The songs in this chapter are Devil Within and Out of My Head by Digital Daggers
I do not own Marvel or any of their characters! That being said I hope you enjoy the chapter!
Chapter One
I twiddled my pen, staring at the ticking clock on the wall with boredom. Just one more hour until my first gig at the bar! Jane was coming to watch my debut, even though all the band did right now was cover music, I was still excited. And really nervous.
When me and Jane had been offered a job with sheild, okay, just Jane, but we're a package deal, we had to move to New York. Jane didn't mind, it meant more time with Thor. But I had nothing to do until I found an ad in the paper. A cover band was looking for a singer, so I decided to audition and got the job. So by day, I filed notes and took care of Jane, and by night I practiced. Now, we finally have a gig at a night club down town. Hopefully I don't flunk...
"If you squirm any more than you already are, you will fall out of your chair." The smooth, velvety voice in my ear said. I rolled my eyes and turned, flipping him the bird while he smirked. Loki had come to earth looking for shelter with his brother, who thought he was dead after the fight with the dark elf thingies. Apparently, he was in trouble of some sort, so Thor told Fury and after probation, he was allowed to start working with me and Jane. He has been an absolute joy and by that I mean he's nice to look at but a pain in my ass. He was kind of nice somtimes though, he brought me coffee and lunch every now and then. Jane tried to say he had a crush on me because he never got anything for her. I just rolled my eyes and told her she was reading in to it too much.
"Shove it, popsicle." I retorted. He tensed and it was my turn to smirk at him. Me and Loki fought at work a lot, often times, Jane had to break it up before one of us got strangled. Okay, so usually it was me she worried about getting strangled, but there were some times that I wanted to do it to him.
"You look entirely too eager. I suppose you have a date tonight?" He mused, studying me as though I weren't worthy of a man's attention. Another reason I told Jane she was definately reading too much in to the coffee and lunch thing. I glared, standing up and kicking my chair back when it got in the way of my other wise graceful standing. Okay, not graceful, I almost broke a bone on a daily basis but details, details.
"I'll have you know that I am-."
"Darcy!" Jane yelled, cutting me off. I growled, turning around and crossing my arms. Stupid boss lady interrupting my come back.
"What?" I yelled back. She rolled her eyes and smiled at me, knowing the snapping was meant for Loki because she interrupted. God I could hit him sometimes...
"Go home early. I believe you need to get ready for tonight? Me and Thor will be there, and I believe Tony and Pepper will as well." She said, smiling like an angel. I grinned, my anger already gone as I squeeled, jumping up and down.
"I can't wait! Thanks Jane, I'll see you after the show!" I said, running out the door, leaving Loki with a confused look on his face.
"What show?" I heard him say before I got out of ear shot.
I met my band mates outside, grinning and hugging Samantha, the bad ass drummer. She had long blonde hair, a stud in the left side of her nose and the right side of her bottom lip. She looked like she could kick your ass in a black with white skull t-shirt and skinny jeans, but really, she wouldn't hurt a fly. She grinned back, flashing me a thumbs up while Johnny and Jack, brothers who played bass and guitar gave me props. They all had on nice-ish shirts, but I settled with a nice deep green with black lace corset dress and a spiked choker. If I had to be in front of a bunch of people, I was going to look my damn best! Maybe if I got a date out of it I could rub it in Loki's face.
"You guys ready?" Sam asked, stamping out her cigarette and wrapping an arm around my waist. Butterflies erupted in my stomach but I bit my lip and nodded, making them all laugh. They had all been on stage before, but this was my first time without alcohol and a karaoke machine. Me and Jane happened to do that a lot.
"Let's do this!" I said, pumping myself up. We entered the back of the club and took the stage, everyone cheering for a band they didn't even know. Half of them were probably drunk out of their minds.
"Alright, thank you!" I said, taking the mic and looking behind me. They all thumbs upped me, encouraging me to say our name and start the show. I looked back and found Jane with Thor, Tony, Pepper, and, Loki. Great, just what I needed, but he would probably get a kick out of our name. "We're the Midgardians!"
