I leaned back in the chair and looked at the envelope. It was written in Jacob Black's angry scrawl. I've read it over and over. He wanted me back, and I know I wanted to be with him as well. It's not me staying away from Jake, it's Edward holding me on a leash.

"I want to see him." I said

"No." He replied

"Yes, I can, Edward."

"No, you can't. He's dangerous."

"Your dangerous. But what stops you?"

"I can control myself."

"My blood sings to you. I'm Jake's bestfriend."

"He has a pack of wolves."

"I make him feel human."

"Don't fool him."

I stood up from the chair and threw it across the room. HE was calling JACOB not human? At least JACOB has a beating HEART! At least Jacob doesn't feed from animals! At LEAST JACOB CAN AGE IF HE WANTS! AT LEAST JAKE TRIES TO TURN HUMAN AGAIN! BUT HE CAN'T BECAUSE OF THE CULLENS!

"LEAVE! NOW! GO! I need time to think!"

"Bella, I will not leave you here!"

"Charlie's right there! Embry is outside! Leave! If I ask Embry, and he says no, Edward, I'm calling Rosalie and Emmet, and they'll get you out of my hair! In fact,-" I waited till I could catch a breath. Charlie was watching the game, and I was whispering. "Embry! Phase back, please! Come in and eat." I said

With that, Edward walked out the door, and I saw him get into his ugly little Volvo. I didn't look when he waved, said nothing. CHarlie had come out to th eporch with me and laid a hand on my shoulder. He squeezed it, and I knew he had to say something.

"Yes, dad?" I said

"I know you don't want to hear this, but Bella-"

"I'm up for anything, dad. Really, Embry's coming soon, I called him and asked him to come over and eat. I'm making his favorite, which is also your favorite, do you want some? I'm not hungry, but I'm eating something light, so I don't get sick."

"Yes please, and it's nice to know Jake isn't your only friend outside of the Cullen's. It's good your doing this for all of them, especially Embry, I know you know why I think that."

"Yeah, I do. Alright, sit down and tell me what you wanna say."

"Oh, right. I know Jake's letter said he was down about not seeing you, but he's also mad at you, because you took the Cullen's back in a blink of an eyue when they hurt you so bad. It hurt him too, like it hurt me, seeing you like that. You've always been indestructible, well, emotioinally at least, to him. You were there for him to talk about his mom when no one else wanted too, and you were strong for him every visit. And in return he was there for you. Bella, I'm just saying, I see something in your eyes when the boys come and tell you what he's been up too, and I know that spark. That's the spark I saw in Sue and Sarah's eyes whenever the men were mentioned. Sue, still lights up when I tell her tales she doesn't know. And I see it in Jake's eyes when I go to the reservation. That's the spark I see in Billy when Sarah's name is mentioned"

I had heard the roar of the engine before I saw it. It was my red motorcycle. I gave it to Embry, and Esme and Carlisle bought one for Quill so the three boys could go riding togeather. Why, did they do so, because it made me happy when Jake was with the two, having actual HUMAN fun. Even though I know he's having fun with the boys, I wish it was me with him. It pulled up, and I knew it was all for show because he could have simply walked from the bush to here, but Charlie would get suspicious. I waited for Embry to get off before I ran off the porch and hugged him.

He hugged me back tight, and I knew why. He heard it all. He heard me yell at Edward, and I think that was the first time I ever stood up for myself to anyone without backing down. I breathed in the familiar earthy scent. I knew everybody in the wolf pack's smells by heart. Embry's was a nice woodsy, like a evergreen smell, with a hint of salty air. Quill smelled like a nice oak fire. Paul always smelled like a maple tree, JAred smelled like salt water, Sam smelled just, well woodsy, and Jake. I knew Jake's scent a mile away, it was woodsy, a little musky and with a hint of the smell of the little red garage, he smelled like home. Made me feel like I was at home.

And I smelt him. I looked around rapidly, and CHarlie had gone inside to get the ingridents out for me, so we were safe. I was enraged. Embry was keeping Jake from me by hugging me. I glared at him.

"Where is he." I demanded

"Sleeping. I have a letter for you, Bella."

He pulled it out and I snatched it from him, and I realized I was being rude. I looked apoligizingly at him.

"Sorry, I just really miss him."

"It's making me food."

"CAn I read it with in the kitchen, or will it say something that will make me freak?"

"You can read it in the kitchen."

"Good. I'm betting a hundred that your hungry."

"Aww... But Bella, that's like cheating, we're always hungry." he pouted like a child

"I know, let's get inside. I have a spare pair of clothes just for my boys."

"Okay, good, cuz these jeans are too hot."

We went inside and I started the meal.