. He said vows that at the time he really meant, but ever since I showed up in his life it's made him question alot of things about his marriage. That's what he had told me.

He makes me feel young and stupid, but at the same time he makes me feel alive and free. But I'm not free. I'm in love with a married man.

I have to talk to someone about these feelings, but who?

I can't talk to Alice for obvious reasons. She can never know. Her older brother and I have a secret. We are a secret. We are forbidden. We are in love. She wouldn't understand.

I can talk to Angela, my other room mate. She'll know what to do. Hopefully she'll talk some sense into me. She figured out our little secret last month and instantly told me to knock it off, but I can't. I told her that. She understands. She has a love if her own, she gets it. That doesn't mean that she approves.

I dial her number and wait for her to pick up. "My Bella bitch, Happy New Year.", she's drunk.

"Happy New Year babe. I hope that you're not driving in your condition", I say in a reprimanding tone.

"No definitely not B. Ben's here, and he's totally sober", she slurs.

"Sure", I say through laughter. There's no use in talking to her. She's drunk, and won't remember the conversation. "Be safe Ange"

"I will boo, nighty night Bells", She says and I laugh again hanging up.

I sigh staring down at my phone wondering if I should call him. Its 12:30am, and I haven't so much as gotten a Happy New Year text from him. Why can't I just be mad at him? I want to be free, but freedom means that I'm without him. I can't live without him. Love won't allow it.

I will not cry though. It's a new year, and I promise myself a change. I am a twenty three year old woman, in love with a thirty five year old married man. Can I really promise myself change, when that's the very thing that will separate me from love. Love like I've never felt before. Love like rushing water, overpowering, overwhelming, all consuming love...

Love is selfish. Love makes me wait...

Ding.

Its a text. I look down and roll my eyes. It's from him.

Open the door. -E.

I furrow my eyebrows. Is he at my front door? A smile spreads across my face. Love is exciting.

I stand and slowly walk to the door, looking out of the peephole. I stare at his gorgeous face feeling my heart flutter. "I know you're there Bella", He says. Love knows. He always knows.

Opening the door, leaving one hand on it, we stare at each other. I probably look like shit, seeing that I wasn't expecting him.

He knows what I'm about to ask. I ask the question all the time. He's prepared. Love always is. "Where is she Edward"

"Who, Bella", He asks me even though he knows who I'm referring to. Who else would I ask about?

"Your fucking wife!", I all but yell. He takes a heated step towards me, and I take a step away from him. If he touches me the argument is over and he knows that. He pinches the bridge of his nose, licks his lips and takes another step forward, pushing his way into the house. He closes the door behind himself.

"I'm here with you", He says trying to get my mind off of the problem.

"Why?", I ask folding my arms over my chest, and I can visibly see him getting angry. "Why are you here?"

He takes another step towards me, but this one is threatening. "You know why the fuck I'm here Bella. I told you that I would be and I am", He puts a hand in his pocket, and sighs heavily. "Come here", He says softly, but I don't move. Love doesn't like being disobeyed. "Baby I'm trying-"

He starts but I cut him off. "-Don't call me that", I sneer at him. I heard him call his wife that.

I watch as he clenches his jaw. "Bella", He sighs. "I came here to be with you. I want to be with you.", I look down, feeling weak. "Please come here", I look up, and the look on his face makes me relent.

I take three steps until I am right in front of him. He doesn't touch me yet, but I know that its coming. We stare into each others eyes, and I feel our connection. He turns his head slightly craning his neck. "Be with me.", He whispers as his lips lightly brush my neck and I shiver, rolling my eyes into the back of my head. "I miss you", He whispers as he kisses my neck again. I can't take anymore. I reach up putting my hands into his hair, pulling his face to mines for a kiss. There's desperation in our kiss. There's unspoken words, there's a connection beyond anything I have ever know and it makes it hard to breathe.

I pull away from the kiss feeling his arms engulf around me. "I needed you", I whisper, and Love understands. We haven't seen each other in almost three weeks due to his traveling, and it's been hard with my college finals. I have really needed him.

He leans back looking into my eyes. "I know", He says pushing my hair out of my face. He pecks my lips once more before grabbing my hand pulling me to my bedroom. He sits on the bed pulling me to stand between his legs. He places his hands on my waist looking up into my eyes. "I promise that I-"

I interrupt him. "-No more promises", I shake my head not meeting his gaze.

