Hi this my first fanfic though I've been reading these for ages, I've just been to self conscious to post my own of this goes well ill post more but ill think everyone hates it if you don't review whether you like or hate please tell me so it can help my writing

Why?

Lucy POV

"I'm home minna!" I exclaimed as i walked into the fairy tail building "hu" I sighed nothing but the cold silence and angry glares I had come to expect in the past few months. Nobody wanted me around not even natsu, it all started after natsu told me about Lisanna and how she died...

Flashback

I woke up this morning feeling bad about natsu being so upset after he told me what happened to Lisanna he was so sad I swear I saw him cry. When I got to the guild the next day everyone started yelling at me telling I was a Baka and a idiot for what I did then I saw natsu sitting in a corner crying with Mira Jane trying to console him, and him just shrugging her off then it hit me he was still upset after yesterday.

I gasped in shock Wendy (A/N pretend she was in fairy tail before Lucy came) the youngest of us all came forward (A/N not sure how old she is just assuming she's the youngest) came forward mind said "I thought you were compassionate, I thought of you as my sister and I knew that natsu loved you and just as he was getting over Lisanna you just took his heart and crushed it into tiny black pieces he was your nakama how could you" she asked me crying. " I didn't know" is all I could say.

That's when they started beating me up with a fire in their eyes that they didn't even have when phantom was destroying the guild. And as they were doing it all I could think was "why". Afterwards Mira my best friend came up and said "if you ever talk about Lisanna or talk to Natsu again you'll wish you were never born".

And with they all left...
End Flashback

I came back from my dreamlike state with a sharp sting on my cheek and a deep cut drawing blood on my leg, I felt tears escape my eyes as my daily beating began, it was Gray and Mira-Jane. "Stop crying on my bar you ugly wench!" She screamed repeatedly slapping me on my cheek I quickly stood up and sat on the floor "Who's gonna clean this up I'm not your maid get your ass over here and clean this up!" Mira screamed and so I did after that she made me do all her kitchen work while she and Gray watched cutting me over and over, all over my body as cold as ice they way my soul felt without natsu to keep it warm, this is exactly how I felt when my mother died.

At six o'clock after Mira and gray left I quickly packed up my stuff and went to my alleyway. I lost my home after I couldn't pay my rent. I know what you're thinking how come I couldn't pay my rent, well I tried to do jobs but whenever I tried to get one signed off on Mira-Jane would just scream at me saying I'm too weak and send me to put it back. So eventually I got evicted I now live on the streets.

Okay how was that? I'll try to update once a week but I'm always pretty busy review and hopefully the next chappie will be up tonight or tomorrow.