Pointless Search

Prologue—search for nothing

Haruki you have to understand some people don't have the stamina to walk around all day, so if you would could you go on without me? I'll be waiting here when you get done with this foolish hunt. Oh and if you could would you give me some of your water, I drank all mine awhile back.

"You're so stupid Kyon-ko you're supposed to ration out your water not finish it in one gulp! Also, Forget about waiting here, this is all your fault anyway maybe if you tried harder we would've found what we're searching for!"

What are we searching for your missing brain cells? Or is it your brain altogether? Anyway how about that water? I'm kind of getting hungry too...

"You need to pay for your own mistakes."

How much are we talking about here? I don't have much money left on me since I was made to pay for the water for everyone and then there was breakfast at that restaurant. You know you should treat a girl every once in awhile instead making me pay for everything. I would've liked to buy some new outfits, but thanks to you now I won't be able to.

"Let me see your purse,"
command Haruki as he turned around to face a sweaty me.

Half-dead I handed him my small purse with a "here."

He dug through it and scrounged up some yen that he put into his pocket, he then continued to search through its contents.

Haruki how about that water now? You've already took all my money what more do you want? Please give me some water and at least let me take a break. Oh...I'm hungry.

He took my phone out of my purse and began to call someone. I don't see why he didn't use his own phone. He may have just been torturing me by making me wait to get a drink. How mean of him! Although it is Haruki and that's more than enough said.

"Mushi Mushi no Kyon-ko's too tired to talk, anyway, you find anything?" He paused for a short interval then said: "Well keep searching we'll meet up later."

Haruki closed the phone and threw my purse at me with the phone inside. He neglected to give me the water as he started to walk again.

You can't be that heartless Haruki, do you want me to get dehydrated? You may even have to carry me if I faint, just avoid that trouble and give me something to drink!

Damn Itsuko, and company are probably not even walking pointlessly around, for all we know, they might be relaxing inside of an air conditioned restaurant. There Nagato would be doing his usual reading, and Asanina-sempai would be probably sitting there looking paranoid. How lucky of them I wish I could switch places with one of them....

Haruki's feet didn't seem drained, and he easily continued walking while I sat down on the ground and didn't move an inch. I was perspiring from every pore of my body as sweat made it's way down my brow into my eyes, it stung so I wiped my forehead clean only for it to be brimmed with sweat in a few seconds. Haruki didn't stop walking for me, which irritated me. How irresponsible is this guy? Haruki calls me in the early morning just to make me walk for who knows how long it's been now, and then decides to just leave me sweaty where he pleases! If I could I'd beat some sense into him, although, I'm too scrawny to do that.

My legs itched since I was wearing a light summer dress. I didn't know what I was thinking wearing it, but I thought I shouldn't let it go to waste sitting in my closet as another forgotten article of clothing. All this drove me to take out of storage and wear it at least one final time; although, what I was thinking buying something I knew I'd never wear?

"Haruki...." I moaned as he continued to walk.

Damn it I'm going home! No way am I going to sit here while the sun blasts down on me. I stood up and started to walk only to trip and fall. I fell down with a "ahh!"

"Damn Haruki, can't even give me a drink of his water that I bought in the first place."

I muttered as I tired to get up only to notice that I had sprained my ankle. Stuff like this always happens when you get angry, and it kind of defeats the purpose of getting angry, how irritating!

I laid on the ground for a while, thinking how much of a bastard Haruki is. I heard his footsteps but he didn't want to seem to help me and only stared as his shadow covered me from the blazing sun.

"So how long are you going to lay there like that?"

"..." I laid my head on the ground humiliated.

Without me asking him I felt him grab my arm and pull me up.

Let go, did I ask for your help? I mean I know I said you'd have to carry if I fainted but this is different, at least then I wouldn't know that you're carrying me and touching me!

"Would you rather me leave you here?"

"..."

Haruki then began to carry me bridal style, which makes no sense. Wouldn't he become tired faster this way? Or did he want to show off how strong he is? Whatever it was, I didn't ask for it! But by far that didn't mean I wanted to walk, there was no way I was going to walk home with a sprained ankle.

