Author's note: Sooo I don't know what happened here. I promise.
I was just chilling, listening to the SnK soundtrack and this was what showed up. It's not particularly cheery, since a lot of the music in the soundtracks is pretty sad and emotional. Seriously, one song (don't remember what it's called) just makes me feel like the destruction of earth is happening right now. Nice way to spend your weekend, right?
I suppose this belongs in an AU, where pretty much everything goes wrong (not so different from the current SnK huh) and Eren and Mikasa are both older and sadder due to the things they've lived through and experienced.
Anyway, enjoy! :D
Beauty
Mikasa thought it was sad.
She thought it was sad how they would never have enough time in each other's arms without something bad stealing them both away.
She thought it was sad how the heart-melting, and completely wonderful smile that she adored seeing on the boy she loved, now was a rare sight to see.
She thought it was sad, how she no longer could count with her two hands all the times she had seen his otherwise strong form fall to the ground and shake in uncontrollable sobs.
She thought it was sad how if they, beyond all belief, made it through to the end, there would be no family to celebrate with. Instead, it would only be the company of their equally-broken friends that they could to go to.
She thought it was sad how she could no longer trust anyone (except Eren and Armin) and the words they gave to her, as a result of all the betrayal she had gone through.
She thought it was sad that she almost didn't react anymore whenever a brave soldier got their life ended under a giant foot, or when they got crushed in the mouth of a hungry titan. She had after all seen it so many times before.
She thought it was sad how she ,in the darkness of the night, still dreamt about Armin's eyes that day when she thought she had lost it all, could still hear his quiet acknowledgement of Eren's death mixed with his sobs. And it wasn't only that moment that haunted her dreams. She could still feel the horror she had felt when Annie had closed her titan-jaws around the unconscious Eren, who had tried his hardest to save them all.
She thought it was sad that instead of saying that Eren and Mikasa would be together until they were grey-haired, wrinkled and surrounded by grandchildren, they had to say that they would be together as long they had left of their life.
She thought it was sad that in a second, it could all be over and everything could be lost, without anyone of them who would be able to do something about it.
She thought it was sad that unlike all the romantic couples in the stories, there was a high chance she and Eren never would get their happily ever after.
But every time, as she gets lost in the safe and warm embrace of his strong arms, as she feels his passionate lips press against her own, as she looks into his love and awe-filled turquoise eyes, she can't help but to think that despite all the sadness that is in a world like theirs, there also is a lot of beauty.