At
2.00am I had just finished reading the complete twilight saga for the
tenth time. However, I could read it again. I skipped across my room
to switch off the soft light, satisfied with the conclusion of
braking dawn. At the same time though, thinking of other possible
endings. I snuggled in my bed hauling the blanket over my head, my
attention focusing on the small water droplets. They plunged down
making an irritating racket on the rusty roof above me. I knew that
tonight was going to be the night I couldn't fall asleep.
I
absolutely loathed times like these. Even though I was exhausted, I
knew there was nothing for me to look forward to when I woke up.
There were no thrilling adventures ahead, I wasn't that eager to
see anyone either. Then I reminded myself about reality, our life's
aren't perfect, our life's have flaws and they don't always go
as planned either. The human race is a cruel species and I'll have
to accept that. I lay there for a moment my eyes focused intensely on
the slanted wall above me. Masses of thoughts were flowing in and out
of my head.
"Why can't I live in forks" I whined all of
a sudden, comparing my dull life to Bella's. "Why can't I live
in forks" I repeated, although it was kind of pathetic trying to
balance my life to a fictional character. I stirred around
uncomfortable, trying to find the right position. After 3 hours I
finally drifted off.
Strange
Fresh
It's all happened so fast "AMY?"
I
slightly opened my eyes, puzzled by the unfamiliar voice. Where was
I?
The blurs had more Clarity now
someone nudged me vaguely
with their elbow.
"Concentrate Coach Clapp is getting
mad"
"What?!" I shrieked
my expression appeared
like a startled possum.
All of a sudden, a red ball came soaring
vigorously at my face.
"OUT" a loud voice spat. I walked
light-headed over to the bench and collapsed.
The girl next to me
sighed. "Are you alright?" she spoke lacking expression.
Almost like she didn't care.
I dragged my self onto the seat.
I
wanted to reply but couldn't find the right words, how I could, I
didn't know where I was!
"Where am I" I managed to croak
out.
"Are you kidding me" she signed
She flicked her
dark locks behind her back.
"Well, maybe it's Forks High"
she said sarcastically with a tiny chuckle.
"f-f-orks
h-high"I stuttered at the words
She just rolled her
eyes
"Jessica your back in" The blaring voice said
again.
She stood up in a second and rushed over.
I started
hyperventilating, was this real?
How the-
How - why? Was all I
could think?
This was utterly crazy
The sides of my lips
rounded, forks high?
A loud irritating bell basted out my
thoughts.
I stood there for a while misplaced,
I didn't know
where to go so I tagged along with "Jessica".
We entered
the changing room; I suddenly realized I was in my Sports gear.
I
travelled on the chilly cement, waiting to come across anything that
was mine
There was one bag remaining.
I quickly got
changed, into what I think was my outfit. A pair of Dark
cerulean,
skinny jeans and a Classic button-up shirt in crisp
white.
I Stood by Jessica's side again silent while she directed
me into
what looked like a cafeteria. The lights were blinding.
I
followed the others and got a medium sized tray and selected out the
food I savoured.
This was crazy, but I knew the instant I acted
like a manic, I would probably wake up, I was scared of that. Is
this real, is this real,
I contemplation over
and over in my head, this was completely and
utterly insane. I looked up absent-minded then stumbled over my
ballet flats, I promptly made my way over to the centre of the room,
looking for any signs of appetence, Jessica rolled her eyes and
signed pointing to the seat beside her, so I was included in the
group, I had a vibe she didn't like me. I settled into the seat and
glared down at Jessica's Taupe gray coat there was a tiny crimson
compact mirror, I picked it up and pointed to it smiling, she nodded
her head without expression and looked away, swiftly continuing her
discussion. I took that as I yes. I opened it up and saw my face, my
makeup was fine and my hair still had the thick bleached streak in
it, contrasting well with the black. I grinned, something suddenly
caught my eye in the small reflection I saw the 5 stunning vam-I
stopped. The words in the book could not describe how divine, how
gorgeous they looked.
My mouth unbolted, there was Alice "the
Alice" oh my g - jasper and Emmett and Rosalie and Edward my
grin became wider, there they were, "The Cullen's"
The
people I have dreamed about meeting my entire life and here they were
sitting at their table with untouched food in front of them, chatting
among themselves.
The thought unexpectedly popped up in my head
"Bella". I scanned the room looking around; idiotically I
realized where she was, sitting at this group." HI Bella" I
yelled across the table feeling childish.
"Uh
hi" She mumbled surprised.
