"Sometimes when I'm feeling particularly downtrodden James is always there. He never leaves my side emotionally. I remember when I was pregnant with you, I always gave into my pessimism. He is the sun to my moon. He is the love of my life that I never believed in...If he were to read this now, he would call me his sappy moon. He would tease me endlessly until my hair would frizz, my face turn red, and my eyes blaze with a fire that, according to him, would enhance my beauty. He would have then sat or stood where he was and just stare at me until I would laugh at the dopey look on his face. Later that night he would have held me close and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. I am sorry that you will never be able to know him, I am sorry you will never remember him singing you to sleep with his interpretation of "love me tender". I am sorry you will never see the fights between him and I, and most importantly I am sorry for being a bad mother. You will hear of how brave I was to sacrifice my life for the sake of yours. I am sorry to say that this is not the truth. Because in truth I sacrificed your life for mine. You see I knew today would be when Voldemort will come "trick or treating". I knew Peter would betray us, I knew these things would and will happen. But instead of trying to stop these events from happening I let, am letting, them play out. You may be angry with me now, but please listen to me a bit further. Though I knew of these events I could tell no one, not James, not Sirius, not even you. I however could write about my knowing with the knowledge that this would be read after my death. I could have stopped these events from playing out or tried to run with you like your father is shouting at me to do at this very moment. I could have given you at least one parent but I will not...I will not leave the love of my life, I will not leave him for this world or the next, I will not leave him for you my darling boy. I hope you do not hate me for choosing my love of James over my love of you. I know I will be broken and irreparable without James and that is not a state I would like to be in to raise you. I hope you find love in your life, despite being raised by Petunia. Yes I know you will go to my sister, it is part of the protection I have laid upon you. Dumbledore knows of this protection, he is the one who helped me lay it upon you at birth. As long as someone who shares the same blood as me, holds their love for me in their hearts you will be protected. I cannot live without James. You are my stars my darling boy but James is my sun and without a sun the stars do not shine as bright. I would resent you and end up hating you. I would rather leave this world with my love for you as bright as the stars then to grow to hate you for replicating the sun. I hope that when you find love it will be like the love I have experienced with your father. I hope that if you are ever in my shoes you will choose to be brave, never give your life for nothing. If you are to give your life, like Dumbledore foresees, I plead that you do so out of love. Because dying for nothing will not solve anything but dying for love is the greatest death of all.
All my love,
Mummy"