"So how about that water now?"

"I'll need it if I'm going to carry you."

"That's not fair I bought it!"

Without a second's warning he put me down on the ground making me recline against him. He then removed the backpack he had strapped over his shoulders and took out a bottle of water. Being the bastard he is and me thinking for once he was going to be reasonable I reached for it only for him to bring it up to his lips and make me watch as the clear plastic bottle almost reached vacancy. Haruki finally handed me what he left, which wasn't much, I finished it in one gulp. Afterward he continued to carry me.

So what was that about rationing it?

Being bored and since I was rather mad about being waken up so early on a day off, as well as for the exhausting walk that I had to take, I started to doze off reclining my head on his chest. My eyes slowly closed from fatigue then I forced them open, his face was in my line of vision. I won't say anything that can be taken in the wrong way or anything cheesy. Without my permission my eyes slowly forced themselves closed plummeting me into sleep. I really didn't dream of anything....

I started to stir around but didn't open my eyes, my body felt sore allover, so I stayed still and apprehensively opened my eyes half-expecting that I had been dumped somewhere. Thankfully I saw what was my room. I was on my bed still in the same dress. After a few seconds of laying still on my bed, the sound of the notification alarm from my cell phone reached my ears. Either I had received a message or had missed a call. Luckily my purse had been placed on the floor right beside my bed, so I didn't have to strain myself to reach for it. I opened my purse and took my cell phone and opened it.

Apparently, I had missed two calls, and someone had sent me a message. First I checked who the calls were from, the first one was from Itsuko. She probably simply wanted to jest around about what happened. The second was from Haruki, he probably wanted to make fun of me for being so clumsy. I really didn't feel like calling either of them back. Also, the message I received was from Haruki. It read as follows:

Call me when you wake up I have something to discuss with you.

This has to be a trap of some kind. We don't discuss anything, he just barks out orders! Still I know there'll be some type of penalty if I don't do as he says, and it's a simple call, which means he's not close to me in distance. Hopefully it's just a debriefing or something along those lines. He better not expect me to be able bodied tomorrow, I'm staying home and playing games or watching television. There's no way he's that crazy though, right? He wouldn't make an injured girl walk around with him, correct?

I went through my phone book entries and called him. There was that familiar dial tone and then the sound of him picking up.

"Mushi Mushi, Kyon-ko about time you wake up!"

"So what is it? What do you need?"

"As a result of you spraining your ankle and falling asleep on me, you're going to have to throw me a party."

"But I have no money... and I can't walk anywhere."
I shifted to my backside on my bed.

"Well then you better think of something else you can do for me."

"That's not fair Haruki," I moaned.

"So?"

"..."

"Well you better start thinking Kyon-ko."

"This isn't fair...."

"You've already said that," uttered Haruki sounding like he was enjoying this. "Ky-on-ko"

"Be quiet," I moaned.

"..."

"..."

"Ky-on-ko," Haruki said.

"..." I couldn't think of anything I could do while at home.

I could always simply invite him and we could play some games, but he'd say that he could do that any day. Since I'm out of money, and I have a sprained ankle, I can't simply dump him at some restaurant and say "eat." But I could cook something for him in the safety of my home! Yes, that's what I'll do, this way I can even get my mother to help me out. Maybe I won't have to cook at all that'd be even better!

"Okay Haruki, would you like to come over to my house tomorrow, and I'll cook you something?"

"Alright, but it has to be delicious or you're going to have to try again."

"Agreed."

"Well see yah tomorrow! I'll be there early."

"Okay buh-bye."

I hung up the phone and put it back into my purse, which I then put on the floor. "hahh..." I said, a little relieved about what had been agreed. This wasn't the best start to my summer vacation.

