Yet another songfic. Read and review please!

If I said what's on my mind
You'd turn and walk away
Disappearing way back in your dreams
It's so hard to be unkind
So easy just to say
That everything is just the way it seems

Here I am, looking at my wife, Summer. I love her so much. Needless to say, she loves me too. Or at least she loves the person she thinks I am. To her, I am perfect. I am a hardworking, successful businessman with a great family in a fancy neighborhood. I listen to good, clean music. No rock music for me. No rock music ever again. I gave it all up so I could give her my all.

You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be

Manager and drummer. Who would've thought? I mean, we never got along great. But the band, it changed everything. Absolutely everything! I found myself falling for Summer sometime in our sophomore year. I lost my friends all so I could make her happy. See, when I quit the band to bring my grades out of the abysmal levels they were in, the other band members practically disowned me. But Summer stuck by me.

If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this dream you see
A man I'll never be

Summer was even my tutor to help bring my grades up after I quit. I remember our first kiss, even. It was about a month after I quit the band. She stayed on as manager there though, but we couldn't let them find out that we were still friends or she'd be kicked out too.

We were on my living room couch, after school before my parents got home on a rainy day. We were going over my Spanish homework.

"Now I'll say a phrase and you continue the conversation," Summer said in her kind but no nonsense voice. "Me gusta la música. Y tú?"

I blanked out. So I made up a sentence and prayed it made sense. "Yo amor usted."

Summer blinked. "You mean you love the music?"

"No," I said quietly. "I love you."

I can't get any stronger
I can't climb any higher
You'll never know just how hard I've tried
Cry a little longer
And hold a little tighter
Emotions can't be satisfied

We've endured so much together since that day, and through it all we triumphed. Summer and I love each other so much. I just can't break her heart by telling her that I am living a lie. For you see, I still desperately want music in my life. Our daughter, with Summer's raven hair but the attitude I had as a kid, comes home from school every day telling us how she can play a new song on the piano. I would love to call Lawrence and have him give her pointers, but that part of my life is over. And I'm not so sure I can accept that.

You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be

But somehow, I have to accept it. It is who I am now, who I have made myself to be. I gave up music in exchange for Summer. I doubt whether I could even play the School of Rock demo song anymore on my drums. No matter how badly I want that life back, it is gone forever. I am stuck playing this charade for as long as I am with Summer. But it makes her happy, so let the masquerade continue in every single way except the one part I can't change. My heart.

If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this dream you see
A man I'll never be

Hope you liked it! It made me so sad to write...that song just makes me sad! Review now, you know you want to!