AN: English is not my first language, and i don't own anything.

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All i could see before me, was darkness but i could sense him, i knew he was coming and there was nothing i could do to stop him. Then i felt his hand on me, I knew what followed so I screamed ''No! No! Please don't touch me. I will do anything.''

He started to laugh, knowing that no one will stop him, not even my mother, she never did, who is probably past out somewhere in the house.

I could see in his eyes anger because i was screaming, so he lifted his arm and slapped me on my cheek. I fell on the floor than i tried to escape but he stopped me, grabbed me by my hair and started to pull me away from the door and to his room. '' You asked for this'' he said whit a smile on his face, grabbing his belt and pulling it out...

''NOO!'' i woke up screaming my lungs out, panic rising from my chest. I couldn't breath and remember where i was. All i could see was darkness and that didn't help my panic. Suddenly someone opened the door, turned on light in my room and started to approach me, so I screamed some more '' No, please don't touch me'' and started to back up on my bed, getting away from the touch.

''Bella, it is me Charlie, it's me, calm down'' my dad tried to calm me down saying '' i'm here, nobody will hurt you''. As i become aware where i was, and that there was no danger my panic started to slowly calm down, but then i started to sob and started to cry.

Charlie watched me with pity not knowing what to do to help me, he tried to rub my back but that only made things worse, i flinched to his touch '' don't touch me'' i said and started to backing up from him, not wanting his touch but most importantly i didn't want him to fell scars on my back. '' Ok i won't touch you, but Bella this can't continue, you have nightmare every night, i don't know what to do to help you. I cant help you if you wont tell me what happened to make you afraid like this. You don't let anybody even touch you! '' he said, i could see frustration in his eyes and i felt bad for doing this to him, but he couldn't help me, nobody could, my demons were real. Every time when i close my eyes i could see him, Phill, feel his touch on my skin and that reminded me how broken i really was.

''Please Bella, let me help you'' he continued talking, but as he didn't receive any answer he got up and said '' we will talk in the morning'' and left my room.

He couldn't find out what is wrong with me, nobody could know what he did to me. It all started when my mom, Rene remarried, up until then we were happy, we lived a simple life in Phoenix, she divorced my dad when i was small so it didn't bother me, i saw him on holidays and over summer. She met Phill, they started to date, and quickly married each other, but that was fine with me, he seemed like good guy, but turned out to be a real monster.

I couldn't escape him, up until that night... Quickly i got up from bed and entered my shower not wanting to remember all thing he did to me. I cried through the shower, knowing that i wouldn't sleep anymore. Rain started to fall, and it started to calm me a little so i went to sit by the window and watched as it falls.

Some time passed i heard Charlie get up, so i went downstairs to make us breakfast. He came down '' Bella, please sit, i need to talk to you. i can't do this anymore, i can't watch you like this, you won't even tell me why are you like this, you are leaving me no choice'' i listened to him, not knowing what will he do with me'' i'm sending you to Italy, i have a friend there, he will take you in, maybe there you will find piece you are looking for.''

''Charlie, I..'' ''No Bella, this is not negotiable'' I signed, well i didn't matter to me where i was, so i didn't fight him on this '' Ok, dad, i will go''. He smiled '' You will see, Volterra is beautiful little place, it will be better there.'' It didn't matter to me where i was going, i only wanted escape from everyone, be alone and find peace that i didn't have ever since Phill entered my life.''

'' Your flight is tomorrow from Seattle, Mario will wait you there.'' ''How do you know him?'' I asked him. '' We met when we were in high school, he came to America but returned to Italy after it was over, but we stayed friends.''

I went to my room and started to pack, i didn't have a lot of things so it didn't took me long. A least school wouldn't be a problem anymore, i finished it last month, deciding to not to go to collage right away. I went to pick up pictures from my wall, pictures with my friends, i used to be very social person, i had many friends how i left behind. I even changed my number since they didn't stop calling me, but i don't want them to see what i become, what he made me.

After i was finished i laid on my bad, knowing i will have another night full of nightmares.