I just read chapter 450 this morning. I was crying really hard afterwards. I decided to make this oneshot. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail! If I do then chapter 450 will have a happy ending!
I walked through this forest again. I can't even count how many times I have walked this path. I have been searching for Mavis for about a year now. I wanted to see her again, because she was the first one who accepted me, who smiled at me in years. She comforted me with her illusions the first time we met, even though I was a complete stranger. I felt completely drawn to her, for some reason.
I stopped in my tracks when I found the girl I have been looking for.
"I've been looking for you, Mavis," I said, looking at her.
"Zeref," was all she mumbled.
"You look terrible," I continued, looking at her ragged clothes and her thin figure.
"I haven't eaten in half a year already," she explained, "but, I'm still alive."
I told her seriously, "That's what the Ankhseram Curse is. You wouldn't die if someone beheaded you."
She sobbed and begged me to kill her, but I told her that it is impossible for both of us to die.
I spoke softly, "This world refuses to accept me..."
What happened next surprised me. Mavis hugged me and comforted me.
"But I won't! I'll accept all of you! The only one that understands how you feel is me. So don't give up. We'll find a way to break this curse. Let's find it together..."
No one ever accepted me, because of my curse. She was the first one to treat me kindly. I suddenly realized why I was drawn to her. I loved her, her determination, her voice, her smile.
I bent down, getting closer and closer to her, and told her, "It's also the first time I've loved someone this much...", and pulled her into a kiss. After all I treasured her. Although the curse takes everyone who I treasured away, it wouldn't take her away because she was immortal, right? It felt so right for a moment. When I couldn't feel her grip on me, realization dawned on me. I pulled away and saw her lifeless body.
I was wrong, the curse takes everything from me. Even though she was immortal like me, she still died from my curse. It should be alright, right? After all we were under the same curse, so why did she die? My love for her had killed her, I realized. Nothing has ever worked in my favor, ever. This was the ultimate punishment.
This curse has taken the most important person to me right now. I feel overflowing, hot tears sliding down my cheeks. My heart hurt so much that it became numb. The pain was worse when I tried to kill myself. It was hurting me emotionally, eating me up from the inside. I wanted to go back in time to turn back that mistake that killed her. I wanted her to be with me, but she was gone, gone forever.
The true punishment wasn't to keep me alive forever and see people die, the true punishment was to feel the pain of losing the closest person to you. I wanted to scream, to scream that this wasn't fair, but life was never fair. It was my fault for her death, and it will always be. I encased her body in a glass crystal and left with all the pain. I am only am empty shell with nothing left, but pain, wandering aimlessly in this world.