I was still sweaty and smelled, and I wanted to rid myself of these states, also this way, I could relax for a while. Although, I didn't feel like getting up my legs still ached, yet I also didn't want to sleep as 'smelly' so I forced myself off of my bed. I instantly stepped wrong, and it sent a surge of pain up my spine. My mouth opened and uttered an "ahhh!" At least I didn't fall over, and I simply moved my leg to stop the pain. Before I was able to make out of my room albeit my little brother opened the door and rushed into the room. He was probably worried about me.

"What was that scream are you okay?" questioned my otouto as he scanned me.

"I'm fine otouto, but could you help me get some clothing and get to the restroom?"

"Alright so what do you need?"

"I need panties, a bra, and get a nightdress out of my closet."

"fine," he said sounding a bit dejected.

After he had everything in hand, I said: "help me to the bathroom."

"Before that," he said as a mischievous grin filled his face, "so you and Haruki-nii-chan were alone in some place, huh?"

Where are you going with this? Sure we were alone but that doesn't mean anything happened between us, actually it was quite the opposite of what you'd think, he made me fall and sprain my ankle. What's even worse is that Haruki even had the nerve to not give me a drink of his water, I blame this whole mess on him! Why couldn't he simply give me a sip if he would've this wouldn't have befallen me and I wouldn't hurt myself?

"How I see, it was your fault in the first place, it's not his fault you finished all your water, and he even was considerate enough to carry you here. Even while you were sleeping, to me it looked like you were enjoying yourself. Your face had that serene look, like the female protagonist of an anime when she's carried by someone she likes. It was actually sort of funny."

Haruki isn't someone I like, you need to stop imagining things. Also, Haruki isn't nice by far, and he's not someone you should use as a mentor, you hear that.

"Your feelings aside, he's a better mentor then you, all you do is stay home all the time and be boring, if someone looked up to you they'd only become an instant loser. Even when you have all that time to study your grades are only so-so as noted by your so-so school."

So what your going to talk down to me now? See this is exactly why Haruki isn't a good mentor, he corrupts everything!

"I'm not saying this because Haruki-niichan is so much more fun then you, it's true."

I'm your onee-chan shouldn't you respect me? Haruki is just another jerk, so why do you think he's so much better than me. If anything comparing me and him you should think of me as an angel.

"Kyon-ko, why are you so mad? I was joking with you as a test."

What are you blabbering about now? And why did you assume it was okay to joke with me at such a level, for that matter what is this about a test? What kind of test involves making your onee-chan angry? Was it a test to see how long it takes for me to completely throw reason aside and beat you up? If it was, we were pretty close, I mean don't even mention Haruki in this house anymore much less in my own room, don't mess with my sanctuary! It enough to be bothered by him everywhere else so leave my room out of the lengthy list.

"I was right, you're infatuated with him, how funny is that? Why else would you become so angry when it comes to him?" the same grin from before filled his face as he began to laugh.

With what kind of reasoning did you use to deduce that? I really only have one thing to say, "you're wrong, I'm not 'infatuated' with him in the slightest." He's just an annoying dog that keeps on following you around no matter how many times you say "leave me alone!" Yeah that's right, he's a mutt and nothing more.

"Yeah alright enough about him."

Then help me to the bathroom already. You're the one who started to talk about him anyway so what's this now? Hahh....I don't understand anything with you today.

He let me recline on him until I entered the bathroom, from there on I was to venture alone because I didn't want my little brother to see me naked that'd be gross and very disturbing. You agree don't you?

I started to undress using a wall to help me from hurting my ankle anymore than I already had. I pulled off my summer dress then my simple bra. My less-then-average breasts were exposed to no one but me, and I hope to keep it that way. Why do I have to be the girl with a flat chest? It's really not fair even after all the milk I drank.... but that's enough of that. I removed the last garment I wore my panties. My hair was still tied into two ponytails today, so I took off the bands keeping my hair in that form. From the place I undressed, I was somehow able to make it to the shower without much trouble, but once I was inside of the shower with the water turned on, I found it was hard to stand on my foot without my ankle hurting. I was forced to sit on the shower floor and wash body that way. Even in this position thought it was a pain to shift myself on the shower floor without my ankle suddenly running into a wall and hurting more than when I was standing...I guess it wasn't much of a trade-off. My butt was so cold too since the shower floor itself seemed immune to the heat outside, although, sometimes it does become chilly during the night.

