In Misaki's P.O.V

Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High Host Club except for Misaki.

"Do you still love me?"

I stared at his angry amber eyes with shock. How could he think such a thing?

"Hikaru..."

"Just answer the damn question!"

I just started at him in disbelief.

"Hikaru, of course I love you. Why would you think that I don't love you?" I asked softly.

Without a word, he held up a letter.

"Then explain what this is." he said bitterly.

My eyes widened as I recognized the letter.

"H-how did you f-find that?" I asked

I had hidden that letter among my other belonging before I had married Hikaru, intent on never laying my eyes on it again. Soon after I had moved in with Hikaru, I had lost the letter.

"I was looking for a letter and came across this," he looked at the letter, "I thought is was the letter i was looking for and opened it..." he looked back up at me, "Who is Daito?"

My eyes burnt but I held the tears back. Daito had been my first love and at the time, my whole world, but that was well before I met Hikaru and he turned out to be a better guy then Daito.

"Daito...Daito was..." I paused to regain my composure, "he was my first love...I met him well before we were married"

Hikaru's eyes narrowed slightly and he walked to stand in front of me.

"Do you still love him?" his voice was low as he spoke.

"N-no! I don't!" my eyes widened at the question, "the only one i love is you! Daito means nothing to me!"

"Don't lie to your self," Hikaru said his voice still low, "you still love him don't you?"

"I don't I swear!" I reasoned, "I met him in high school...but after a while he turned out to be a jerk! He means nothing to me!"

Hikaru stared at me with lifeless eyes. His hands formed fists and the letter was crushed.

"Please don't lie to me Misaki!" he shouted before grabbing hold of my shoulders.

My tears slipped down my cheeks as I looked into his slightly red eyes.

"He still holds a place in your heart doesn't he? So please don't lie to me when you say that you don't love him!" Hikaru's placed his hands on the sides of my face and asked, "Do you love him?"

I slowly nodded, my tears falling harder. I wanted to shake my head but just couldn't. A little part of me still loved that jerk even when I so desperately didn't want him to. Slowly, Hikaru's hands slipped off my face and fell to his sides.

"Have you felt this way for the 9 months we've been married?" he whispered.

I stayed silent but the silence answered his question as I saw his face harden. I knew he was so desperately trying to keep his emotions under control.

"I'm sorry Hikaru..." I whispered.

He just stared at me before turning around and facing the other way. My heart sank.

"Hikaru...I fell in love with you...Daito may still hold some of my heart but you hold the rest. Please believe me when I say I love you." I whispered as I placed my hand lightly on his back.

He looked back at me.

"How can you be so sure?" he asked.

"I'm sure. I love you Hikaru." I replied softly.

I saw a single tear roll down his cheek.

"I...I need to think" he said softly before turning away and took a step towards the door.

Instinctively I ran forward and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him from behind. I buried my face in his back, inhaling his scent. After a moment, I felt his large hands cover my much smaller ones. I loosened my grip as he turned around and met his confused, hurt and angry yet very sad amber eyes.

"S-sorry..." I whispered letting go.

I felt his fingers brush my fringe aside then a soft and gentle kiss in my forehead was followed.

"I appreciate your honesty Misaki," he whispered before looking down at me, "get some sleep."

I looked up at him and saw his sad smile before he turned around and left the room.

I walked over to the bed of our room and sat down. I let go of the remaining tears as I fell back into the soft velvet covers of my bed. Why did I still feel something for Daito? I was over him...or at least I thought I was...but I knew I loved Hikaru more, he was the man who healed my heart and filled the gaps of my once empty life.

I buried my face into the soft velvet and wept. Our marriage was arranged by our parents and although we were both against it at first, we decided to at least meet and get to know each other. Before we knew it, we had fallen for each other which led to getting engaged and finally getting married.

"Why did I still love that jerk?" I thought angrily as I settled into a night of tossing and turning.

I hope you liked this first chapter. Let me know what you think of it. I'm having a case of writers block for my other fan-fiction, 'Opposites Attract' and came up with this. I will most likely update this fanfic soon.