Despite all the hours trying to forget you, your smile, your beautiful brown eyes, to the sound of your voice. Nothing will stay gone, for even with all of my odd quirks and my naturally unsympathetic nature, if I should even hear of you in distress my first instinct is to kill, to maim, or to harm any that threaten your safety. Does this make me a violent person? most likely, but even then it does not bother me. Why? simply put, I'm empty, it's astounding really that nothing but your voice enters my heart. On more than one occasion I ask myself what is it that binds me to you?, is this love?, or simply obsession from which my broken mind cannot escape. I know instinctly that it is wrong to feel anything towards you but still when you come near I just can't seem to hear over the beating of my confused heart, it's impossible for me to see the world for you block everything with your radiance, I'm unable to speak clearly for all I want is to confess to you everthing I am, everthing that I feel in those three words forbidden to me by our shared blood. So even now I sit here bemoaning over everything, playing the buffoon to simply be near you. Dammit! what is it that makes me feel in your presence? for all intents and purposes we are nothing are like the sun, you bring light and joy into any place when you enter, while I am like a tornadoe, a destroyer of all that could ever inspire happiness, a walking disaster waiting to happen, and yet, When I'm near you I feel life isn't a endless fog that breaks you down every chance it gets, but rather a quiet summers day when the sky is clear, I can think clearly and all I can do is smile.