Disclaimer: I don't own Yami no Matsuei. I wish I did but unfortunately I don't.
'Italic' are the characters thoughts
A/N: Hey everyone! This is my first YnM fic, so please be gentle! I'm sorry if Hisoka and Tsuzuki are kinda OOC. It's been a bit since I've seen the anime. Please remember to R&R!
Gomen- I'm sorry
Daijoubu- It's all right
(Hisoka's POV)
I glanced out my window and inwardly sighed. Tsuzuki and I were on a train to Nagasaki. This time we were going for a vacation, instead of a case. It was a relief to get away from work, if only for a week.
Unfortunately, Tsuzuki and I were the only passengers in the compartment. But, that wasn't what was bothering me. For the past few weeks I've had a hard time being around my partner because. . . I like him. No, not like, love perhaps. To make matters worse, Tsuzuki has no idea how I feel about him. I've tried telling him before, but I always end up backing out in the end.
To be honest, I'm scared, terrified of Tsuzuki's reaction. I don't want him to be mad at me or push me away. But that's all going to change because today I'm going to tell him the way I feel or try to at least. I turned my head and stole a glance at Tsuzuki, who was sitting in the seat across from me. Feeling my stare, he looked at me and smiled. I blinked and felt my cheeks begin to burn.
"Are you excited about going back to Nagasaki, Soka-chan?" Tsuzuki asked, smiling.
"Y-yeah," I stammered and looked away.' I have to tell him,' I thought, watching passing scenery.
"Um…" I began hesitantly. "Tsuzuki…?"
"Hmm?" Tsuzuki glanced at me.
"I…I have to tell you something."
He frowned. "Is something wrong?"
"No," I answered quickly. "Nothing's wrong." 'Except that I'm in love with you and terrified that you'll reject me.'
"I…I," I felt my throat tighten. Why was this so hard to say? "It's just that I…" I trailed off, feeling helpless.
"Hisoka, are you all right?" Tsuzuki said, looking concerned.
I nodded and took a deep breath. "Tsuzuki, I…I like you," I said. I blushed and looked away. An awkward silence filled the compartment.
'He must be pretty stunned if he hasn't said anything.' I thought, after a minute or two of silence. 'I'm such an idiot! Why did I have to tell him? Why? I must have looked like such a kid blushing and stuttering like that!'
"Hisoka?"
I turned and looked. Fortunately, Tsuzuki didn't seem too shocked. That or he was doing a really good job at hiding it. He got up and sat next to me.
"Hisoka," Tsuzuki said, turning towards me. "I'm flattered that you think of me in that way. But you're like a younger brother to me and I just don't like you in that way. Gomen, please don't take it the wrong way."
'A younger brother…' I thought staring at the floor.
"Hisoka?" Tsuzuki said gently, putting a hand on my shoulder.
I shrugged him off. "Daijoubu," I muttered.
"Are you sure?"
I nodded and proceeded to stare out the window. I heard Tsuzuki get up and return to his seat. I didn't speak to Tsuzuki for the remainder of the trip.
It was late afternoon when we finally arrived at our inn. After unpacking, Tsuzuki suggested we order take out. I reluctantly agreed.
Dinner was extremely awkward. Neither of us spoke a word. 'I shouldn't have told him.' I thought, taking a bite of rice. 'Things wouldn't be this awkward if I'd just kept my mouth shut.'
I pushed my plate away. "I'm going for a walk." I said, standing up.
Tsuzuki wordlessly nodded. I was about to leave, when I heard Tsuzuki's voice.
"Hisoka?"
I paused and looked back at him. "Yes?"
"Be careful on your walk," he said.
I nodded. "I will."
A/N: Ok people, that's chapter one. Sorry if it's a bit short. I promise chapter two will be longer. Please remember to review! Arigatou gozaimasu!