A/N - This story is being published again by request. :)

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A Forgotten Letter

Chapter 1

Jane and Maura were moving some of there things into a storage locker . They had agreed to share it together because neither had too much to store . Since Jane only had a few boxes she brought them over to Maura's . So they could take Maura's and hers together in one trip to the storage locker.

Maura was looking through the boxes when she saw an envelope. Jane was out taking Jo for a quick walk before they left. Maura took the letter out of the envelope. It was a printout of a letter . Which read as follows.

To my llbff,

Hi,

It's me. Hope you don't mind me writing you like this. I have some things I need to tell you. But I am such coward and can't say these things face to face. Or even sober which I am definitely not right now. So I hope I will not lose my nerve and I will give this to you. But like I said before I am not feeling very brave when it comes to this subject. Don't worry none of the things in this letter are bad. I want you to keep in mind that we are best friends. I hope we always will be even after you read this letter. If for any reason something upsets you in this letter wad it up and throw it away. Act like I never gave it to you. We can continue as best friends. Write this off as a mistake that was caused by one drink too many .

They call alcohol courage in a bottle. Yet it is even failing to give me the courage to write this. I keep picturing your beautiful face reading this letter. You smiling at first reading a letter from your best friend. Then your smile falling away as you read realizing your best friend really isn't who you thought she was at all. I apologize for that.

Okay here goes . I thought it would be easier to hide behind pen and paper to say this to you. Or in this case laptop to printout but you get the point. But as usual I am wrong. Also I am wrong when it comes to judging at how relationships work. This probably would be a good time to wad this letter up and toss it in the garbage. It will save us both the embarrassment of it's realizations contained within it.

Still here huh? Well then I guess I have to keep writing now . I took a break and had another drink . Might get a little incoherent soon so I'll write faster. I just used the word incoherent that's a big word . Maybe I'm not as drunk as I thought I was. So what are you wearing? Ha ha then again maybe I am as drunk as I think I am. But seriously what are you wearing. Ha I thought you would appreciate a little humor . I've always loved your sense of humor. I've not always understood all your jokes . But I love your efforts to make me laugh and smile.

You just left my place. I can still smell you. I love the way you smell. Have I ever told you that before because I should have? I should have told you a lot of things. I should have told you how much I hate when you leave. Even though I do love watching your cute ass walking away. Really nice ass by the way. That's another one of the things I should have told you. But the reason I really hate when you leave that you don't know. I feel empty completely empty and lonely when you leave. I wish you would stay with me always and never leave. Wow just reread that I sound a little stalkerish sorry.

I can barely keep my eyes open. So I guess I better hurry up and tell you the point of this letter. Well basically well here goes nothing. Well not nothing it's everything. So here goes everything. I have feelings for you . I have had these feelings for you for a long time. I'm pretty sure you're straight so I would understand if you did not return these feelings. I don't think of myself as gay either. But.. I have these romantic feelings toward you. Not toward any other women just you. So I don't know what that makes me. Confusing I know. I would like nothing more than to make love to you. But you are my best friend and a woman. So I don't know what to do. So tell me you don't feel the same way . Then we can just put all this behind us and keep being best friends. Or just ignore this letter and wad it up and throw it away. Or the last option . Come find me and we can together figure out how this whole lesbian sex thing works. Well I think I'm going to go pass out now. So your choice where we go from here. Just know I will love you whatever you choose.

Your llbff

Maura eyes were wide her mouth had fallen opened . She reread it a few more times. She wasn't sure who had wrote it. There were no names. Maura thought that maybe it was her that had wrote it. But she had no recollection of writing it, But in the letter it said the person who wrote it was drinking so...maybe it was her that had wrote it and just didn't remember. The more she thought about it she thought it was her. She felt the same way about everything that was written in the letter . But what if ? What if Jane wrote it ? No that's not possible Maura thought Jane is straight. She has no idea my feelings for her. Even though she wished she did. Maura put the letter back in the envelope. Maybe she should sign the letter and just hand it to Jane . Yes that's what she was going to do. But she would have to find the right time to give it to Jane. Maura went to look for a pen to sign her name on the letter.

Jane came busting in the door all excited. Maura startled dropped the letter in a box. Maura was a little rattled and told Jane she was going to look for things to take the storage locker. After she left the room Jane started looking through the boxes. She saw the same envelope Maura was just reading. Jane looked around to ask Maura what it was . But Maura wasn't around. Jane took out the letter and read it. Like Maura Jane's eyes got wide and mouth dropped open. Jane too thought maybe she had wrote it. But wondered if maybe Maura had wrote it. Jane thought no Maura no way could have written the letter. But maybe she should sign it and give it to Maura. After all Jane was getting so tired and frustrated with Maura not knowing that she was in love with her. Jane put the letter back in the envelope. Maura came up behind Jane. Jane jumped surprised and dropped the letter back in the box.

Maura sees the box with the letter in front of Jane. She says " Jane, I'll take this one to the car."

Jane panics she needs to get the letter out of the box before Maura takes it. " No no Maura I'll take it."

They both pull on the box trying to take it away from the other. The letter falls out of the box onto the floor. They both set the box down. Then they both reach for the letter.

To be continued ?

A/N – Who do you think wrote it? Who will give it to who?