Forever never ever seemed so short...
The sad,alone hamster stared into the window of her brothers house,he had brought a new friend over,or was it just a friend? The ice blue eyed hamster was grasping onto the window sill as if it was to hold her pain.
I stood and watched as she drove up,
I kept my cool with the pain.
It was dark,cloudy,and raining hard,like clear needles falling from the sky. She grasped onto the window sill harder with her delacite paws, restaining her tears going down her furry white cheeks.
"He brought her to bed...he is doing what I wish he never had done.."
And as you were playing with her in your bed
I was outside your door in the rain.
She looked down at the ground,her silky, blonde hair covered up her sad face. He broke his promise...
She slowly looked up at the sky, feeling revengefull and angry in her soft face. She quickly eyed an axe that was for cutting down trees in the nearby corner,where her brothers neighbor was cutting down a couple in the front lawn. She gave a whitty smile and grabbed it,she stared onto her reflection,then started heading for her brothers door.
No one Heard as I walked up,
Put my paw on the door and then turned.
She felt a cold chill run up her spine as she walked inside,she slowly shut the door,feeling a roar of thunder just outside. But she didnt care,she was walking down the hallway of his house,touching the sharp part of the axe.
And as I walked down the hall with my mind in a blurr
I was loving the pain you would learn..
She paused,looking to the right,you could see her brothers door. Soft and still she was,with her heart beating fast. She walked up to the door and put her delacite hamster ear on it,all she heard was moaning,there was a rage of fire burning inside her. She quickly put her ear away from the door,staring at it with disgust,she slowly tried opening the door,but with no surprise,it was locked. She quickly lost her patience and just furiously kicked the door contanstly,until finally it fell to the ground with a loud "thud".
Kicked open the door with a fury
She looked around,spotting her brother,with that girl ontop of him under the covers. Her eyes widened,she showed her teeth and started to growl. Kenji peeked from the covers and saw his sister. "Resureyu...what are you doing?" Resureyu,the girl with the axe in her paws,just started at him,with pain and sadness in her eyes. "Im sorry Kenji...my brother." she whispered as she lifted up her axe aiming it towards the girl. "RESU...NO!" yelled Kenji in surprize,but it was too late,Resu screamed 'bitch' at the girl and sliced her neck.
She was the first one to go.
"I love you...I love you...why are you doing this to me?"
Resureyu looked at the girl and saw what she had done. Blood was alover the bed,it was a scene on shock for both Kenji and Resu. "You...you killed her,I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU,RESU!" yelled Kenji.
Slowly at first and then quickly you bled
as my rapture has ended the show.
Resu just stared at the clean,navy carpet,feeling the cold blood on her axe drip down onto her feet.
Peace of mind doesnt come cheap
Devotion hurts most of all.
Resu looked up and saw her brother almost crying. "Please...please...Mary...I loved you." he said grabbing onto the girls paw. Resu bit her lip with anger,then walked out of the room,slamming the door shut.
She felt an anvil of guilt fall inside her,she was amazed seeing her own brother almost crying for a girl,he never cried for his own sister,just that girl. Resu cracked a little smile pleased that she killed her. Looking around the house,she noticed some pictures of her and Kenji as little kids,with him hugging her in one picture,and kissing her on the cheek with the other,with a marker that said 'my sister and me'."
Now pieces of your mind are all I can see
With the pictures of me on the wall.
"Mary...shes still alive...I can feel it." she said to herself hearing the crying in his room.
Why are you still breathing...?
She quickly ran out of the house,dropping the bloody axe on the wet grass. Her blue and black corset she was wearing felt like 10 pounds as she was running away,pretending as if it never happened.
These are my dreams..
She quickly ran to the old abandoned factory,which was her home,she quickly ran in and slammed the door,trying to catche her breathe.
I dare you...
I dare you...
She slowly pulled out a picture that she snatched from Kenjis house,all soaked and wet now,it was a picture of Kenji hugging her.
I dare you to push me just a little bit further
Blurring the lines between my memories and dreams.
See what happeneds when I forgot Im awake
And the hurt is so blinding addiction is all I can see.
Resu gave one last glimpse to the wet picture,then slowly set it at her desk where there was a big mirror,she layed it there slowly,starring at herself in the mirror,her black eye makeup smudged alover her face,with cold tears drying up from her furry cheeks,and her wet hair dripping onto the floor.
Control will lead to possesion
Obsession for permanent Bliss
She picked up a bottle from her desk,which read 'Anti Depressiant' "Kenji doesnt care for me anymore...ever since he met that girl he has been ignoring me..and all this pain because of it,he was the only one that cared for me,but now that hes gone,all this depression builded up inside me.." she ended her thought and opened the anti depressiant bottle up,and grabbed two pills. "Wait.." she thought. "Two isnt going to help...not with this pain." she slowly got 4 more,then got 10,then got the whole bottle of pills in her paws,without a second thought,she shoved it all in her mouth,and swallowed it. She gasped for breathe.
You say that Im crazy but baby
I cant take enough pills to stop this.
She sat down on her bed,no one lived with her,she was alone in the factory,she put on the radio and starred into the cieling.
Youre just one more forever
I couldnt hold together one more disaster
For the ever after
One more last one.
She got into a flashback,when Kenji and her were little. "You will always be my sister..." he said to her with a warming smile,tucking her in to bed,and giving her a goodnight kiss on the cheek.
Resu flashed back into reality,hot tears starting streaming from her sad eyes again.
Forever
Never
Ever
Seemed so short.
She grabbed her blue pillow and pressed her face against it. "Ever since you met her,you wanted nothing to do with me. I asked you if I was a good sister,you said you never were my sister."
All those times that you made me feel worthless
Like I was the target
That no one knew
And now all these insecurities
Will come back to kill you
She slowly removed the pillow from her face,she made it all wet with the rain water,but she didnt care,she threw it across the room and looked out the window,replaying the scene on her head when she sliced that girls neck,and blood was alover the bed.
By now you should know that Im different
I have a feeling you already do
Its time like these I can breathe what I see
tell me my dear does that seem timid to you?
She kept on remembering what Kenji said when they were younger,his voice talking in her head. "You will always be my sister."
Forever
Never
Ever
Seemed so short
Resu was remembering the first times his brother met Mary,Resu was waiting for Kenji to come from the hotel in the rain.
You were there at the Hotel
Or Maybe it might of been a Motel
When I awoke as the first tear fell.
FLASHBACK
"Kenji...where are you?"
You didnt think
You didnt think of me!