What stage in the book is this
dream up to, this had to be a dream there's no explanation for
this, seriously!
I wondered if she had gone to biology with Edward
yet. The bell screamed in my ear.
I had no idea where I was going
next. I paced out of the cafeteria "Hey Bella" I yelled.
She slowed down and twisted around she had successfully tripped over
her laces and her books went flying, I giggled, typical Bella.
her
cheeks gave an indication of embarrassment
I hope she didn't think
I was being impolite.
I rushed up to her," Here I'll help" I
said with a pleasant smile picking up the books that were spread
across the floor.
"Thanks" her voice optimistic "So
biology next" I said bewildered
"I think so, this is my
first day and you haven't seemed to notice till now" She spoke
chuckling
"I'm Amy"
"Hello Amy, You already know my
name" she said cheerfully
"Yeah" I smiled
I followed
her; No idea which way we were walking.
She unfolded a small piece
of paper and stared at it,
She walked with more
confident,
"Sooo..." I said in a thrilled tone, I
couldn't believe I was talking to Bella. A broad smile spread
across my face.
"Yeah" she replied automatically
"You
like it in forks?" I alleged making my way through the door
way
Following Bella's lead.
"It's alright "She
spoke concerned trying to find an empty seat.
"Amy, here"
A dark haired girl said welcoming me to the seat next to her.
I
wanted to help Edward.
"Bella why don't you sit next to-"
I
stopped, I was wondering what her name was.
"Her" I pointed
in the direction of the other vacant seat I was invited to.
Edward
looked up in a baffled face,
He looked back down swiftly finishing
putting his books into an orderly pile
Just being in her presence
made me feel overwhelmed
I wanted to say something to him but at
that moment all the muscles in my body stiffened leaving me unable to
move.
I chewed my bottom lip waiting for Bella's decision
"I'm
fine" she said, the lie was obvious in her voice.
I could
tell she didn't want to be bad-mannered
"Uhhhkay then" I
said almost rejecting her answer
I heard a low moan in Edward
voice.
I saw the girl who my apparent partner waving her arm
franticly.
I quickly rushed over jumping into the seat and smiled
at her
I could see Edwards fists clench; he wouldn't be
concentrating on my mind so my thoughts were private for now.
The
teachers name was Mr. Bannis- No its Mr. Banner I corrected my self,
I had already learnt most of things he babbled on about
The only
thing I was really concerned about was the tough god-like vampire
sitting next to the tiny fragile human, what if I had altered the
story what
If he was going to murder 20 innocent people. Panic
washed through my face. In the book, there wasn't a girl called
Amy.
How long had I been in this school
Where did my family
live, Even if this was a dream my anxiety was taking over. I started
chewing my jagged nails.
Another habit I only started in times
like this. I yet again started hyperventilating .The girl next to me
spoke in a worried voice "Are you okay
If you're feeling
unwell you should go to the nurse"
"Is this real" I
said brushing the side of my face
"What?"
I pinched
my arm and yelped
"I-I'm okay" I faked a smile.
"You're
not acting like your normal self" She looked at me
distraught
"What do I usually act like" I said starting
to grind the next nail
"Not like this" She said back
hastily
I stared at her long dark hair
"Angela" I
said a bit too loud.
Wondering if I had said the correct name
Mr.
Banner narrowed his eyes directly at me
"Yeah?" She
growled
"I-"
She cut me of "Try not to talk to
loud next time" She signed
I nodded
What if Edward is
going to kill everyone?
Your
in a freaking book...I
thought to my self again, I must be mad
Maybe I'm in a coma;
maybe...I got hit by a car, yes good plot Amy. Okay
I got a hit by
a car now I'm in a coma, but if I got hit by a car and was in a coma,
how would I know I was in a coma and got hit by a car if I was in a
co -
I stopped, saving my self from any further confusion. I could
die any second and I mean literally he could snap my head of in a
second, snap, dead. I shuddered at the thought. Okay, If I survive
and he doesn't kill me. Then maybe I can talk to him after school,
not as in telling him I know... but, in fact what then what else is
there to say?
I have to say something, something that didn't make
me look like an absolute idiot. I took a deep breath. How did I know,
all of this was even real.
Okay, Look Amy, yeah this could be a
coma it could be a dream but this could be real. Who knows how, but
your here now, and you can think and you can move and feel and I
doubt if you were asleep you could.
I stared back Edward was still
sitting there, as distant as possible from Bella, hands coiled in
balls.
