Hey everyone! I know it has been a while, but I am re-vamping my story! Whoo!
I have been reluctant to continue, afraid of what people will think of my writing and what my content includes.
But I'm gonna try, I put on my big girl panties this morning, and am stealing my friend's statement – Fake it 'til ya make it!
So here goes.
This story is deeply personal for me. While the story line itself isn't exactly my life, it is pretty similar. I lived out of my car for a while when I was 16, have been raped, beaten, and torn down to nothing by people who I thought I loved. I have lost my son, and survived. So I am writing, to try and get some of my feelings out there.
Here's the thing – yes, Bella had a lot of the same shit going on as me. And I am going to write about it in pretty explicit detail. If that bothers you, DON'T READ!
This story is going to be about a very vulnerable, naturally submissive Bella and a rich, domineering, protective, even possessive Edward. He is going to "fix" her, or die trying. If you have an issue with her lack of spine, DON'T READ!
The thing is, when I get these hurtful reviews and PMs, I stop writing, and loose my confidence in my whole life. So while it may make you feel better to tear me down as a person and writer, please don't do it. It's hard to put my stuff out there – the deepest, darkest, most hurtful things that have ever happened to me. And for you to stomp on it? Yeah, I won't leave my house for days.
So that's the end of my ramblings for now, I have to be off to a doctor's appointment so you are spared a much more wordy introduction.
Also, all of the characters belong to the wonderful Ms. Stephanie Meyer. The storyline, and some individual traits are all me. Please keep this in mind as you read, as I don't intend to post this disclaimer every chapter. It is here, before my writing even starts, for everyone to see.
Please be gentle with me in reviews!
~~ Duckie (yeah, that's what my friends call me)