He looked up from the bar, meeting my eyes with amusement and I heard the first beats go off before I shut everything out, trying to ignore the way he looked at me in this dress. He was wearing a white t-shirt, black leather jacket and black jeans and he looked good. It was no secret that I often imagined what kissing him would be like.
"I will keep quiet, you won't even know I'm here. You won't suspect a thing, you won't see me in the mirror. But I crept in to your heart, you can't make me disappear, till I make you." I sang, trying to take my eyes off him. I felt a smile creep on to my face as I got in to the music. "I made myself at home, in the cob webs and the lies. I'm learning all your tricks, I can hurt you from inside. I made myself a promise, you would never see me cry, till I make you..."
"Go Midgardians!" Thor yelled loudly, causing me to try not to laugh while Jane smiled, hitting him lovingly. But Loki held a small smile on his face, just watching me, it gave me so much confidence and I didn't know why. If I could make him smile, I could do anything.
"You'll never know what hit you!" I sang, pointing back at him. Tony snickered, punching him and Loki rolled his eyes, but stayed focused on me. "Won't see me closing in. I'm going to make you suffer! This hell you put me in! I'm underneath your skin... The devil within. You'll never know what hit you..."
Loki turned, asked the bartender for something before grabbing it and getting up, disappearing. I frowned, but continued. I wasn't going to stop a show because some guy I didn't even like got up and left. Didn't even like, yeah, keep telling yourself that.
"I will be here when you think you're all alone, seeping through the cracks, I'm the poison in your bones. My love is your disease, I won't let it set you free till I break you." I looked down in surprise as he smirked up at me, slipping a glass of water on to the stage. I smiled down at him and he nodded, but didn't move. There was actually a crowd around the stage now! "You'll never know what hit you! Won't see me closing in. I'm going to make you suffer! This hell you put me in! I'm underneath your skin... The devil within. You'll never know what hit you.
"I tried to be the lover to your nightmare..." I started dancing slightly, putting on a real show for him while he stared up at me. I smirked down at him, feeling stronger by the minute. "Look what you made of me! Now I'm the heavy burden that you can't bare! Look what you made of me... Look what you made of me! I'll make you see..."
It was barely perceptible, but Loki's lips moved, like he said something I couldn't hear.
"You'll never know what hit you! Won't see me closing in! I'm going to make you suffer. This hell you put me in, I'm underneath your skin! The devil within.." I sank down to my knees, looking him straight in the eye and smiling devilishly. "You'll never know what hit you!
"The devil within... You'll never know what hit you!" The crowd erupted and I hung my head in relief, grabbing the water and taking a chug of it, nodding my thanks to Loki. When I drained the glass, he held out his hand and I wondered what his alterior motive was before passing it back to him, his fingers lingering on mine. Maybe he was actually being nice? Fat chance... he wanted something...
"Thank you!" I yelled, grinning back at my band while they cheered. I got to my feet, trying not to watch Loki's ass as he walked back to the bar and handed the empty glass to him.
"More!" Tony yelled from the back. I had to supress the urge to stick up the middle finger and just rolled my eyes.
"Alright, alright." I said, throwing my hands up. We already had a second song planned, but after that, we would wing it if need be. "You know what, this goes out to Mr. Nice Guy back there that brought me the water."
His face turned bright red as Thor laughed loudly, drawing more attention as he practically pushed Loki off the stool. He recovered quickly, but Tony poked him, making him blush even harder while Jane giggled behind her hand.
"Awe, isn't he cute?" I said, relishing the fact that I could get to hit. His eyes warned me that if I didn't shut up and sing, he was going to use magic and I laughed rolling my eyes and nodding to Samantha to start the beat. He smiled up at me as it started and I waved my fingers at him. He rolled his eyes, but waved back.
"In the porcelain, there's a crack. I've seen your dark side now there's no turning back. Tasted the poison on your tongue! It almost killed me." I smiled softly as his eyes softened. "I know what's underneath the mask. What seemed so good at first is under attack! I'm in the wreckage, damage done. It almost killed me."
He got up again, pushing himself off the bar with a smirk. I curled my finger, beckoning him and not caring what anyone took from this. Especially my mind..