Suddenly he stared at me- it was intense my eyes bulged up
with emotion.
This part didn't happen in the book I feared for my
life at this moment
He unlocked the gaze. My heart rate was
racing, increasing every second, my throat started swelling up and I
felt the sweat running down my face
I couldn't breath, "I can't
breath" I spoke with every single bit of my strength. I tried to
take a gasp of air all I managed to do was a pathetic wine, my eyes
were getting teary
because the air was thrashing against them, or
maybe I was just tremendously paranoid. I don't know why but my feet
raised themselves, I was in full swing, sprinting to the doorway my
body felt like gelatine
Then finally I collapsed.
I woke up,
expecting to find my self in my own
bed; No. It was hard. There was no padding just timber and a thin
sheet casing it.
I knew one thing for certain this wasn't a
dream.
I elevated my legs my muscles were aching.
I headed for
the door
"Where did you think your going hunny" The
nurse said polity
"Class?" I croaked
"You've
sleep though all of the classes" She said with a smile
I hastily
tried escaping
Dragging my bag along with me
I failed
The
nurse caught me on my shoulder
"You had an anxiety attack dear"
she continued
"If there is something bothering you at home or at
school, please do talk to the school councillor" her voice was
sincere.
I nodded my head sheepishly and paced into corridor.
I
wasn't bothered about anything…only that I could have died
today.
I caught up with Bella.
"Are you all right?" She
asked tensely
"Yeah I'm fine" I whispered
Was I Okay,
She was in more danger than me, as soon as I left that just
Would
have been one less person to kill. I gulped
"I'm heading to
the office"
"Okay I'll come" I replied quickly
We
walked leisurely till we reached the humid office
"awh crap"
I spat out
Bella just took a quick fleeting look at me confused, I
shrugged my shoulders
I forgot, Edward was position at the front
desk Convincing the receptionist to change his classes round, I
wonder what Bella thought I looked behind me she was pressed up
against the wall
At that moment the door flew open with a gust of
wind coming in a lady came in placing one note in basket and then
left Edward turned around, I tried
Not to stare at him so I
looked down gazing at the deteriorated Linoleum flooring
Then I
had a sudden urge.
I ran outside after him, stupid idea but I had
to talk to him, I tapped him on the back He paused and looked at me
My heart stopped and I just stared, how someone could be so
beautiful it was impossible, you can't appreciate Bella's
Description until you see him in the flesh.
All I could do was
shrug
He turned back around within a second and started walking
again.
"Just don't leav-" I managed to choke out
But
he was already backing out of his park in his sliver Volvo
I
rushed back into the small office, the warm air was what I needed I
wasn't wearing a coat; I would need to wear one tomorrow, If there
was a tomorrow here.
"Fine" I heard Bella speak when I
entered, her voice was weak
She looked over at me,
"Why
are you waiting for me?" She spoke as she hurried out of the room
me by her side.
Yes why was I waiting for her? We were half way
through the car park.
"uhh I was going t-to - "
She
interrupted thank gosh for that
"Well I'll see you tomorrow
then" she spoke with a smile opening the door to her Chevy.
I
could tell it was a fake smile and that any minute she was going to
burst into tears.
If she only knew why Edward acted the way he
did, she wouldn't feel so miserable.
I looked around there were
just a few cars left, only two not parked in the staff area, Bella's
truck in the middle of backing out And a Black Honda Civic. I
rummaged around through my bag that I picked up in the changing room
before, searching for any keys.
"YAY" I squealed but no
one could here me anyhow.
I
pulled out the silver key with the Honda logo embossed in it, the key
was hanging of a lengthy cherry-coloured lanyard I was surprised when
the door became unlocked when I twisted the key. I leaped into the
front seat and heaved the door shut I thought for a moment
I had
no idea where I lived.
I backed out of the parking lot and slowly
travelled up the street.
Bella wasn't the only one crying, I saw a
tear escape my eye and another; soon enough there was a stream
Flowing down my cheeks I wiped my drying eyes as I looked at the
homes speculating, where the hell I lived, I didn't want to ask
anyone, I would look like a weirdo. I went faster all the objects
became a haze
Suddenly a gimps of a house caught my eye I speed up
the drive way and then came to a sudden halt.
I stepped out of the
car locking the door, I went up to the letter box cautiously, it was
ours, it was my families I remember decorating it when I was around
the age of 6.
A memory from my past was here? I toddled over to
the front door knocking on it
"Amy?" I glanced up it was
my Mum; she was peeking through to see who it was.
