A short drabble about Apollo, and who he actually is.
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Innocence. He wishes he knows what innocence truly is. He wonders, if it is a state of mind, a being, but to him, it can only be a word. Only a word, something he can have no part in.
For most mortals, the only time they are innocent are during their childhood. Apollo is no mortal- he is a powerful immortal, the god of light, truth, poetry, prophecy, and the sun. But even as a god, he had no childhood, for he slew the mighty serpent Python when he was four days old, a mere infant. How can that be considered a childhood, innocent of all the evils in the world? He is not innocent- for how can one who has killed, fought, cheated, and stolen be innocent.
Apollo, lord of the sun, is not innocent, no matter how much he would like to be. For his innocence is just a façade. And trying to truly be the person that you act like and not just a mere façade is a truly hopeless case.
Carefree. In his seventeen year old form, Apollo is easy to think of as the happy-go-lucky teenager that he appears to be. At a first glance, it seems that he isn't scared of anything, and he breezes through life. However, when he no one is looking, he simply vents his anger, his frustration at how he cannot control issues in life.
Apollo doesn't have a particularly hard time acting like a carefree idiot in front of everyone. His deliberately horrible poetry and feigned disinterest during Olympus council meetings help maintain the image of a cheerful god that he created during his earlier years, while he was still a young god. But despite his immature stance, he is very aware of what is going on around him, and is not immune to emotions, positive or negative ones.
Apollo, god of light, is not carefree, no matter how much he would like to be. For his carefree appearance is just a façade. And trying to truly be the person that you act like and not just a mere façade is a truly hopeless case.
Cheerful. Emotions conquer every person, some more than others. As the god of poetry, he is thought of, and plays the part of an emotional god. However, he works very hard to keep his emotions from him, for if he lets his emotions get the better of him, he will be overwhelmed with grief, sorrow, and despair.
Sorrow haunts him at every step, hovering behind him like a wave, threatening to crash down on him if he lets his guard down. He wishes he could just escape, let go of everything, become normal, and escape the pain. He wishes that everything that haunts him- his sister's insults that are not meant in jest, watching his children and lovers die, and all the other problems that come crashing down upon him. He will never get a break from his job, chore; what he calls a curse- pulling the sun across the sky every day. And so he tries to be cheerful.
Apollo, god of poetry, is not cheerful, no matter how much he would like to be. For his cheerful demeanor is just a façade. And trying to truly be the person that you act like and not just a mere façade is a truly hopeless case.
Forgiving. Children of Hades are known for their grudges and unforgiving personalities, and children of Ares may be known for their tempers; Apollo outshines them all- his temper, once aroused can burn with a fury that would put the shame the sun, burning with its intensity.
Apollo hates being restricted, unable to attack when he would like to, to avenge the disappearance of his sister during the second Titan uprising. He helped Percy Jackson, son of Poseidon during the quest. Perhaps he isn't 'just a docile stud', as Ares says, maybe he does have a rebellious streak buried somewhere inside him.
Apollo, god of plagues, is not forgiving, no matter how much he would like to be. For his forgiving appearance is just a façade. And trying to truly be the person that you act like and not just a mere façade is a truly hopeless case.
Detached. At Camp Half-Blood, Apollo rarely visits his children. Behind his back on Olympus, some call him the personification of a deadbeat parent, not really caring about what happens to his children, never visiting them. To those who truly know him, he is fiercely protective, bordering on possessive.
Many people will attest to that statement. Apollo is capable of fierce love, and the jealousy that usually that usually comes with that love. He cares for those close to him, as shown by his actions against Orion. To her, he seemed cruel, tricking her into killing Orion, although both knew that he was simply protecting her. He is fiercely protective of his sister and to a lesser extent, his children and lovers. No matter what anyone says, he is capable of love.
Apollo, god of music, is not detached, no matter how much he would like to be. For his uncaring appearance is just a façade. And trying to truly be the person that you act like and not just a mere façade is a truly hopeless case.
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