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Tied Together with a Smile (Taylor swift) Harry fic

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you

The face staring back at him is mocking, both handsome and gruesome. This is the face the wizarding world looks up too... But also the one who failed to save George, to save Remus, to save Tonks, Mad-eye, Dobby, Lavender, Colin...

Even Snape.

The names weigh him down, pulling him further and further into the black, inky depths of depression.

For every person he saved, there are another five he couldn't.

And he just can't bear to think-

Was it even worth it?

You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you...

Who actually knew him, anyways?

Ron and Hermione, maybe. But they were to involved, involved in their jobs, in each other...

Ginny, who always seemed to know what he was thinking... But she wasn't here, she was at Hogwarts, finishing her seventh year of school...

As she should be, and he wanted her to be there, but he also wanted her here, with him.

He needed her as a buoy, to keep away the memories, to know what he'd been through, what he'd done, and still love him through it all.

But she wasn't there, and he was.

[Chorus:]
Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows

He was loosing it, slowly, succumbing to the darkness at night, trying to keep his head up in public...

It was driving him insane and no one could tell.

That you cry, but you don't tell anyone

He still woke up at night, tears streaming down his face, his shouts ringing through the small flat.

Not that he'd ever tell anyone, and the marks and stains of the night were always gone by day, by the time it took to get to work.

That you might not be the golden one

He still had his doubts, his private thoughts, when someone passed him in the ministry on his way to the office, and called him the Chosen One. Doubts on whether he had actually done anything, or if he had, like Voldemort had said, hid behind the backs of those stronger and wiser than him.

After all, he'd said it himself, in fifth year- he never could've done all that stuff, not without help.

And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone

He tried to keep it together, hiding behind a mask of smiles (fake) and laughs (faker). He held it together, because if the hero collapsed, so would the world, right?

But he didn't know how much more he could take.

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket

All he really had ever wanted was to have someone, someone who understood, who knew what it felt like to have the weight of the entire world on his shoulders, to know what it was like to have everyone depend on him.

Now, he wished he'd never wished that.

If he'd known what it was like before...

He wouldn't wish this on anyone.

But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...

He sometimes wished that they would leave him out of all this. After all, he'd gone from a war to head of the aurours. But it wasn't their choice, and besides, he would never be able to deal with not being in the thick of things. He'd go mad first.

Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows

He had to keep up his public image, or everything would crumble. But inside, he was the one crumbling...
Brick by shoddy brick.

That you cry, but you don't tell anyone

(Of course he didn't tell anyone.)

That you might not be the golden one

(Still had his doubts about that, too.)

And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone

(Brick by shoddy brick.)

You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh

(Will you ever be healed?)

Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby

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