I think this chapter is kind of dramatic and it may seem a little cheesy or boring, but it'll eventually get better, I promise! After all, it's the introduction.
Oh, and please forgive me for my bad grammar, english is not my native language.
My name's Katniss Everdeen. I'm sixteen years old. I survived the Hunger Games. I don't know why. I went to the arena and survived once again. District twelve doesn't exist anymore. I'm now living in District thirteen. Peeta died in the 75th Hunger Games, because of me…
"Katniss?" Gale whispers "Are you okay?"
"I killed him" I mutter bitterly. "I'm a murder…"
"Katniss, it's not your fault…" he says.
"It's not my fault?!" I laugh bitterly "He should've got out of the arena, Gale! Not me! I should've not left him alone!" Gale slowly caresses my cheek
"Everything's okay, Catnip, you couldn't save him, it isn't your fault."
"Don't you understand it?! I'm selfish. I was supposed to take care of Peeta, and I didn't freaking do it!"
"It wasn't your job; you don't have to feel this way, Katniss!"
"If I didn't take care of him, who would've done it?! I was his only hope and I betrayed him…" My vision starts getting blurry because of the tears. I blink them away. "I don't want to talk about this right now, Gale..."
"Okay, Katniss, I'll leave you alone." He mutters sadly.
"Thank you…" The moment Gale gets out of my room, I run out to the woods as fast as I can, I stop when I'm out of breath, I hold into a tree and break down, I feel weak as the tears start streaming down my face. "I'm sorry Peeta" I mutter. I yell and cry until I feel numb, I can't think about anything but Peeta... Why him?
I can't fight the guilt I feel… Why didn't I save him? Why am I alive? Maybe it's my punishment for not taking enough care of Peeta… I should've kept him next to me… I should go to the Capitol and let Snow kill me, that's better than living with this guilt… Suddenly, I hear the sound of footsteps behind me. I wipe my tears and turn around, it's Finnick.
"Why so blue, Girl on Fire?" he asks "Aren't you supposed to be bursting on flames?"
I look around me, it's dark now, and I think I lost sense of the time.
"I'd like to be set on fire right now…" I mutter. Finnick seats quietly next to me and hugs me.
"Everything's going to be fine, I'll be here for you, and we'll be together in this." He whispers in my ear. I smile weakly.
"Thank you, Finnick" I say as I look on his deep green-blue eyes, he smiles.
"Everything will be okay Katniss, I promise you." He looks for something in his pocket "Want a sugar cube?" he whispers and smiles seductively.
"Not now, thank you…" He sighs and hugs me tighter. I feel like if his hug glued all the pieces I broke into. "Thank you for being here with me…" I say looking into his eyes. I've never noticed how beautiful his eyes were, green-blue, like the ocean. Now I get why the people in the Capitol find him so irresistible.
"What's with my eyes?" he asks grinning.
"Nothing, it's just that I have never noticed that your eyes are the same color as the ocean, I like them"
"I know right, I'm irresistible, I bet that you're already falling for me… Aren't you Katniss?" He says with a huge smile on his face.
"Shut it, Finnick" I say laughing.
Why am I laughing? Am I insane or bipolar? I don't care, neither do I know. All I know is that Finnick's prescence helps me to cope with Peeta's death, surprisingly, I'd rather spend more time with Finnick than Gale. I sigh.
"That's it, you're madly in love with me." He says as he introduces a sugarcube into his mouth, I laugh.
"You're crazy..." I say smiling.
"I'm not crazy, Girl on Fire, I'm aware of the effect I have over you, and every single person I know." He says with a seductive smile.
"Hush" I say as I friendly punch him.
"Whoa, have you just punched me?" He says with fake resentment.
"Yup, I just did" I say with an innocent smile.
"Oh, Miss Everdeen, you'll regret that." He says grinning.
"Oh, sure." I say as I push him apart.
He stands up, picks me up like if I was a little girl and then carries me in his shoulder.
"Put me down!" I demand indignated. I guess I don't sound any convincing because I'm laughing as I say it.
"No, I'll have my revenge" He keeps carrying me on his shoulder and starts walking deeper into the woods, he stops when we're in front of a lake, I imagine what he's going to do, he's definitely going to throw me in.
"Don't you dare, Odair" I tell him serious and quietly.
"Why not?" he asks playfully "Let's turn off your flames, Girl on fire"
At the moment he starts taking me off his shoulder to, I grab his arm and he falls with me, we laugh and splash water at each other, like if we were little kids. He takes me in his arms like if I were a baby and walks out of the water; we sit on a tree log.
"Now you're not bursting in flames" he says smiling "You can thank me later."
"Maybe a punch will express my gratitude" I grin.
"Don't you like to swim?" He asks.
"I do, but I'd rather go hunting" I say smiling
"Maybe you should teach me how to hunt" he says "It would be useful"
We sit in silence for a while.
"Do you miss him?" he asks quietly.
"Yeah" I mutter sadly and feel the tears burning in my eyes, I blink them away, I can't afford myself to have another breakdown, less in front of Finnick or anyone. I take a deep breath and try to smile, but it looks more like a grimace than a smile "I guess he's in a better place…" My voice sounds like someone else's...
I never thought I'd miss Peeta like this, in fact, I never thought I'd lose him… He was too kind to die, he didn't deserve it. I should've died in his place. What hurts and tortures me the most is that I think I did love him, I'm not sure yet, but what do I know is that Snow is going to pay for everything and everyone he has taken away from me and the rest of the people from the districts.
"What are you thinking about?" Finnick asks looking me into the eyes.
"Nothing" I say as I get my feet back on the ground.
"You're the worst liar I've ever met, Katniss." He says with a smile.
I sigh and look at my feet; I hate feeling vulnerable and talking about my feelings; but, when it comes to Finnick, everything's different, I feel comfortable talking to him.
"I was thinking about Peeta, about how life would be if he were alive".
He doesn't say anything, he just hugs me tight and I feel his warmth surrounding me, it's a nice feeling, I hug him back and just let the tears stream down my face.
When I'm done crying I take a deep breath and hug Finnick one more time.
"Thank you" I whisper.
"It's okay; I'll be here for you whenever you need someone to talk to or just to hang out with. No matter what, I'll always be" He says smiling.
I ran to the woods to be alone and clear my mind, I needed a breath from everything that was lately going on; I didn't expect neither want anyone to find me, but I'm glad it was Finnick.
This is it for the first chapter! Please tell me what you think about it(:
Thank you for reading. xo