"I loved you like a burning effigy, now all that's left is cinders. In the darker days of you and me, when every little bit of it hurts..." I looked down at him as he reached the stage, kneeling down and giggling as I poked him in the nose, making his eyes go wide.
"I gotta get right, get right, get right out of my head. Woah, oh, woah! Oh, oh, it's gonna blow! Get right, get right, get right out of my head! Woah, oh, woah! I gotta let it go!" He rolled his eyes, but I saw the laughter in them and it drove me forward, bringing me back to my feet and addressing everyone now.
"Disappointed disengage. You wrapped your limbs around me, hard to escape. I'm catatonic, cannot run. It almost killed me. I got too caught up so I loved you like a burning effigy, now all that's left is cinders. In the darker days of you and me when every little bit of it hurts, hurts, hurts, hurts!" This time I started bouncing on the balls of my feet to the beat, feeling energy boil inside of me, waiting to be freed.
"I gotta get right, get right, get right out of my head! Woah, oh, woah! Oh, oh, it's gonna blow! Get right, get right, get right out of my head! Woah, oh, woah! I gotta let it go!" I grinned down at him for a second and saw Tony standing there, an arm propped on his shoulder. He was probably one of the few that could do that.
"Your heart was a curious obsession. I can't feel it, I can't feel it! Your heart, it was never my possession. I can't steal it, I can't steal it! Walk away, walk away, gonna be okay! Walk away, walk away, god, I wanna stay!" I started walking the stage, really getting in to the energy of the room.
"I gotta get right, get right, get right out of my head! Woah, oh, woah! Oh, oh, it's gonna blow!Get right, get right, get right out of my head! Woah, oh, woah, I gotta let it go! I can't feel it! Oh, oh, it's gonna blow! Get right, get right, get right out of my head! I can't steal it! I gotta let it go..." I don't know how I ended up panting on my knees, with Loki standing in front of me while Tony clapped for me. He made a face before laughing and walking forward, handing me another glass of water.
"Thank you!" I said, raising the glass and addressing everyone. "You're all awesome."
"Hey kiddo, bring your band mates with you, celebration at my place!" Tony whispered, grabbing Loki and attempting to drag him away. I wondered why he seemed like he didn't want to go. The bartender waved, letting us know the next set was up and I nodded. Yeah, it was a short gig, but it was a good start. Maybe we could get a following or something. I put the mic back in the stand and we exited the stage, all high off the attention we were suddenly getting from people. A guy started approaching me with what had to be a cheesy line on his tongue. But he suddenly stopped, swallowing hard before walking away.
"Are you coming?" Someone said in my ear, placing an arm around my shoulders and glaring daggers at any other guys paying me attention from across the room. I snorted, almost shoving him off, but deciding to let him. If it kept the cheese balls away from me, I'd let him act like my boyfriend.
"Yeah, guys, Tony Stark is throwing us a celebration apparently." I said, shrugging. They all stopped giggling, staring at me in shock. Oh, right, Tony was famous. I kept forgetting that.
"Woah, how do you know Tony Stark?" Sam said, blinking before looking Loki up and down. She nodded her approval to me and I put my arm around his waist. Never would have seen this happening after the yelling matches we got in today.
"I kind of work for him..." I squeaked, shrugging with a smile. She groaned, grabbing my shoulders and forcing Loki to let go of me, my arm falling back to my side. I frowned, but quickly hid it.
"Honey, that is something you tell your friends so they aren't blind sided when a millionaire wants to throw them a party!" She hissed, staring at me with wide eyes. "Let's go, why are we still here!"
I laughed, forgetting this wasn't normal for them and letting her drag me towards the back door with Jack and Johnny following behind us. I stopped for a second, throwing a grin behind me.
"Yo, water boy, get up here and be my arm candy! We'll give Megalomaniac something to talk about!" I said, waving to Loki. He blinked in surprise before raising an eyebrow, walking over to me while my band mates shoved each other through the door.
"Keep calling me water boy and I might not come to your next... show." He said, wrapping an arm around my waist intimately and guiding me out the door. I liked him holding me, oddly enough.
