You lied to me, Linc. You betrayed me. After everything I've done for you, after saving your life… this is how you repay me. By lying to my face.
Those words still ring clearly in my head. It's like your voice is following me trying do destroy me while saying it over and over again. Sarah is dead. I loved her and she died. And you, you lied about it to my face.
Did you do it because you thought I would not go through with the break? God, man, is that all you can think about. Am I just a resource to you? You're using me Linc, using me! I'm your little brother; don't you know that you're hurting me?
Since we were kids I'm the one that had to get us out of trouble. All the time. It's like you are magnetic to trouble and always seem to drag me down with you in some way. Shoplifting, drinking, when children's services came to our house. The whole deal with moms car. Yeah, I went there.
I loved her, Linc. I deserved to know right away. God, how it hurts. Please make the voice stop taunting me! I loved her so much. Now she is gone, and I'm the last to know, the last that gets to grieve. But grieving is something I do not have time to do.
Did you really think that Sarahs death would keep me from getting Whistler out of here? Am I that selfish to you? In case you have forgotten I have one more person that I love in this game. LJ is my nephew. I love that kid like he was my own and I'd do anything for him. So don't you dear try and pull some shit like that on me again. Don't you fucking dear.
I've lost the only woman I've loved. I'm not about to loose LJ. But big brother, If you are not careful with what you do and don't do. Say and don't say, then LJ might be the only family you'll have left. Cause I'll walk.
The voice is in my head again, your voice. Sarah is dead. I want to grieve but there is no time. I have to keep going. For LJ
For you.
One shot fics seems to be my speciality. Hehe.
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