A/N: Here is a 4 chapter christmas story, which I hope to have completely posted by Christmas. It's complete handwritten. The more reviews the quicker the updates, so please read and review.

Disclaimer: Don't own anything you recognize.

Olivia Benson had married her former partner Elliot Stabler three hundred and sixty-four days ago. That's right, Benson and Stabler got married on Christmas day 2008 and here Olivia sat in the armchair, in the living room of their Soho townhouse with their three month old daughter, Aurora, sleeping soundly in her arms but minus Elliot. He wasn't there.

Stabler didn't even know that his newest daughter existed since he went missing before Olivia found out that she was pregnant. Elliot had been last seen by his partner Sgt. John Munch in the early hours of New Years day and hadn't been seen since.

Olivia remembered that dreadful morning when she received the horrible phone call like it was yesterday.

Flashback

After waking to the phone and giving Elliot a kiss goodbye before he headed out for a call at just after two am, Olivia went back to sleep, only to be startled awake again by the apartment phone ringing loudly right by her ear, on the bedside table. Without opening her sleepy eyes, Benson stretched out her left arm and thumbled around for the loud offending noise.

Once she finally found it, she pressed the answer button and put it to her ear.

"Benson," she mumbled half asleep.

Olivia still used Benson at work to avoid confusion with two Detective Stablers in the same squad and to keep IAB happy.

"Liv, it's Munch. Is Elliot with you?"

Thinking maybe the earlier call was a dream, Olivia squinted an eye open to see if Elliot was still beside her asleep bit the other side of the large queen sized bed was cold and empty. It hadn't been a dream, he really had gone.

Olivia shot up in the bed. "Munch, he left about two hours ago when you called and hasn't returned. What the hell is going on?! Where the hell is my husband, John?!" She asked.

Her voice filled with confusion and fear as she shivered.

Elliot wouldn't just take off without telling her, would he? They'd only been married a week, was he already unhappy with their marriage?

The brunette heard the man sigh over the phone.

"Munch?! Answer me damn it! Where the hell is my husband?!" She asked again. Salty, wet tears welling up fast in her now wide awake, fearful chocolate brown eyes. "Where?!" She screamed.

Olivia heard the phone being passed and Fin's voice flowed through it a second later. Olivia's hands were shaking violently as with the rest of her body. Shaking in fear. "W-where is m-my h-husband?" Olivia asked once more, stuttering as the tears poured down her flawless olive skin.

Fin sighed. "Baby girl, he disappeared from the crime scene. No-one has seen or heard from him since about ten to three....But we are continuing to search for him, Liv."

The distraught wife couldn't breath. A mix of disbelief and sobbing were the causes. How the heel could her husband just vanish from a place swarming with police. She couldn't understand it.

"N-n-n... No, Fin. I—It's a mistake....M-m-maybe he....No!" Olivia screamed.

She'd totally lost it. She was sobbing so hard. Continually thinking over and over in her head how unfair it was. She'd finally married her soulmate only to lose him a week ofter the wedding.

"F...Find him, Fin!" She cried and pressed the end call button before hurling the cordless handset away.

No-one had been able to coax Olivia out of that bed for over a week. Not even Casey could and the ADA was her best friend.

End flashback.

Aurora's hungry screech brought Olivia out of her flashback.

"Princess, I wish you could have met your daddy. He was a good man," the mother whispered as she moved her pyjama top and allowed her hungry child to latch on to her breast.

As Aurora quickly ate, Olivia took a brief moment to look at one of her and Elliot's wedding shots. It had been taken in a beautiful garden with different types of flowers around as they stood under a tent to protect them falling snow.

Elliot was standing behind his lovely bride with his strong arms around her slender waist and their fingers interwined, resting on her flat belly.

It had been a beautiful but cold winter day.

The brunette noticed that her cerulean blue eyed baby girl's tiny belly must've been nearly full because Aurora was eating at a much slower rate.

She looked down at her gorgeous little girl with a smile. "Hi sweetie. You excited about your first christmas, huh?"

Aurora's bright blue orbs met her mother's sparkling mocha brown ones as she looked up. The infant released her mother's nipple and giggled as she kicked her tiny, chubby legs.

"I take that as a 'yes'," Olivia replied as she lifted the baby up to burp her.

A couple of burps later, Aurora was beginning to doze off, so Olivia was going to take her upstairs so they could both get some sleep, or in Olivia's case, at least try to get some much needed sleep, but the brunette was stopped by a knock at the door. Olivia looked at the clock and furrowed her eyebrow.

