Just Alone
"What would I do without you?"
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I could hear the wind whistling in the trees.
I was looking over at WindClan territory.
My heart was pounding. I knew it was wrong.
Our whole relationship was wrong.
But we were just friends, I thought.
No. Something told me it was going to be more.
I just want to be a warrior. I can't break the warrior code.
It was the hardest thing I have done in my whole life.
"We have to stop seeing each other," I had said.
"What? We aren't harming anyone."
"Oh, what would I do without you? I just want to be a good warrior
And obey the warrior code."
"Fine! If that's how you want it, Lionpaw! I hate you!"
I hate you.
Those words burned me all the way through.
I wailed in agony.
I just wanted to be dead.
"What if you ever have to face her in battle?"
My sister was right, though. That's why I hated it.
This relationship was wrong.
I replayed it in my head over and over. I hated myself.
I hated my sister for making me stop.
I loved her.
Heatherpaw…
That name made me jump for joy. But I had ruined it.
She would never love me.
I was alone.
Just an apprentice, alone.