Disclaimer: The characters of SVU do not belong to me. This is a oneshot based on the season 3 episode Wrath. EO is established, and they have to deal with Olivia being stalked. I was watching it and got inspired. Hope ya'll like! Seriously, EO though. And ugh, Casey is so much better than Alex. It's AU in that Alex doesn't exist.
Out of Control
By Julia
She was being stalked and he couldn't do anything to make her talk about it. They'd been dating for two years. Elliot let himself into their apartment. He was so glad that they lived together. He called out as he got into the door. "Livvy, I'm home." He had picked up some Chinese on the way home. She always liked to eat the last dumpling, but right now he didn't care. He headed for the kitchen, and that's where he found her. "Hey, babe." He said, giving her a kiss on the forehead. She was quiet. That wasn't a good sign. It had been like this for three days. Elliot didn't want to push her, but he also didn't want her to dwell on it without talking about it either. That wasn't going to help anything. Elliot took off his jacket and moved to get some chopsticks and plates out. He preferred plates, she liked to eat out of the containers.
It wasn't fair of her to keep him at arm's length. Olivia knew that. She just…. she was having a hard time dealing. They had been together for a long time and she was still having issues letting him in. There was no other man that she had loved more than Elliot Stabler. No man that had ever been in her life for this long. She reached for a container of sesame chicken, and spread some on her plate. That got her a surprised look. Olivia got some lo mein noodles, too. That was when she finally said, "Hi." She didn't know what else to say. She knew that he wanted her to talk about the stalking. She didn't want to talk about it. Olivia was feeling guilty about it, and she knew that she shouldn't. This wasn't her fault. "I don't want to talk about it, El." She told him, brushing her free hand through her brown hair. She just hoped that he would accept that for now. Olivia knew that he was just trying to be there for her. He was a good man. No one had ever been like this with her, so good. Olivia took a bite as Elliot set a beer in front of her. Olivia didn't even know how to begin telling him what she felt. She also had a feeling about what he would say, she knew him very well. Olivia popped the top off her beer.
It was so frustrating when she did that. Pushed him away. He understood why she did. Olivia had been through a lot in her life. Elliot wished that he could wave a wand and change it. Elliot popped the top off his own beer and took a sip before he said anything. "Olivia, you know that I don't want you to talk about anything you don't want. But I can't see you go through this. Not without talking about it." Elliot kept his blue eyes on her. She was his whole life. Olivia and their jobs. He didn't know what he would do without her. "Please, Liv, tell me what is going on in your head. Let me in." He pleaded, hoping she'd listen.
Letting out a sigh, Olivia picked up her chopsticks. Olivia wasn't sure whether to let him in or not. "I love you, Elliot. You know that." She had never said that to anyone in her life that she'd dated. She knew that he knew that, too. "El, I just….. I can't talk about it. Mostly because I don't even know how I feel." That was more than she'd told him in days. Olivia didn't want to talk about it anymore that night. "Please, babe, drop it." She said, and got up then, leaving the table. She didn't want to eat anything anymore. She went to the bathroom, taking off her clothes to get in the shower. She wished that this was over, and she could move on.
All he could do was watch her go. It hurt. Elliot didn't go after her, because he didn't want to pressure her. He finished his food and put away the leftovers. He went to the bedroom, and found her there, sitting on the bed, in a nightie, wet from the shower and a bit in shock. He sat on the bed with her, and pulled her to him, holding her close. Elliot wished that he could go and kill this guy. She turned to him, burying her head in his shoulder. Elliot ran his hand along her arm, putting his head against hers. Elliot kissed her cheek. "We'll catch this guy, Livvy. I won't let him do anything to you." Elliot told her. He would never let anyone hurt her. He would die before he let anything happen to her. Even though she was having a hard time letting him, all he wanted to do was protect her. Elliot held her as close as he could, not wanting to let go. She was quiet, and he didn't push her. This really wasn't fair. Olivia was a good person, and a good cop. She didn't deserve this. She slid an arm around his waist, tugging him even closer. Elliot wrapped his other arm around her. He was glad that she wasn't crying. That wasn't necessarily an indicator for how she felt though. Olivia held a lot in, she always had. "It'll be okay, Liv." He said softly.
