Disclaimer: I don't own HP. Though the personalities in this story are partly mine.ü It's a long story really why they act that way. But anyways, sorry J.K Rowling.

A/n: Hello guys... New story here... I hope you like this one. I got it from a movie I was previously watching. Well, yeah, I know it's insane.But please check it out. Insanity doesn't really seem that ugly really. If you get used to it.ü Well, anyway, on with the story...

By: Aningme

Chapter 1

Dilemma

The loneliness she felt that day came with her until now. She couldn't forget him. He was always with her, wherever she went. He whispers in the wind. He smiles at her in mirrors, he's everywhere.

But seeing him just puts up more pain. It is hard, but she has to let him go…

The war is over, and Hermione Granger graduated from Hogwarts. Ever since she left that school, lots of memories haunted her. But that's one main thing about life. Leaving the past and moving on to the future. But how come she finds herself stuck in the past? She couldn't help but stare at the sky and remember everything, some good, and some bad. But that's unavoidable. It's human nature.

"Hermy, are you sure you really need to go?" Ron Weasley asked as she led her to the door of his new house. It was 3 days old now, and thatought to have a celebration.

"Yeah, Herm, we could get wasted with the red wine I brought." Ginny suggested, pulling her husband, Seamus, with her.

"Or if you don't want to be wasted, we could just chat more, for old time's sake." Seamus added. Hermione smiled at her friends. She could not possibly do that.

"I'm sorry guys," She began. They wouldn't understand even if she explains how she feels. "I really have to put in extra hours in the hospital, you know. We have a lot of patients today, since it's winter."

"Are you sure?" Neville suddenly interjected, behind Ron.

"Yes, I am sure. Now you all go inside before you get sick." She waved at them and started to walk off. But before she could walk farther away from the house, a hand grabbed her wrist, stopping her. She spun around and sighed at Ginny.

"What's up, Gin?" Hermione asked. She couldn't blame them from wondering what's going on with her. She better stop acting weird around them, before they figure out something.

"No, Hermione. I think the better question is what's up, Herm?" Ginny asked, tilting her head sideward. She always does that when she's worried.

"Me?" She was not good in lying. Never in her life. "I'm totally fine."

Ginny glared at her. "Oh, Herm," She placed her hand on her shoulder. "I know you still think of Harry."

Just hearing his name makes her want to cry. "I am not."

Ginny grabbed her hand and held it tight. "C'mon. Open up to us a little. It will do you good."

"No, Ginny, I think it's better this way."

"Don't be afraid of making us worry, Herm, because we are already worried." Ginny explained as Hermione watched the others go back inside, giving them privacy. "You can't just shut your emotions in there." She pointed at her heart. "It will just worsen the pain."

"I can't forget him." Tears were starting to sting her eyes now. But she didn't let them fall. "But I can handle this."

Ginny sighed and hugged her. "I know how hard that would be for you. But remember we are here for you. Always."

Hermione smiled and hugged her back. She felt a little better now. Opening up wasn't that bad.

"By the way," Ginny excitedly clapped. "I haven't said anything to Seamus yet, but, I'm pregnant. Three months old."

"You're what!" She placed him on the back of her head and stared at her friend's belly. "Congratulations! When are you going to tell him?"

"Tonight, maybe." Ginny smiled and sighed.

"Well, that's good." Hermione hugged her pregnant friend. "Call me later alright? Tell me how he reacts."

"Of course. Take care now, Herm."

"I will."

Walking towards the tall building of her hospital, she looked up and sighed at the wonderful sight. She couldn't believe she was already a doctor. She couldn't believe Ron becoming a great businessman, and is now celebrating in his new home. She couldn't believe Ginny was pregnant also, and she was feeling a little anxious to know what would Seamus react when he knows. But most of all, she couldn't believe He's gone forever, away from her.

She smiled that thought away and entered the building. She had a decision to make.

A/n: Guess what's that decision? Haha... wait for the next chapie. Anyways, have to apologize if the story is way way vague at first. But if you hang on, please, you will see my point... I hope... Well anyway, please review. Because I can't live without reviews.ü TY. >>>>>>> Aningme