Disclaimer: not mine and probably will never become mine unfortunately, (
Theres an old saying. Maybe you heard about, it goes like this. Leave well enough alone. Now I am a pretty reasonable person, I usually listen to logic and try to listen to my mind, not my heart. So I should have listened to my own advice. I should have left well enough alone.
For about a year now I have had a tremendous crush on my best friend in the whole world. Sirius Black. He gave me feelings I can't explained. I have always been able to talk to him about anything, anything except my unexplainable feelings towards Sirius. Halfway through our 7th year I decided to tell Sirius about my feelings.
It was the Friday after a full moon. Me and Sirius were sitting alone by the fire in a deserted common room. We were laughing at a bad joke Sirius made, as usual, when the idea struck me, nows the time. Before I had time to really think it over, I felt the words leave my mouth before I could stop them.
"Sirius, I'm in love with you," all conversation stopped. My breathing and heartbeat stopped. Everything seemed frozen in time. Until, finally he responded.
"What?" He looked at me with his adorable eyes and I felt myself blush.
"I'm in love with you. I have been in love with you for a year now. Every time you look at me I can't help but melt a little inside. You turn my brain to mush and make me act like a complete fool. And its all because I love you," He kept looking at me. I waited and waited for a response. "Please Sirius say something, anything!"
"I-I-I'm sorry Remus but I have a girlfriend. And I'm not gay," Sirius responded without looking up at me.
"Oh. I see. Well can we still.. still be friends?" I tried not to make my voice sound so pathetic and weak.
"No Remus, we can't. I don't think I can handle that. It's too much for me," I think my world, along with my heart, has been ripped into millions of tiny pieces, which Sirius just stomped all over. Sirius got up and walked upstairs to the dormitory, Leaving me alone in the dark, empty common room. Empty and dark to match my heart. I crumpled to the ground sobbing hysterically. Pulling at my hair and repeating the same thing over and over in my heart. Leave well enough alone. Being able to talk to Sirius whenever I wanted or to be able to touch him or hug him without him thinking I have some ulterior motive. That was well enough. But I blew it. Theres no such thing as happy endings. This is one lesson I shall never, in all of my life forget.
A/N: so its been a long time since i've posted something. This is obvioulsy Remus/Sirius (or blupin) angst. Its kinda based off of something that happened between me and my friend, except I had a little bit of a happier ending than I gave poor Remus. So I hope you enjoyed. Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistkaes. I need a beta. Read and Review please.
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