"Oh please, you loved my singing! Admit it!" I said, laughing and wrapping an arm around him before sobering up. "Honestly though, why did you come here?"
"I was curious as to what you were so excited about. I had never seen you so eager to get out of the office... Aside from the time that I accidentally knocked your beverage in to your lap." I snorted and he stopped, smirking down at me. Yeah, the snorting probably wasn't very attractive, as he's pointed out in the office a couple times, but it just happened, okay? I can't control it!
"Bullshit that was an accident." I said, poking his chest. "Are you catching a ride with us?" "Well, as my brother and Miss Foster have already left I believe that would be a wise decision." He frowned slightly, looking at the large and old black van the others were calling me over to. He looked like he would rather walk then get in that thing.
"Oh loosen up, you're going to love this. No seatbelts!" I said, grabbing his hand and successfully dragging him until we were in the back, hunched so that we wouldn't hit our heads off the roof.
"Alright, dude, you break that girls heart..." Johnny trailed off from the passenger seat for a second. "No, never mind, do what you want, heart break is good song writing motivation."
"Johnny!" I yelled, picking up a stray t-shirt from the back and chucking it at him while laughing.
"None of that, I'm about to start driving!" Jack said, wrapping an arm around Samantha as she giggled, kissing his cheek. They were a thing and it was disgustingly cute sometimes, but it looked like real love so I held back my puking noises sometimes.
"I assume you know where Stark tower is!" I yelled back. They all flipped me off and I giggled, sitting down on the floor, dragging a tense looking Loki with me. He sat arm to arm with me, keeping his hands folded awkwardly in his lap as though he weren't just cuddling with me.
We drove, the three of them chattering while me and Loki sat in heavy awkward silence. I was just about to get up the guts to actually have a proper conversation with him when they all yelled black cat and slammed on the brakes, sending us both flying. I cried out, laughing as we tumbled to the back of the van doors with me ending up on top of him, his arms holding me protectively while I tried not to pee myself laughing.
"Guys!" I yelled in between giggled. "Be nice!"
"Nah!" They all yelled. I giggled, looking up at Loki's surprised face before sliding up his chest so we were face to face.
"You alright there, buddy?" I teased, poking his nose for the second time that night. He smirked, leaning up as though he were about to kiss me when there was a knock on the back door. I cleared my throat, blushing at what he almost did, but mostly at the fact that I wanted him to.
"Sorry." He muttered, helping me up and brushing my shoulder's off. I looked over at Sam and she smiled empathetically at me. He opened the door to reveal Thor, who dragged him out with a giant grin before clapping me on the shoulder. I nearly flew across the van, but Loki grabbed me, stabilizing me then taking his hand back like I had burned him.
"Worthy performance Lady darcy." He boasted. I rolled my eyes, waving him away and begging Jane with my eyes. I needed to talk to someone who didn't know Loki was a pyschopath, therefore, wouldn't tell me that I was making a huge mistake almost letting him kiss me.
"What was that?" Sam asked, plopping down beside me and swinging her legs. She gave me her best 'tell me all your woes' look and I cracked.
"I don't know, he's a co worker who always gets on my nerves. I mean, Jane is always having to tear us apart because we're ready to kill each other. And then tonight he's all nice and getting me water and making me tingly and then almost kissing me." I said, putting my head on her shoulder and pouting. Jane was my best friend, but there were some things I couldn't talk to her about. "And worst of all, I wanted him too! I liked it when he had his arm around me. I felt safe!"
"Get him drunk. Sleep with him." She said, shrugging. I snorted, laughing a little.
"Yeah, but what if I want more than just sleeping with him? What if, this time, I want to actually try having a stable relationship with someone" I said, looking up at her. I realized how stupid it sounded, but she didn't know how unstable Loki was. She stood up, dragging me with her and grabbing my shoulders, staring me hard in the eyes.
"Then leave it to me. I'll scope him out, see what he's thinking. And then you go sleep with him." I snorted again and rolled my eyes, pushing her lightly.
"Aye aye, sir!" I yelled, saluting her before we dissolved in to giggles and headed inside.