I was able to get to my feet and turn off the water. The next task proved a bit tricky, since the shower floor was slippery, I did my best to not slip and crack my head open, and I Somehow was able to keep myself upright on my feet and avoid a major head injury, it was enough with a sprained ankle there was no need for a concussion or worse to bother me now, or ever for that matter. I could really do without my sprained ankle, although, I don't see that magically being healed. After making it out safely, I toweled myself off then started to dress, pulling up my panties was a bit irritating, but in the end I was able to do it, my bra didn't prove to be as big a problem and donning it was simple, and once again why can't my chest be well a bit bigger? When I'm wearing my uniform it's not even noticeable. Hahh... I put on my nightdress to cover my pitiful breasts, just so I wouldn't be faced with the truth. Aside from other matters I had already taken care of I still had to brush my teeth, the trip to the sink was a somewhat painful one, yet I arrived there, and found my toothbrush and toothpaste. What I did with them is self-explanatory.

With everything I was going to do in the bathroom finished, I decided to head to my room instead of trying to go down stairs even though I was quite hungry. I didn't want to risk falling down the stairs and suffering an early painful death. I simply told myself I'd wake up early tomorrow and attempt a decent downstairs then. Another solution for this problem was that I could simply get my father to carry me down, actually that does sound much more reasonable. I could deal with the hunger pangs for a while anyway. I'm fine with my weight, so this isn't some stupid attempt to lose a few kilograms, I actually think that aside from my small breasts my figure looks good, I even have a cute face. Imagine if I actually have breasts, I'd be getting confessions left and right. Would that be a good thing? I mean wouldn't it be a bother? You'd have guys bothering you so much that it'd soon become bothersome. I have more than enough trouble with Haruki, I wouldn't want any more trouble then that. Also, what if Haruki...well... was attracted to me....that'd be trouble.... Maybe I'm better off this way...what am I talking about?! I need to rest up more, I don't even know that I'm saying anymore.

I opened the bathroom's door and limped to my room. Inside of my room, I sat on my bed for a while simply looking at the darkness that filled my room, it was peaceful, but it was boring... I had originally planned to relax in my room for a while then relax around the house watching television and doing things that tie in with that. I guess I am pretty boring, but oh well, I don't really care if I am or if I'm not. "hahh..."I said as I laid my figure down on my bed. I stayed still and looked at the darkness that surrounded me, at the ceiling that I could see no end to. My ears picked up no human sounds, it was peaceful, but I couldn't fall asleep. Even with the darkness that seemed to engulf me there was no escape from my wandering brain.

"I really shouldn't be in the SOS Brigade."

How many times have I said something similar to myself? Even I don't know the answer to that unimportant question. Not as if it matters, I am part of the SOS Brigade, and Haruki won't suddenly release me from the club's roster, I might as well simply get used to the idea of being pulled around by him. At least he's not a complete jerk, although, he's pretty close to one. If he was a complete jerk then he would've left me on the floor thirsty, and he wouldn't have carried me home.

I shut my eyes, it didn't seem to become any darker than it was before....

I don't understand how my brother would think I'm infatuated with Haruki. I'd never fall for someone like him, I'd really rather have someone cute like Asahina-sempai or someone quiet and kept to himself like Nagato. Not saying I particularity like either one although Asahina-sempai is too cute, but it's true that Nagato is reliable while Asahina-sempai isn't. I'm just going around in a circle here so I'll shut up now.

I shifted myself on the bed to change the darkness I was seeing; I stayed awake for what seemed another thirty minutes looking up at the darkness with a blank mind, this more than enough peace for me.

Overall I think I dreamed about being happy that night. I wish I could've stay in those dreams a little longer. I had everything I wanted and who wouldn't want that? But I guess if you dream forever you won't get anywhere in life, yet I have to admit that what I want really isn't up to me anyway.