Chapter 1: It's a start
DISCLAIMER: I am not SM so Twilight is not mine.
They left me.
They….left me.
They left….me.
They. Left. Me.
THEY. LEFT. ME!
'How could I have been so stupid? How could I have honestly believed that they cared for me? That they liked me? That he LOVED me? After all, I was nothing more than a pet human.' I chuckled darkly. 'He used to scoff at the other boys because those boys only thought of me as a shiny, new toy, a pretty bauble that they liked, a novelty. How hypocritical of him.' I laughed hysterically. I stood up from my chair, ignoring the angry throb of my legs from being confined in a strained position for the past few weeks. I slowly walked towards the vanity mirror and memorized my appearance. My hair was messy, my skin was shallow, my eyes were blood shot, and my lips were bruised because of me biting it. I looked horrible. But oddly enough, I thought it was beautiful. As I stared at my ghastly appearance, I realized how beautiful it looked on me. 'Trust myself to think I'm beautiful when I'm like this.' I turned around and walked towards my bed. I sat softly and hummed. 'He always said he was the masochist when in truth, it was me.' I rested my tired and aching body and closed my eyes. 'But was he really worth all of this?' was my last thought before darkness consumed me.
I absently washed the dishes. Charlie has already left for work after kissing my forehead. I decided to go out into the forest. As I was walking deeper into the woods, I thought about our relationship. I realized a lot of things. 'Maybe I was a fool. Maybe everyone was right. He isn't good for me.' I smiled sadly. 'If only I had a sign to show me that I was a fool.' I shook my head and walked on not paying attention to anything. I didn't realize how far I had walked until I suddenly fell into a cold river. I shrieked as I fell. "BELLA!" I heard someone shout. I flayed around in the water before somebody pulled me out. I started coughing out and shivered. Somebody placed a blanket around me and started leading me towards the house. "DAD!" I shouted as he came into view. I ran to him and he pulled me in a tight hug. "Oh Bella. I thought something bad happened to you. Why'd you leave the house? Everyone was so worried about you." I shivered again. "I don't know. I thought some fresh air might do me good but I didn't expect to go far. When somebody called out my name, I was startled and fell into a river. I'm sorry, daddy." He pulled me into another hug. "Everything's fine now sweetheart. Let's get you warmed up inside okay? Sam, thanks once more for finding Bella." It was only then that I noticed Sam. He nodded once and then left. Charlie guided me inside and sat me in front of the fireplace. He lit it up and I shivered as the heat helped me. Charlie gave me a cup of hot choco and patted my head. "Dad?" I called him. "Yes sweetheart?" I faced the fire once more. "I just wanted you to know that...I'm over it." I whispered. "Oh Bella." Daddy hugged me tight. 'He must have been so worried! I was so selfish!' I mentally slapped myself. "I'm glad you're healing Bella." He stood up once more. "If you need anything just call me okay?" I nodded mutely. Charlie went up to his room. 'Was I saying the truth?' I asked myself. 'Am I really over the Cullens? Over Edward?' I was shocked. It still hurt but I knew I was healing. 'Maybe not completely, but it's a start.' I made sure that the fire was controlled and won't burn the house down before I took a warm bath and then slept deeply after what seemed like a long time.