Disclaimer: Nope I don't own them Sorry.

Monica felt the cold steel of the barrel of the gun in her hand, the gun that Chandler had bought behind her back, he said for her protection, even though she did'nt want him to, she looked at it and thought about what had led her to make the decision.

It was 1 week ago that she had gone to the doctors cause she hadn't been feeling good, 1 week since the Doctor told her that she was dying and only had 6 months left, she never told Chandler, she could'nt face the hurt look in his eyes, she had decided 2 days later that if she could'nt face the look in his eyes when she told him she certainly couldn't stand to watch him watch her die, she had decided that ending things herself now would be less painful for him, she had chosen today cause she knew he would be on an all day business trip and that the others would be off doing their own things.

She looked at the clock, Chandler would be home in the next 15 minutes, she took off her ring and put it in an envelope along with the letter she wrote him explaining everything and put it on the counter where he would be sure to find it, then she took a photo of Chandler and went into the bathroom and layed in the bathtub, she gave the picture a kiss and whispered "I'm sorry sweetie, I love you" then put the gun to her head and pulled the trigger.

Fifteen minutes later

"Monica, are you home" Chandler walked through the door and was surprised that the place was quiet, he knew that Monica had taken the day off of work.

"Maybe she went shopping with Rachel" he thought as he walked farther into the room, he saw the envelope with his name in her handwriting.

"She must have a lot for me to do while she is gone if she wrote me a whole letter" he joked to himself, he pulled the letter out and saw the ring fall out too.

"Why is her ring in here?" he thought putting it in his pocket, a sudden fear gripped his heart and he ran into the bedroom.

"All her cloths are still here" he thought. Suddenly he remembered he was still holding the letter, he opened it up and read...

My dearest Chandler:

I am so sorry to hurt you this way, I lied last week when I told you that the Doctor said I was fine, the truth is he told me I am very sick and only have 6 months left, I could'nt stand the thought of watching you watch me die, I know doing this will hurt you too but I hope not as much, I love you more than anything and will always be with you, please tell the others why I did this, and ask Ross to plan the funeral. Good bye my love.

Chandler stared at the note for a few seconds then dropped the paper and ran through the appartment looking for her.

"MONICA! MONICA! My God where are you!" he tried the other room, nothing, then he tried the bathroom and found the door locked, he backed up and ran at the door full force and busted it open and saw her laying in the bathtub covered in blood.

"NOOOOOOOO!" he screamed as he ran over to her tripping over the bathmat and falling into the tub, a pain shot through his shoulder but he did'nt care.

"Why Monica? Why? Why did you do this? I don't care if I would have had to watch you at least I would have still had you for the next 6 months.

Ignoring the blood he put his arms around her and started sobbing uncontrolably.

Meanwhile in the hall

"I had a great time tonight Joey" said Rachel

"Me too" replied Joey

As they reach the door to their apartment they notice that Chandler and Monica's door is ajar

"Huh, this is weird" thought Joey entering the room with Rachel following, as soon as they enter the room they heard crying coming from the bathroom.

Rachel went over and looked in, a gasp escaped from Rachel's mouth when she saw the scene in the bathroom, "oh my God" she whispered, Joey came running over and looked, there they saw Chandler who was now holding Monica in his lap and rocking back and forth still sobbing.

They stood there for a few seconds then Joey found his feet and went over and put his hand on Chandlers shoulder, he flinched and looked up a Joey.

"What happened?" asked Joey quietly trying not to startle Chandler again.

Chandler just looked up at him then looked back at Monica without saying a word.

"I am calling an ambulance" said Joey walking out of the room, he walked past Rachel who hadn't moved and picked up the phone.

After he hung up he walked back to the bathroom and noticed the note that Chandler had thrown to the floor in his haste to find Monica, he read it then gave it to Rachel to read.

"oh my God" she whispered again.

Not knowing what else to do Joey and Rachel just sat in the room until they heard the sirens 5 minutes later, they went out and directed the paramedics to the room.