A/N: Fist of all my I'm not an english native speaker. So there are probably lots of mistakes because my mother tongue is german and my beta-reader let me down, but I wanted to publish this story anyway. I wrote the story before that Katherine/Robin thing was aired on tv. The only thing that I knew back then was that there will be a blond stripper who will raise some interests of Katherine. The following came out of this.
CHAPTER 1
Protection is not really what Katherine Mayfair expected as she found something out about herself. It was more distraction that faced her heart as she did so. And yes it felt like a misfit sometimes and the unusual way it looks like couldn't be denied. Katherine Mayfair was attracted by a young blond stripper. Even the word let her shiver inside. That was really something new.
After all the difficult times she had to go through, she couldn't find anything to let her fascination for that women be called wrong. Times were hard and she had a lot to deal with. After years of fear of her -now killed through her own hand- husband and the deathly accident of her own daughter she still was hunted by nightmares from time to time. The little body of her kid was still buried in the woods.
Katherine looked out of one of her windows. She remembered her old life. She remembered the physical and emotional pain. And she thought about giving her little girl an official funeral. Then she thought about how proud she was of Dylan – that european girl she saved from loneliness and who calls her mum, and she decided to let her little girl rest in the woods – for now.
Katherine Mayfair tuned away from the window and looked at the floor. It was not long ago when she was laying there in her own blood. Loneliness had driven her crazy, after she had fallen in love with the imagination of being loved by Mike. She wondered how her nervous breakdown could have ended that good. Suddenly her thoughts were cut off by the cute colorful voice of a young blond which was rushing through the door.
"Hello Kath, are you at home!"
Katherine could only manage to give her a smile when she was discovered. She watched the blond storming into her direction and started to panic and went back a few steps. The blond immediately stopped and laid her head on one side. "Are you okay?"
The smile of the redhead faded a little and she raised her shoulders. "Well, actually I do not know."
The younger woman walked slowly over to the kitchen table where Katherine stood and she took a seat in front of her. "Do you want to talk about it?"
Katherine hesitated. She was not sure what to say. She looked deep into the eyes of her. "I want but I can't.", she finally said and hoped that was all she needed to say.
"By I can't you mean you are not ready yet, right?"
This sentence felt like a relief for Katherine. She finds her strong smile again and she nodded.
The women on the chair in front of her smiled brightly back. Then she cleared her throat and asked calmly: "Will you ever tell me, what is spinning rounds in your mind?"
Katherine took a deep breath. That blonde girl is really something special but so damn young compared to me. Things will never turn out good for both of us. Should I really allow myself to let her in?
"I'll try."
"Okay." Robin stood up again. "I'll go back to Lynette and the others for a cup of coffee. I heard that Mrs. McClusky had a really rough night yesterday, and I wanted to ask you if you are going to join us."
Katherine raised her eyebrows. "Rough nights? I'm in!"
The blonde took her hand and guided her over to her friends. Maybe I could enjoy it, being with her. Maybe it's possible.