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Summary: Edward left Bella when he was 18 to become a soldier. 4 years and a college degree later he comes home with Tanya as his fiancé. Will they be able to get back together? Can they decide who is truly worth the pain? AU/AH.

Warnings and Rating: This story will contain language and sexual references. It may contain scenes of a sexual nature and will probably contain violence. I rated it M to be safe.

Forever in Your Heart

The truth is everyone is going to hurt you; you just need to figure out who is worth it.

Four years ago he left for Fort Sam. I haven't heard from him since. O I have heard of him, but never from him. Our parents, well my dad and his parents, have become great friends. They hunt, fish, and enjoy the Washington wilderness together every weekend. This leaves me to bond with his siblings. They haven't heard much from him either. All I know is that he was honorably discharged, and then went to study business at the university in Juneau. He hasn't sent so much as a postcard my way since the day he said goodbye.

We fell in love when I was sixteen and naïve. He was 17 about to be eighteen with goals of outshining his older brothers. Jasper was an army major by 20, and Emmett is a top quarterback in the NFL. His sisters, well adopted sisters, Rosalie and Alice were just as successful. Alice being a big time New York fashion designer and Rose a model. Needless to say he had a big footstep to follow in. He met me right after my mother had died of breast cancer. He sauntered up to me my first day at Forks High and introduced himself. He told me bits and pieces about his family and how he was the youngest. He was the only Cullen child born to Esme and Carlisle, a shock considering he had four siblings. He was also the only one with little idea of what he wanted to be when he grew up.

Carlisle and Esme placed the most weight on his shoulders. He knew it was unintentional, but he was still faced with the stress of finding his calling before the age of eighteen. Everyone else in his family expected him to be great, but he knew little of what he wanted.

It surprised me when on his eighteenth birthday he announced that he was joining the army. He had already graduated high and had not chosen a college. I figured he was going to be a doctor or teacher, never join the army for senseless killing. On his birthday he told me and I quote,"Bella, this is the last time you will see me for a long time. I want you to move on with your life, and be happy. You will be in my heart and memories always, and be the only thing I wish to run home to." After that day I haven't heard anything from him in four years.

He rarely messaged his family and never came home over the holidays. I think maybe he was embarrassed by the fact he had to leave the one thing he thought he could succeed at. He went to college in Alaska shortly after he was discharged due to health reasons. He wouldn't say exactly what they were, but I had a feeling that it was due to the metal plate in his leg.

Edward, it still hurts to say his name, was my only reason for breathing. I still love the man to this day, and have never settled for replacements. I blow through men left and right, never letting myself feel anything for them, because I know in my heart I will only be let down. Edward is the only man that is right for me. He is the only one who can make my heart sing and smile beam. No one else has ever been able to make me feel the way he does. No one will ever have a shot.

I am sitting next to Alice on the couch, bouncing alongside her. The drive to the airport and back has never seemed so long before. "Alice, do you think he will still love me?" I ask her staring at my jiggling feet.

"Bella, he almost loved you more then his own family. I'm sure he never moved on and still loves you even more then he did on the day he left." Alice confidently told me.

"Then why didn't he write? He didn't even send me congratulations on my graduation. It's almost like he never existed."

"I know he will still love you, it might just take him a while to realize it." Alice replied. My best friend was in tune with everything; however she was also super cryptic and often spoke in riddles. She rarely said something without it needing decoding by some code cracker. I guess that's just the way life works, You get a psychic best friend , who can give you an answer to just about everything, however her answers are always in code form and rarely contain the answer you were truly looking for.

I heard the car pull into the driveway and suddenly my stomach felt like it was in my throat. I think I even lost a few shades, because Alice looked at me like I was ghost.

We heard the doors slam and footsteps on the front porch of their Bellevue house. I was shaking from nerves and waiting expectantly for the door to open. Please let him remember me.

I heard Charlie's voice say "Welcome home son. We missed you." I hid my depression, and the fact that Edward had never written me from Charlie. They needed to maintain their relationship. When I cried for the first few days he just thought it was because of Edward joining the army, not the fact he broke up with me. I wanted him to preserve his friendship with the Cullen's as well. Billy and Henry were on the tail end of their journey, and he needed to have friends. When Carlisle and Esme moved to Bellevue, Charlie couldn't help but join them.

The door opened slowly and Alice bounded up to her favorite brother. "Edward, we missed you. Please tell us about everything you have been up to. I want all your stories." Alice practically shrieked.

I slowly came out from my hiding spot and saw the look of shock on his face. He tried to smile at me, but all I got was a halfhearted crooked grin that he knew I loved. Apparently he didn't expect me to be waiting for him.

I walked up to him slowly, and as I placed around him my heart started pounding. The feeling of excitement that came every time I was near him was like an adrenaline rush. I couldn't help but breathe in the Calvin Klein cologne that he always wore, and felt the smile arrive on my face. "Hi," I told him trying to get a genuine smile out of him.

"Hi," he replied back, clearly nervous about something. I hope he understands that all is forgiven. I turned my head to the door, a mega, watt smile on my face when in walked a beauty that could rival Rosalie. I backed away from Edward, and waited for an explanation.

Carlisle and Esme followed her in with scowls on their faces. O this can't be good I thought. Edward looked at Charlie, Alice, and I and spoke nervously," This is my fiancée Tanya. She will be visiting with us for a few months, until I can get a house. Tanya this is Charlie, Bella, and my sister Alice. Charlie and Bella are family friends, almost like a second father and a sister to me."

I wanted to hit him! A sister! Seriously! Is that all I am now? For someone who said he would love me forever he sure moved on fast.

I eyed this Tanya girl, she was strawberry blonde, taller then me, and had ice blue eyes. Her features were harsh, but beautiful. She was the exact opposite of me. She even moved with grace, instead of clumsiness. I looked at Alice and asked her mentally I thought he still loved me.

She mouthed, "In time," and looked away. She greeted Tanya in a voice that only I could tell she was not happy. She was actually livid. She gave Tanya a fake smile and a false cherry voice as she hugged her and said, "Welcome to the family."

I couldn't bring myself to smile but I did say welcome, followed by bitch under my breath. I hated her already, although I couldn't tell if it was because of her or because of the fact she was with the man I loved.

End Notes- This story is based on a dream I had last night. I know weird. Anyways reviews are appreciated, and they lead to faster updates which by the way should at least be one every two weeks. Most likely I will update more often. I'm not sure how long this will be, nor am I sure how long Tanya will be around. This will be full of angst and involve infidelity.

Also the entire story will be in Bella's point of view; unless she becomes incapacitated for some reason then it will be in Alice's.