Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, so there's no way I can make money from fanwork.
Warning/Notes: Angst. Unrequited love. Drabble or not, one-sided or not, this one contains an unconventional het pairing. Please keep in mind that the point of view is Miroku's. One last thing–the prompt for this comes from LiveJournal's 30-kisses community: #26, if only I could make you mine.
The Inu Drabble Chocolate Box Series*
"Drabble 1: Miroku 1" by Ainohimitsu on 9.28.09 at 383 words
I hate that I can see the ups and the downs of the world in your eyes. They are dark and deep, but your eyes are so expressive. I only have to look into them to know when you're angry. I see the flash in them right before you whack me in face.
And on the note of your hands…your touch…when you slap me, it's the only time I ever feel your skin—a sting against my cheek. Rarely have you let me hold you in my arms. I've wanted to…so badly. Just like a kiss. I want so badly to suckle your lips, to run my tongue across your teeth. I desire to know your mouth…like I know my own. But it will never be.
You love Inuyasha. He will be the one that knows your mouth, your touch, your kiss. Your very soul. Your love. That burns me inside! I hate that I must grope your rear, just for you to touch me, even if it's violently. I hate that you only touch me when you want to knock my head off! You hurt Inuyasha, but you touch him with love and tenderness too...
Speaking of love, that's another thing I hate seeing in your eyes because that love exists only for him. And they darken with desire, deepen like the ocean. I see them dancing, filled with longing. You look at him in a way you look at no one else. I hate that look—it's not directed at me.
I feel so guilty for these feelings because I'm your friend…because I'm supposed to love Sango to the world… to you. I don't love her, Kagome! I love you. I hate being jealous, I hate having these eyes that hide how I truly feel. I hate this mask I wear in the world—where I'm Inuyasha's best friend, where you are my 'sister', where Sango is my lover. It's a lie, beating down on me, like my heart does when you are in sight, when I look into your eyes.
I hate your eyes in the same breath that I love them. I want you to be free from the kind of pain I have at hiding myself from the world, from you. But I still wish you were mine…
*Yes, this is the Inuyasha version of my Yu Yu Hakusho drabble series. I figured why not since I'm throwing all of the Yu Yu gang in awkward situations with weird pairings, why shouldn't my Inuyasha challenges get the same treatment. You never know what you'll get!! Well, you can probably expect Shippou/Kagome, Miroku/Kagome, and Sango/Kagome. Other than those pairings—this drabble series is no hold bars. I kindly thank Forest Gump's creator for making him say that quote about chocolate and life because it has helped to create my both my drabble series'.