"I promised that I would be here tonight with you and I am", He grips my hips pulling me closer. "Now be here with me. I need you"

"You don't need me!", I say and his eyebrows furrow. He has a wife at home who's willing to put out, yet he comes here. "You'll get your temporary fix and then go back home to your wife.", His face falls. "You don't need me Edward. You want me!", I say to him, and his hold on me becomes firmer as he rests his head against my stomach.

"I need you.", I hear the desperation in his voice, but I don't want to believe. He runs his hands down my legs, and slowly stands. His body touching every inch of mines with our close proximity. He stares down into my eyes, green into brown. I don't want to deny myself what is no doubt going to be a pleasurable experience, but I don't want to give in to him again. I don't want to be filled and loved, only to be left alone in bed when I wake up.

Then again, I don't want to live with regret. I want to live for the moment. I want to feel his long fingers play me like he plays his piano. I want to feel his toungue dance around my clit until I cum in intense pleasure. I want him to fill me so completely that our hearts beat together.

I understand, because I need him too. I always do.

He kisses me, and in that moment I could careless that he's married. His lips do that to me. I close my eyes and feel, connection, passion, desperate, lust, love. We pull at eachothers clothes, ripping and tugging til we are both naked, tongues swirling together battling for dominance.

We lay back on the bed and he sucks my nipples until they are both perky. I moan, gripping his head between my fingers. No matter where he touches my stomach clenches. My body is on fire. I feel his hands every where at once, and it's consuming me, making me wetter. "I'm going to fuck you so hard baby"

"Unghh", I manage to say through slight pants.

"I'll be gentle later", He says as he positions himself at my entrance, and I instantly notice theres no barrier. I'm too drunk on him to care. Words escape me as he plunges into me with so much force my head hits the headboard.

"Fuck yea baby...mmm", I moan out closing my eyes to enjoy.

"Look at me baby", He grunts out and my eyes pop open to look at him. He relentlessly pounds into me, showing me how much he has needed me. He places his hand on my clit and rubs furiously. I feel my orgasm coming already. "Shit!", He hisses as he thrusts upward hitting my g-spot.

"Oh god", I moan out as he places my legs together and slams into me. The sound of our skin slapping fills the room and it spurs Edward on, as his pace quickens. "Fuck me!", I all but shout. We fight through to our orgasm, I cum so hard it almost forces his dick out, but he doesn't stop. He continues thrusting into me. I see him close his eyes, coming closer to his orgasm.

"Bella... ahhh...Fuck!", He shoots his seed into me, releasing my legs. They fall back to the bed as he rests his head against my chest, still placed firmly between my legs completely spent. I run my fingers through his hair, and smile up at the ceiling, slowing down my heart.

After awhile I think he's sleep, but realize that he's not when he speaks. "I'm so sorry", He mumbles against my stomach. "I'm a fuck up, and you keep taking me back. It's not fair", He says. Love is never fair.

"You won't let me go", Not that I want him to.

He sighs, rolling over onto his back bringing me to lay in front of him. "I will never let you go", He says.

I want to believe him when he says things like that, but we both know how this ends. It's far from a happily ever after. "Baby", He says and my eyes snap to look at him. "Happy New Year"

I smile, because two months ago he said that today we would be laying in my bed cuddled up, and there was no place he'd rather be then with me on New Years Day.

"Happy New Years", I say with a big smile on my face. He kisses my shoulder.

Shortly after my eyes closed and my breathing began to even out I hear a phone ring. It's Edwards phone. I know who's calling.

"Hello", He answers groggily. I look back at my alarm clock to see that its three in the morning. I frown. She couldn't give us a few more hours. "I'm still on the plane", I look over to see him rubbing his eyes. "I missed that one and had to take another one Lauren",

The sound of her name makes my skin crawl. I hate her. She has Edward, she's married to him and is taking him for granted. She's a terrible wife and mother. What I would give to be thirteen years older so I could've met him sooner. I hear a heavy sigh and it stops my train of thought. "He should be sleep, Lauren.", Edward says and I roll my eyes. She doesn't even know how to take care of her seven year old son. "Tell him to go to bed.", He sighs, looks over at me with a silent apology. "Hey little man, it's time to go to bed", I smile. I think it's adorable the way that he talks to his son. "Well if you go to sleep now, when you wake up I'll be home", He says and I frown. He has a home, and it's not with me.

I know our deal, and have for the past five months. We are secret meetings and hidden encounters. We are timed getaways at hotels with fake names. We are liars...we are cheaters...we are love between shadows.

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