A/N: Hey guys, this is a random poem I had written about my boyfriend, and, well, it needs some work, but I don't want it just sitting on my computer anymore, I hope you like it and I hope you guys don't hate me for taking so long to update, but I'm working up the courage to write a love story when I hurt so bad. I miss him a lot and I'm having a hard time, but I shall work my hardest to finish. So if your a first time reader look at my other stuff and if your a Natalie fan, then, well, be patient, please. I'm sorry, please review this! I need the feedback, again, I am not a poet, but I worked really hard for our one year anniversary on it.
You Only Matter
I was falling; fallings so hard—blind to the works. There was only a pair of eyes that I could distinguish. The eyes had a chocolate allure in the disgruntled mess in which I called a life. But those eyes scared me and so I fled. Nightmares of losing hope. No comfort anywhere else but in your reassuring arms, but still I could not recognize that. Though a deeply rooted need in which only my subconscious understood.
A kiss in public amid the chaos was the hope I thought I lost from my dreams, The promise, "I won't hurt you."
Four words that meant everything.
Scared of the consequences of my actions, I fought with myself—hours upon hours—on the need conquering the fear. I opened my heart at the thought of losing, and gained more than I could hope for: two arms held out for me at any given time, two eyes that saw me for who I am, A touch that could send goose bumps up my arm and heat through my veins, a mind that could understand mine clearer than I could have hoped to, and another soul that could connect with mine on levels that no one could.
The fear disappeared, the worry no more, because in these arms nothing mattered but the feeling of the love. Realization hit me hard, love a difficult feeling to feel, but those chestnut eyes took my heart by storm. How could I compete with such painstaking beauty? How could those eyes only see me? Day by day my feelings grow, and even when my heart seems so overbearingly full I might just explode, something else you do makes my heart grow bigger. Uncomfortably comfortable. All I need is you. You make me happy, you keep me sane, you hold me up when all I want to do is fall down and cry, you take over my thoughts and body and soul. Make me try harder and make me love you more.
A kiss in public amid the chaos was the hope I thought I lost from my dreams, The promise, "I won't hurt you."
Four words that meant everything.
I wish I could explain better, the exact depth my feeling go, but that would be like telling someone what is at the end of the universe, when it goes on forever. I wish I could explain how much I truly care and how much you, with the chestnut eyes, helped me even when I hurt you so. You opened up your heart and soul to me, and I'm so glad you did, because there is no way I could live without you.
I wish it was easier to get the words out right, but words are stupid and useless and never come out right. All I can do is hope that my eyes convey what I really mean and you can see that this is just a small insignificant piece of my feelings. Of which will never truly be conveyed through any way. I could be the best poet, or the greatest writer, I could paint all I wanted, but there is no way any of it would tell even touch on the fact that.
I love you Forever and ever more. There is only you.
A kiss in public amid the chaos was the hope I thought I lost from my dreams, The promise, "I won't hurt you."
Four words that meant everything.
And forever will.