I was so
thrilled to see her
She unbolted the door.
I squeezed her with
all my force
As soon as I let go I pranced around inside.
"How
long have we lived in forks" I asked indiscriminately
"2
weeks I think I'm not sure' She looked puzzled
"I love you
mum!" I broke into tears, hugging her once more
"Awh,
whats wrong, hunny?" a crease appearing on her forehead.
"Just
happy to see you" I said a bit too cheesy
"What do you
want" She said amused but hugging me at the same time
I
hugged her tighter then wandered of
I opened the door down the
back of the inviting lounge
"Nope bathroom" I mumbled as I
closed the door
I opened the next door, parents' room.
This
room has to be mine I considered as I opened the next door
it was
I stepped inside it was sweltering I wondered why.
"Properly
left the heater on" I smirked.
it was the closest place to home
I had gotten ever since this bizarre thing happened.
Maybe it was
my home, maybe this is real.
I brushed my hands along the
old-fashioned wallpaper tracing the floral patterns with the tip of
my finger
I plunged on my cushy bed and joyful tears poured.
I
found an iPod camouflaged beneath my clothes in the timber drawer
I
searched though it and decided to put on hero/heroin one of my
favourite songs, It reminds me of twilight the story I am in I
grinned.
I decided to hop on my laptop because I was curious, if
they sold the twilight books, I searched through my draws again
wondering if I did have a laptop
sure enough I found it, It was
exactly the same as I had in my "other life"
It was cloaked
with paper on the top of my drawer; I collected the paper and shoved
it to the side
Then pulled out my laptop
I turned it on and
waited amusing myself by tapping my fingers.
Did we have a
wireless modem because there were no wires for internet connection?
I
logged in and waited a while. Staring at every inch of my room, the
internet was working; it was just slow properly because the wireless
barley reached my room
I doubled clicked on the Brower logo and
waited for it to pop up, when it did I googled "Twilight"
It didn't come up with any results about Stephanie Meyer
or
any twilight trailers it just came up with information about what
"twilight"
Really was "Twilight is the time before
sunrise, called dawn, and the time after sunset, called dusk."
As
it said on Wikipedia, I closed my laptop satisfied.
I went
through my draws again this time searching for my PJ's
Scattering
the clothes on the floor that weren't,
"Found them" a smirk
appeared on my face
I didn't plan on going out so I slid into
them
I leaped on my bed and thought
some of the past was still
presence, but I was affecting the future. Altering the plot of the
book. I always dreamed about living in forks
and here I was. This
is just freaking crazy
I
fell asleep missing dinner, I needed a good quality rest
I woke a
in the morning from an empty stomach
I saw a crepuscular light
appearing though the discoloured curtains
I quickly gobbled down
some cereal and washed it down with some orange juice
When looked
at the time, it was 5:00am obviously I wasn't late for school, I
hoped in the shower the water was kind of cold, but
It woke me up;
I got changed into a blank white t-shirt and covered it with a long
grey stylish coat and fitted my legs into some Navy blue skinny
jeans.
I turned my straighter on and put what I thought were my
necessary books in my bag
Then started straighten my hair, before
this bizarre thing happened
I had cut my hair like Alice Cullen
but my hair was different everything I had changed for the benefit of
the twilight saga didn't exist for me anymore.
I put on some
black cotton socks and slipped on some boots
I glanced at the
clock again 6 o' clock.
I played around with my hair until it was
just right
Then added some flicks on my eyes with the eyeliner
pencil
Japanese culture states that flicks make your eyes appear
longer
I procrastinated a little bit then went back to what I was
suppose to
My mood changed suddenly, there was going to be no
Edward today
I wonder if he could hear my thoughts or not, I
wonder if I should tell me what I know about him.
"Amy?"
a voice whispered behind me.
I turned around in a defensive
pose
It was my father.
"Dad" I yelled
hugging him
securely
"T-to tight" He struggled to get the words out
Which
surprised me I loosened my arms.
"Sorry" I partly
smiled
He walked of to get some brunch,
I didn't hear him come
in last night properly because I was fast asleep
I took a large
stride forward and glimpsed down at a photo protected in a Burgundy
photo frame
It was me, my, mum, dad and my older brother (he had
moved out when he was 18)
The sun was reflecting of the camera
lens when it was taking by the looks so you couldn't see our face
that well,
But it was a cheerful photo it was happy. I grinned.
We
used to have this photograph at our old home. Before our latest home
in Forks.
