The Secrets that we Keep

Daiki POV

Even as I watched him walking slowly through the dark, his red hair glimmering as the wind ruffled it gently all I could feel is panic. My heart thundered in my chest as my mind ran with the different possible outcomes for this conversation. But he couldn't leave for America sure during the send-off game I play it cool.

But the thought of him leaving now only forced my hands to shake worriedly as I looked up from my thought to see him walking alone. This would be my only chance to even speak to him

"Kagami!" I called out his name but my voice is alien to me, it grew horse as panic edge found its way into my voice. I still had time to tell him how I feel before things grew even more out of hand.

Within a millisecond of calling out to him, I watched his red eyes glow with confusion but there was something else in his cool gaze. Maybe it was a relief but I didn't stop to think about it I rushed forward.

Not even bothering to think as I ran through the darkened streets to catch up to him. He stood there still as a statute simply looking at me as my steps echoed through the empty air as he watched me.

All I could think about is that time at the winter cup when he enters the zone and we squared off, I don't know what it was but something in me snapped. All that pent up hatred and rage had changed a great deal. I didn't resent him, I wasn't jealous that he has Testu, that he had been able to beat me.

All I felt was this intense love, at first I didn't think that it made any sense all of these emotions welling in me over a man of all things. But as I had time to work out my feelings over the break I couldn't help but think that I don't know where I would be without him there to snap me back into reality.

He was my light as much as he was Tetsu's and there was no way that I was going to let him leave for America without knowing how I felt first. Adarline pumped through my veins and excitement and worry scratched my nerve endings. My skin felt like it is on fire as I stopped in front of Taiga panting heavily for a moment as he looked over me with worry and confusion shifting into his soft crimson gaze.

"What's the wrong Aomine? You seem off." His voice softens with worry as I took the moment to really take in his face. He lightly tan skin stared back at me as his crimson red bangs seemed to be getting a bit longer.

Slightly covering his eyes as I looked at his soft pink lips simply staring back at me. A little voice in the back of my skull scream not to pussy out and before I could even control myself my lips were coming crashing down on his.

The warmth of his body overtook me, joy-filled in my heart although it was fleeting, I could feel his lips moving with mine. My heart practically leaped out of my chest from joy but I knew that I couldn't truly enjoy this moment not till I say my peace. So I pulled away even though every nerve in my body was screaming for me to retreat back into the warmth that is Kagami.

But even as I stared at him I could see the confusion filling his half-lidded eyes as he stared at my face with new intrigue. His crimes red eyes staring into the very pits of my soul and I could just tell that if I didn't say something now I never would.

"I...I don't want you to go to America I know that it's selfish but I figure there was no point it not saying anything. At least this way neither of us is holding onto any unspoke regrets. Along the way, through the winter cup, I fell for you and I haven't been able to get you outta my head since.

I know that must sound cheesy especially coming from me. But I really don't want to you go, I don't know where I would be if you hadn't come into my life and rocked my world. But it's not fair of me to ruin your chances at the NBA. So go if you really want to, but know that if you do come back I'll be here waiting."

I smiled gently at him even though my heart was breaking into a thousand pieces. The very thought of him leaving forced me in a panic but it's not fair of me to force him to stay right. What claim do I have to him to tell him what to do? Before I could dig myself into a bigger whole I ran through the night letting the air whip pass me as I rushed my way to my house.

Horns blared drifting into the quiet night air as cars rushed passed me on my way home. Though not once did I look up from my feet for all I knew I am going in the wrong direction. But my body moved on impulse like it remembered the way to my house even if I didn't bother to look up from my empty stare. "Dai-chan?" I looked up from my thought to see cherry blossom pink hair staring back at me.

Even as my eyes scanned Satsuki I could see her soft pink eyes staring at me exhaustion written on her face as a slight frown formed on her face. Her light pink bow began to furrow. There she sat firmly on my house porch not daring to move as this determination filled her gaze.

"What you don't want her back in town? That's cruel Dai-chan she is your sister." Her motherly and demanding tone filled my ears but I'm completely at a loss. I don't know what the hell she is talking about.

I sighed heavily dropping next to Satsuki simply sitting they're awestruck for a moment as I stared up at the twinkling black sky. The stars burning bright as they stared back at me as if they were taunting me.

Kagami is a star that I can never reach and after tonight he is going to be long gone. A heavy sigh left my lips as word vomit drifted from my lips. "I don't know what you're talking about I didn't even know that she was coming back."

A heavy frown formed on my face as I heard how hollow and lifeless my voice sounded. I hated to begin like this but it wasn't like I could be pump. "So then what is this about." The wrath of Satsuki body overtook me as she wrapped her arms firmly around my right arm. Her boobs pressing firmly against my side as she peered up at me with her wide pink eyes.

I could feel my own face heating up as I thought about telling her about Kagami, what would she think about me. If she knew that I was involved with a guy, I knew that she loved me and we were practically family.

But still this would be a huge change in the way she thought of me, I left out a heavy sigh. Forcing my shoulder to slump with defeat as I shifted my gaze from the gorgeous night sky to Satsuki.

Fear slightly creeping its way into my heart as trepidation gripped tightly to my throat making it difficult to speak. I didn't think that I cared this much about how Satsuki saw me but after a moment I spoke in a cool voice.

"I kissed Kagami I have been trying to find a way to bring up my feeling to him and I thought that I had more time to sort them out myself. But with him going to America this was my only chance to say I felt."

I let out a heavy sigh as this worry began to grip me, he kissed me back but he didn't say a word he sat there completely shock too stunned to even speak. Does that mean that he feels the same way over if he kissed me out of habit?

Damn how the hell am I supposed to know, I simply rested my head on top of Satsuki's taking in the smell of her strawberry shampoo. The scent always seemed to calm me down as I looked out of the street.

"Anyway, could we drop the subject I really don't want to talk about it right now." I looked down at Satsuki though it was hard to form this angle. But it seemed like even her own eyes were drawn to the stars but I could see the way that the wheels in her eyes turned with intrigue. "Sure" It was a one-word answer and it was all that I could take at the moment.