Ashley knocked on my door, I didn't respond, she let herself in. We've been broken up for three months now, because Ashley couldn't handle monogamy, she needed different partners, she was attracted to many different people, but every once in a while she would stumble into my room drunk. I sighed looking at the goofy smile on Ashley's face, it sorta made me want to smile back, but I knew why she was here.
She just wanted sex from me, I know she's just using me, but I give into her anyways, I can't help it. I still love her, and if I can get any form of love back from her, I'll take it. Ashley wobbled over to my bed, and climbed onto it, falling onto me. I breathe in her scent, I mostly got the overwhelming smell of vodka, but there was some of the tommy girl perfume she put on.
Ashley brought her face close to mine, and my breathing sharpened. I waited for the kiss, I loved so much, even if Ashley didn't love me anymore. But before she could even kiss me, she passed out. I pushed her off, and laid on my side. I let tears fall from my eyes. I let her fool me again. Why do I keep allowing her in? Why am I still in love with her? I want to get rid of her, but it's so hard.
I wiped away some of the tears. She doesn't even talk to me in school she ignores me. Only when she's drunk does she want to pay attention to me. I felt her move behind me, I felt the warmth of her hand on my arm. I turned my head, to see her beautiful brown eyes looking into mine. She brought her lips to mine, sliding her tongue into my mouth. I tensed a little, when I felt her hands on my stomach. She stopped kissing me for a moment to really look at me. "I love you Spencer," she lied to me. I knew she was lying.
She kissed my neck, nipping slightly at my skin. I wanted to push her off, but at the same time, I wanted this more than anything. I just wanted Ashley to be with me again. I finally got the self-confidence to push her off me. Ashley looked at me confused. "You're a liar," I spat out, "you don't love me. You say that to trick me into having sex with you, because you know I still love you."
Ashley looked hurt by my words. But she was too drunk to care about anything I just said, and she continued trying to seduce me, knowing I'll give in soon enough. I lost strength to fight back, and allowed her to pleasure me. I hated it as much as I loved it. I began moaning loudly, and I saw Ashley smirk, she knew she succeeded again.
The second my orgasm came, Ashley was gone. She left me again. I knew she was going to. I sighed once again, I'll just let her use me, if that's the only way I can have her.