Amy, in my quest
To steal and lie to you
I'd never imagine that I was climbing the hill to loving you
But betrayal after betrayal
That hill,
That mountain
You've pushed me off
To maybe be friends
But to look up as I fall
Too woeful to yell
You open your hand and two small glistening objects fall with me
Too late I realize
I fall too hard
The dirt and rock crumble beneath me
Falling and going deeper than my sea
When I look back up
All I can see
Is the tip
The tip of my love for you
And the two objects that you let fall with me
The two tears you let follow me
The only thing I'll ever deserve
They hit my head,
But feel like murderous blows
I weep freely
Until I see a speck start to climb
I feel what tiny hope I can
And wait for what seems an eternity
Finally I see your face, but
Another is right beside it
A name pops into my head
And all I want to do is destroy it
I see your hands and a fiery loath and longing fill my soul
Though with all my heart I could not strike
To do anything against what brings joy to your world
So my only and last gift to you is to climb up,
And walk away, love
Battered, bruised and broken as I am
Ian, you never did know
That when you walked away from any friendship
Any chance for forgiveness
A strange sorrow filled my heart
Even as I looked into Evan's eyes
It was too perfect
Too safe
To be with him
But that's what I wanted
Right?
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