A couple of days later, he answered his cell phone to someone asking if he was Olivia Stabler's husband. That wasn't good. Elliot's heart was pounding out of his chest as he told them that he was. He listened as they told him that she'd been attacked. Beaten, but not raped. Elliot told them that he would be there as soon as possible. He barely noticed how fast he drove as he went. He was directed to her room as soon as he got there. Olivia was just waking up. Elliot immediately went to her, his eyes brushing with tears at how beat up she looked. Elliot took her arm. "Olivia…" He said, sliding his hand into hers. He didn't know how to handle this. "Are you… are you okay?" He knew it was a stupid question.
Olivia's fingers wrapped around Elliot's. She had bruises all over, and her right leg was broken. She tugged him into the bed with her. He slid his arms around her gingerly. She didn't even know where to start. She cuddled against him, burying her head in his chest. "It…. it was awful." Olivia finally said, more than she wanted to be sure. Olivia finally said, clinging to him tightly. There was the news that she'd lost their baby. She hadn't told him yet, mostly because she'd wanted to be sure. Olivia was scared, more than she wanted to admit. She hadn't been able to call for help, he had gotten a way. Olivia held him like she'd never hold him again. "It happened so fast, El." She said, her voice shaking a little. She was so glad that he was here.
Elliot held her as close as he could. He listened as she told him what happened, and felt rage building in him for Eric Plummer. He would make that man pay. Then she told him that she had lost their baby. His first child. "I'll kill him." Elliot said, and he meant it. He would make this guy pay. He kissed her, on the top of her forehead. "I am so sorry, Livvy. We will get through this together." He found his voice shaking a bit, and his eyes filled with tears. This was the worst thing to happen in a long time. He didn't know if he could do this. Elliot couldn't imagine how Olivia felt.
Her voice shook as she said, "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about the baby. I should have…. I just….. I wanted to be sure." Olivia said, wishing that she could hug him forever. She never wanted to let him go. Olivia didn't know how she had ever gotten along without him, and she was not one of those women who valued herself on whether she had a man. She didn't know that she could ever be without him. Olivia lifted her head so that she could look him in his gorgeous blue eyes. "Elliot, I love you so much. You know that. I'm…. I'm sorry that I have been pushing you away." Olivia said, and she really meant it. She had to learn to let him in, let him help her.
Elliot looked back at her. His hand reached up and cupped her cheek. Elliot looked into his eyes. "Olivia, I love you so much. You know that. And yes, you have been pushing me away. But I can't make you talk if you aren't ready." He kissed her softly. He didn't know what else to say. There were so many emotions he was feeling. Elliot didn't know how to even articulate it. He looked at her, wishing that he could just wave a wand and change things. He pulled her close again, hugging her as tightly as he could. Elliot didn't want to ever let her out of his sight again. He laid his head on top of his wife's, wishing that he could turn back time and order that protective detail that he'd wanted to order. Elliot had talked himself out of it. He'd thought that Olivia would be angry if she found out. He'd thought that Olivia would be angry if she found out. Elliot always tried to protect her and sometimes she got angry about it. Elliot was a man, and men protected women. Elliot was trying to ease up on that because he knew that Olivia preferred to take care of herself. Elliot really was having a hard time doing that when stuff like this happened. He held her until she fell back to sleep, and he looked out the window as he stroked her hair. It seemed like they were being punished for something. Elliot didn't know why he thought that. It was a little irrational. He knew that. Elliot had never been one of those people who railed against God either. Bad things happened because people had free will.
The next day, Elliot was trying to get paperwork filled out so he could take his wife home. She was asleep or he would be with her. Elliot was trying as best he could to fill out past medical history. They only knew so much, because Olivia was a product of rape. Elliot wished that he could solve that, but he couldn't. If he tried and actually succeeded, he'd kill the guy for having raped Olivia's mother. Even if he was grateful to the son of a bitch that Olivia was alive. Elliot really couldn't imagine life without her. Elliot was surprised to see Casey Novak, the ADA, heading up to him. He shouldn't have been, they were friends, and she and Olivia were close. Elliot brushed over his ring with his other hand. "Hey, Novak." He said, not sure what else to say. Elliot wasn't sure that he could tell Casey everything that had happened. He knew that she knew about Olivia being attacked, but they hadn't told anyone about the baby yet. He sighed. This wasn't going to be easy on any of them. He couldn't believe that Olivia had lost their baby. Of course, he was still getting used to the idea that he had been a father. Elliot put down the pen he'd been using to fill out the forms. "I take it that you came to see my wife?" Elliot asked, heaving up another sigh. He hoped that he could get her home soon.