Who the hell was at the door at 10:46 at night?

"Mommy, will be right here, sweetie," Olivia whispered to a sleepy baby Stabler as she placed her in the pink bassinette beside the couch.

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Benson opened the front door to see a very familiar man standing there. Her husband, who she hadn't seen in fifty-one very long weeks.

"El....Elliot?" She stuttered in shock, seconds before dropping to the floor. She'd passed out.

"Oh Livvie, nice greeting, baby," he whispered as he gently scooped her up and closed the door behind him with his foot.

As he laid her down on the couch, he didn't notice the pink bassinette beside it until he heard an innocent tiny giggle. His head snapped to it and looked down in to it, to find an awake gorgeous baby girl.

"Hi sweetie. What's your name, huh?" He whispered and placed a light hand on her chubby belly.

"El?"

Elliot looked back at Olivia to see her waking up.

"Yeah, baby, it's me. I'm home," he whispered, caressing her soft, flawless cheek.

Olivia wrapped her arms around him tightly. "Oh God, I thought you were dead."

"I'm sorry, baby, but I'm here now. I'll tell you about it later. Who's the gorgeous one in the bassinette?"

Olivia let go of Elliot and lifted Aurora out of the bassinette. "Sit down, El."

He sat down beside his wife and opened his arms before Olivia passed him their daughter.

"Meet our daughter, Aurora Dream Stabler. Born on September the twenty-first at 2:18pm. Weighing nine pounds thirteen ounces," Olivia announced to her husband.

"Wow, she's a big girl and she's absolutely gorgeous, Liv," Elliot gushed. "Hello Aurora, I'm your daddy. I'm so sorry I haven't been here for you and your Mommy," he whispered with a smile as his baby finger was wrapped tightly in his daughter's mini but strong grip.

Olivia was still in shock as she watched her husband meeting their baby girl for the first time. She had so many questions for her lover that needed to be answered but they'd have to wait just a bit longer.

Elliot rubbed his now sleeping daughter's tiny chubby arm and looked up at his wife. Her hair was back to it's natural dark brown and it was much shorter. Her eyes were tired and she was crying. They were happy tears of course.

The handsome blue eyed man lifted his arm from under Aurora's diapered bottom and reached up to Olivia's exhausted face.

"Baby, how was your pregnancy? I hope it was easy going," he asked softly stroking her cheek.

Olivia looked in to her loving husband's eyes and shook her head. "It wasn't."

"What happened, baby?" He asked concerned.

"I had gestational diabetes and.....when I was nearly seven months along. My blood pressure went through the roof and I was in hospital for a week. I almost lost Aurora. It also didn't help that I had morning sickness up to about a month before she was born."

"Oh honey, I'm so sorry. How long was your labour?"

"I went in to natural labour four days past my due date and went to the hospital. I had contractions for about three hours before they insisted on a c-section. They said that she was too big for me to deliver naturally and she was distressed....I wanted to have her naturally," she said with hot tears streaming down her sun kissed cheeks on to Elliot's hand which was still on his wife's cheek, caressing it.

He wiped away her tears and kissed the tip of her nose. "Oh God, baby. I'm so damn sorry that I wasn't there for you and Aurora. I'm so sorry," he apologized over and over with tears building up in his own eyes now.

Olivia sniffled. "It's not your fault, El. I know you wouldn't have left voluntarily. Can we please about what happened to you in the morning? I'm just so tired."

"Sure, baby. Let's go," he replied and led his wife upstairs with their daughter still sleeping safely in her father's arms.

Once they reached the top of the stairs, Elliot kissed Olivia's head. "Does Aurora sleep in the nursery or the bedroom?"

"In the bedroom for now. She has bassinette in there."

"Ok, baby."

The couple walked in to the bedroom and Elliot was surprised that nothing had been changed except there was now a white bassinette with a mobile attached to its side, going up to hang above it.

Elliot gently placed Aurora in it and tucked her in as Olivia climbed tiredly in to bed. He then toed off his shoes and got in behind her.

Olivia snuggled in to her husband as he wrapped his arms around her and sighed happily. "I love you, El," she whispered before sleep took over.

"I love you too, Liv," he whispered back and watched her sleep, listening to Aurora's soft breathing in the bassinette on Olivia's side.

He was going to have to tell Olivia what happened to him tomorrow, but for now he was just glad to be home with his wife and baby, where he belonged.

For now he was just going to lay cuddled up to his wife and best friend and watch her sleep soundly.