Scared Of What You Don't Know
Summary: Clare didn't take Eli back out of the goodness of her heart
Pairings: Clew, Eclare, mentions of Drianca
Author's Note: I'm...not an Eclare fan. I'm not an Eli fan, so I was pretty pissed that they got back together. You can see that on the bottom of my profile. But then...I thought of it. She takes him back after kissing Drew and that made me think. Maybe she's starting to like him and she's scared of that. And so, this fic was born.
Clare Edwards climbed out of her bed with a sigh. There was no use trying to get to sleep. She'd already tried earlier and it hadn't worked out. She was going over the day's events in her mind. Eli hadn't just kissed Lenore. They hadn't had full on sex, but they'd come close. She honestly didn't know why she'd forgiven him. Except...
Except she did. Kissing Drew had startled her. Not because he was a bad kisser or anything, not even close. No. What got her was how much she'd enjoyed it she'd felt the butterflies in her stomach. She'd felt the sparks. She could easily admit that Drew was a great friend and smarter than most people gave him credit for. He was also very attractive. And they'd formed a bond when they became student council president and vice president. It had grown stronger. He'd become her rock and she'd become his. She wasn't afraid to tell him about her fears of not getting into college because of the side effects of chemo, he wasn't afraid to admit his self doubt. And it had become theraputic for them to talk about Adam. About their favorite memories of him. Drew had regaled her with story after story about Adam before she'd known him.
Still though, she was scared. She knew Eli and had loved him for so long. She'd lost her virginity to him for god's sake. It was easier to just be with him than to risk her friendship with Drew. There was no telling if it work and Drew had cheated on his girlfriends, too. And he still loved Bianca. It would've been a mess. So then why did her heart ache so much? Suddenly, Clare was wondering if she'd made the right decision at all.
The End
Author's Note 2: Might actually write a fic of Clew/Drare actually getting together, this is just what I think that Clare was thinking.