Title: No Going Back

Author: Gilmoregirl7878

A/N: Just something that came to me earlier, I like it so I had to write it. If you think I should continue, I might. But for now, I might keep it as a one shot or something.

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Maybe years later when Rory looked back on her life she might regret doing this, maybe one day it would come back to haunt her. Maybe someone would find out and it would get around the school.

All those 'maybes' didn't matter at the time though. Hell, they didn't even enter her mind.

There wasn't a maybe when she told her Mother that she never lied to that she was 'sick' and wanted to go home early.

There wasn't a maybe when she drove to his house and knocked on his bedroom door.

"What are you doing here...at my house?" He asked.

"I don't know." She whispered before throwing her arms around his neck and kissing him.

She pulled back to look at his reaction, which was mostly shocked.

"What was that?"

"I love you...and I don't want you to say it back. Just..." She trailed off, but he knew exactly what she wanted, words didn't have to be said between them, they just knew.

There was no going back.

He led her to his bed kissing her, and laid her down on it. His kisses trailed down her neck, only stopping when he pulled her shirt over her head and continuing down to her stomach, removing the last piece of clothing that covered her chest.

She immediately went to cross her arms to cover herself, embarrassed, but he stopped her.

"You're beautiful." He whispered, assuring her, she nodded weakly, looking up at him.

His hands were everywhere. Making her feel things that no one else could, making her want things that she thought weren't important but now that she felt them, didn't know how she would live with out them.

His hands finally made it to her jeans zipper and slowly pulled them down, once they were off and all she was clad in was a pair of panties, he leaned his body flesh up against Rorys.

It wasn't until she felt that he wanted...needed her as much as she needed him, that she pulled his shirt off, putting her legs around his hips and flipping them so she was sitting on top him, smirking at his socked expression.

She kissed his bare chest, her hands busy with undoing his jeans, once they were undone and thrown with the rest of their clothing she found herself beneath him again.

He smirked and kissed her deeply as he pulled her panties off her slowly, agonizingly slowly, while she pushed down his boxers.

Right before he entered her he paused, looking into her eyes. There was no need to ask her if she was sure, because he already knew.

After he entered her she gasped in pain, he stayed like that for a moment, whispering things in her ear that he would probably never say again and truly mean them like he did now.

When she signaled for him to continue they worked together, never leaving each other's gaze until they climaxed and he rolled onto his back panting.

They stayed together that night never going asleep, but making love. Little words were spoken, aside from each other's names and profanities that were screamed out in a blind passion.

It wasn't until Rory got dressed and was walking out the door when he truly said something.

"I love you, Rory Gilmore." He told her, kissing her one last time, maybe the last time and watched her walk out of his life.

When Rory reached her bedroom window the sun was just peaking out from the horizon, instead of quickly entering her room again she looked up at the sky and smelled the morning air. It was something she would never forget, that morning and the whole night.

She was asleep for maybe a half an hour when her Mother came into the room and told her to get ready for school. Rory wasn't tired as she thought she would feel after getting almost no sleep that night.

She didn't know what she was feeling.

Rory went through her day quietly, although no one noticed for she was never loud anyways. She paid attention to her teachers during her classes and read her book while eating her lunch.

To them, nothing had changed. They didn't know that something life-altering had happened to her.

She got onto her bus to Stars Hollow and kissed her boyfriend that loved her and spent a couple hours with him...to him also, nothing had changed.

He didn't know that his girlfriend had been with the guy that she loved the night before, nor did he know that she had said things that he had never heard and probably never would to another man.

Another man, that wasn't him.

When she told him she had to meet her mom at Luke's, he kissed her good-bye.

"I love you, Rory." He told her.

"I love you too, Dean." She quickly responded, wondering how she could say those things to him when she knew what telling someone you love them felt like and when you loved that person and he said it back...there was no quick response.

She entered Luke's and sat down next to her Mother. She listened to the normal ramblings of Lorelai's crazy day and smiled and laughed at the right times.

She was the perfect innocent daughter in Lorelai's eyes. But, What Lorelai's eyes didn't see that her daughter would never be innocent again. She had loved and lost.

"So babe, how was your day? Did Bible Boy a.k.a. Tristan DuGrey drive you crazy today? Do I have to go get Luke to kick his butt?"

Never any profanities in front of Rory. She was too pure for that. Only one person saw behind that and treated her like any other person.

"No Mom. Tristan's on his way to North Carolina to go to Military school." Rory responded.

"Well, that's great news for you!" Lorelai said cheerfully.

It wasn't until Rory got back to her room safely and looked at the clothes she had worn the night before when she broke down sobbing.

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A/N: Sad...I know. I love it though. I don't know if I should continue it. Let me know what you think. There are so many Tristan comes back from Military School that I don't want to over do it. I do hope however that this was a little more original, I strive for originality.

Anyways, one last quick note, if anyone could help me out, there is this fic that I'm dying to find again, it's a Lit and in it Rory goes to live with this Aunt that she has in NYC because Lorelai has to go to London for Cancer treatment. Meanwhile there she meets her Cousin's best friend Jess. I can't find it again and I'm dying to read it, if anyone knows what it is please tell me the title!

Anyways, thanks for reading, please let me knew what you think.