Casey nodded, sizing him up. She knew that he had been so scared for Olivia with this Plummer guy. They hadn't caught him yet, either. Casey brushed her hand through her red hair. "I did come to see Olivia, but how are you? I know that you were worried about her." Casey wasn't expecting that he would actually tell her what he was feeling. Elliot didn't let a lot of people in. Casey knew that she shouldn't take it personally. She leaned on the counter next to him, wondering what else to say. She wasn't wanting him to think that she wasn't there for him. Casey wanted to get this guy as much as Elliot did. Olivia was her best friend. "I am here if you want to talk." She told him, keeping her gaze on him.
That was the hard question for him to answer. He didn't know what to say. And it wasn't just because he didn't let people in. Elliot didn't know what else to say. He didn't know what he was feeling. Elliot brushed his hand through his dark hair. Elliot didn't want to tell her all that he was feeling, either. What he knew that he was feeling anyway. "I'm glad that she's okay. Are there leads on Plummer?" He asked, desperate to change the subject. Elliot wasn't sure why he couldn't talk about real feelings with anyone but Olivia. Sometimes he was able to talk to Fin. That was a lot different though. They were guys. "Because we have to make him pay for this. Olivia…. she was pregnant, Casey." That surprised him.
That was not what she expected him to say. Casey brushed her hand across her hair as her mouth dropped open. Casey wished that there was some way to charge him with murder. But it was an uphill battle with deciding if a fetus was a person or not. Casey knew that it wouldn't work, even if she wanted it to. "El, I'm so… God that sucks." She finally said, knowing that that wasn't nearly enough. "I would love to charge him with murder, but I don't think that a judge would go for it. I'm so sorry, El." She was, and wished that there was anything that she could do. Casey couldn't imagine how either of them were feeling. She had never had anything like that happen to her. Casey touched his arm. "I swear, Elliot, this guy will pay for this. I will not let him get away with it." Casey was glad that he'd let her in. She didn't know what to do to help Elliot and Olivia, but that didn't mean that she was going to let them handle it alone. Casey didn't know what else to say. It was just….. it wasn't fair. They didn't deserve any of this. Casey wondered if they were going to talk anymore, Elliot could be really closed off with people that weren't Olivia. Casey honestly wasn't expecting him to say anything more. But she stayed there, just in case he did want to talk.
Elliot nodded, not sure what else to say. He inclined his head to let her know that he appreciated what she was saying. "I can't talk about it right now. I appreciate you being there though." Elliot didn't say anything else, and Casey went ahead to Olivia's room. Elliot handed the completed forms to the nurse. He was going to go get some coffee while Casey talked to his wife. They'd have to wait for things to be processed before they could go home anyway. Elliot headed down the hall, trying to process. He didn't know how he was going to deal with this. He had never thought that he would lose his first child this way. They had talked about having kids. They hadn't decided yet, but Olivia didn't take birth control, in deference to him. He was a Catholic. They used condoms. Things happened, though. Obviously. Elliot ran his hand over the bottom of his face. He was really hoping that they would find this guy and make him pay. Elliot's whole life had almost been gone in the blink of an eye. Elliot didn't know what he would do without Olivia in his life. She was the best thing that had ever happened to him. Elliot couldn't imagine if he had never met her. Elliot's stomach rumbled, and he decided that he should grab a sandwich and something for Olivia. She didn't dislike anything in particular, and she hadn't eaten yet. She had kept claiming not to be hungry and he didn't believe that for a second.
Olivia was glad to see Casey. The whole story came pouring out of her, and all of it. She managed to get by until she got to the baby being dead. Casey promised that they'd get the guy. That was when Elliot came back, with food for her and Casey. Olivia was glad that Casey left then to go and work on the case. Olivia looked at Elliot. "I love you. I will never not let you in again, El. I promise." She told him, giving him a deep kiss. They could do this, right? Move on? Olivia hoped so.
Author's note: This will be a longer set of oneshots contained in this AU verse. In any case, I have a oneshot for Risk planned that will follow this verse. R&R if you want!