Hi guys! I hope you're still alive after watching Hunt because I need you ! Here's my first writing in english (yeah because I'm French) so, I need you to read it and if you can, just tell me if I'm in the good way or...not. It's really not an extraordinary storyline and someone has probably already written about that but I'm just trying to train myself with the english writing thing.

Tell me too if you want me to write more or not. Just be honest, I'm learning so, no big deal. I'll don't take it personally.

Thanks to Ellie and Verity who had the kindness to read and correct me. You girl, are the best.

Of course,I don't own the characters . I'm not that clever

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Chapter one - Don't go

"No one outside of this immediate family ever needs to know about this. As far as the world is concerned, Roy Montgomery died a hero. We owe it to him. All of us."

Standing in front of all these people , dressed in her uniform, she started to do her speech. She had to show them , a last time, the hero who was Roy. She had to honor him. For all he had done for her, all he was to his family, to his friends. No matter what he had done, he was a great man and he deserved to be remembered as such.

"Roy Montgomery taught me what it meant to be a cop. He taught me that we are bound by our choices, but we are more than our mistakes. Captain Montgomery once said to me that, for us there is no victory. There are only battles. And in the end, the best you could hope for is to find a place to make your stand. And if you're very lucky.." She turned to Castle,a node threatening to tighten her throat.".. you find someone willing to stand with you. Our captain would want us to carry on the fight. And even if there is..."

"Kate!"

Suddenly, she heard a gunshot sound,she felt her back on the ground and a weight on her, screams,screams everywhere,they said she's been shot ? But she hasn't felt anything and why did she have blood on her hands? The time seemed to stopped. No. Noo. God no. It can't be. It couldn't be him.

She looked up to him, and all she could see , was his eyes wide and empty. All she could feel, was his weight heavier and heavier. All she could hear was his heavy breathing, almost non-existent.

Everything was loud all around them,but yet she couldn't hear anything.

This was a nightmare, she was on her way to wake up. That was it.

But she heard his voice, weak, almost a moan,begging her.

"Kate.."

She tried to find where the bullet had entered him but she couldn't. "No! Don't. Don't speak. Please, Just. Stay with me, okay?" she pleaded. Was she crying? Was that tears on her cheeks? No. She couldn't loose him. Not now, not like that! That bullet was for her, not him! God, why was he all the time playing the hero?

"I-"

She framed his face with her hands obliging him to look at her. "Shh..Castle, don't speak. I'm here. You're fine, we're fine okay? We will get through this, I promise you, okay? Just don't go, don't go." God, she could feel her heart threatening her to explode. More and more blood flowed onto the grass and he let his front fall on hers.

"I- I'm so sorry Kate"

"Castle! Please! Don't do that! You can't go!" Sudden sobs were shaking her body now and she felt as though she couldn't breathe.

"I- I love you" On this, his eyes closed and she had all his weight on her.

Her eyes went wide ,he what? He love her ? And he had waited to be killed to tell her he loved her? Dammit Castle!

She tried to return his body to the ground and she yelled.

"Here! It's Castle. It's not me, It's Castle.." She repeated his name again, and again as if she couldn't believe it was him. His partner. Almost dead on the ground. It felt so unreal.

And then, sirens were heard, he was transported into the ambulance and she was still on the ground, her body shaking, her hands covered by blood. Reliving the scene again and again. His voice so broken, his eyes usually so hopeful and shining, so dark. The Feeling of the life leaving his body just above her.

"Kate.." She recognized Lanie's voice and her hand on her shoulder. She tried to control her emotions, her tears. She got up to her knees wiping her wet cheeks with her sleeve. She looked away her jaw tight , taking a deep breath.

Ok Kate, time to be strong.

She stood up in front of her friend, giving her a weak smile.

"I'm..fine Lanie." Yes. She was fine. She was very very fine. Hell no, she was a mess.

"Come on honey, let's go to the hospital. He needs you."

He needs her? He's dead! Gone, he had left her alone.

"I- Okay." -

They were all in the waiting room, in an oppressive atmosphere, all was silent. Ryan,Lanie and Esposito were close to the wall, Martha was in a chair hiding her head in her hands, Alexis couldn't stop walking with bloodshot eyes and she was in a chair staring at the wall in front of her, her father's hands on her shoulder. She couldn't believe this was happening , and watching all these people, all her friends with these sad looks, it was breaking her heart a little more. She couldn't even look Martha or Alexis in the eye, she just..can't. Her son/Her father was here because of her. He jumped on her. Took the bullet for her. It was supposed to be her, fighting for her life not him, Dammit! She was almost shot and he really she maybe wouldn't be able to see him again, she felt her whole body shake again, she felt her eyes stinging and threatening to let the tears drop. She tightened her jaw , trying to take deep breaths and calm herself but she couldn't.

So she did the only thing she could, she stood up and excused herself almost running to the bathroom, the tears were already flowing and the air seemed to be gone. She had to be strong, she was trying not let go, she needed to let go. She let her body fall against the wall while being shaken by her sobs, she let out what seemed to be a moan and the tears were back even stronger. A few minutes later, she started to calm down, taking a deep breaths while her heart slowed. She made her way to the waiting room and almost all eyes were on her. They all knew why she was gone, but nobody bothered to talk.

Walking next to Alexis and Martha she said the only thing she could say right now. "I'm sorry" .

The younger redhead looked up at her with empty eyes,the same empty eyes she had seen on her father a few hours before and her throat went dry."Don't. just don't speak."

She heard her sharp tone and she swallowed going back to her chair. She took her father's hand in hers and she sighed heavily, she was tired.

They heard the front door opening with the surgeon walking through it with a neutral face. "Castle's Family ?"

They all raised their eyes to him and she could feel her body tense. Martha stood up taking Alexis in her arms.

"We all are."

The surgeon gave a small smile. "We had complications but he went through the procedure pretty well,the bullet caused a large blood loss and a few broken ribs but he's gonna be just fine".

They all sighed and the pressure in the room seemed lighter.

"When could we see him?" The young redhead said with a hopeful voice.

"Well, we don't know when he's gonna to wake up and when he will, he's gonna be really weak but you can already go see him. Just two at the time and not more than one hour." On that note, he smiled and made his way to another room.

"See ? He's just fine!" The older redhead wrapped her arms around the younger one and Kate could feel a weak smile grow on her lips.

He's gonna be fine. He's alive. They're fine.

And now hot, happy tears were flowing on her cheeks, she hugged her father sighing. A heavy weight was gone from her shoulders and it was good.